It has been days that i update again.
Hmm, the past 3 days, i was at camp at Upper Bukit Timah, The Salvation Army.
It was fun, great and i also learnt more about God :D
Thumbs up for those who organised the camp and the games! :D

Today, school started.
Wasn't that bad.
Need to start focusing more on studies everyday.
Will not update much most of the time.
Getting more n more busy.
Gtg.
Have things to do, update again another time.
See you! :D

Enjoy schooling/working!

Sorry for not updating for past few days.
I decided to blog less.
MSN-ing less.

Have not been at my usual self, moody.
Sorry if i have been nasty or annoy you. I'm not alright =(
Need time.

Bye.

I'm going for the camp!
Hooray!
I love mummyyy :D

My phone died on me yesterday T.T
Using temporary phone now, which is really crazy.
Things in calendar, some contacts, photos, music, messages are ALL goneeeee, sad.
Hope my mum gets new phone for me today.
I'll be out until night.
Hope to see A NEW PHONE tonight pleasee! Haha :D

Okay, bye.

*sobsob*
I'm really disappointed with my mum ):
She came telling me this:
- I regretted on letting you to go MHI.
- I regretted on letting you to go church.
- I should not have let you go MHI.
I told her that if i never know MHI/go church, i'll NOT have true friends seriously.
Know whats her reply? - I DON'T CARE.

I felt very disappointed.
I felt very discouraged.
I felt very sad.
*crying*
Maybe i should stop all theseeeee that will satisfy my mum?..

Maybe I should forget about the camp.
Maybe I should forget everything.
Maybe I just continue, studying for my N levels, O levels and the future where i will go.
Maybe 19June will be just my last outing.
Maybe i should stop going church.
Maybe i should stop all activities in MHI.

Actually in what i have thought:
- Know MHI, know more people.

MHI is a place where God lets me have the opportunity that i get my 1st sworn brother, get another sworn sister and haveee more close friends like Victor, Caroline, Patrick, Erni, Lynette, Joe Eng, Yanyu, Jaslyn and etc. Seriously MHI brightens my life up.
My personalities changed alot since i met MHI.

I show more care in my family especially when someone gets sick.
Don't you notice?
My love for my family has been closer now.
Don't you notice?
You just think that i always go out with friends, thinking that 'Friends are more important than family'.
I think this in the past.
But now, i realised that FAMILY is more important.
But, do you ever notice that?

I thought my problems will be solved after i met MHI and people from thereee. Friends' problems ended up into family problems.
Then, if i nv know MHI, i always have friends' problems.
I WANT FRIENDS.
I WANT FAMILY.
I want a quiet, peaceful and nice life. This's really tooo much unhappiness =(

What a stupid silly life i have.
*crying* =(

11/06

Happy Birthday to Kor Anthony! <3
You want present from meee? Must wait until next week =p

I woke up in late morning and messed up my life. What's wrong with me? Stupid of meee.
I disappointed someone(not my mum) and i'm truly sorry for that ):

Had a fun talk with YY and Nette on MSN too.
Before i had my lunch, Kor was up awake and went online. Heh.
After i had my lunch, i went pleading my mum to sign the camp form. She got irritated by meeee. T.T
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE SIGN, PLEASE PLEASE SIGN~

Ok, i have made up my mind.
If she really don't want to sign, i'll just give up on thinking of going to the camp and Xuehui, go for the camp since you have the chance. Forget about me if i really can't go.
Once she touch the form, get the pen and sign it, i'll be very happy defintely!

Let's pray hard until she give me the final answer!
Dear God,
I pray for some confidence that she will let me go for the camp.
I pray for good health for my dear daddy.
I pray for intelligence in whatever i do in my studies.
Amen.

My mind is full of thoughts. My life seems to be changed. I'm no longer someone who is very noisy.
I don't wish to worry others too much.
I don't wish to hear things i dislike.

10/06

MUMMMMYYYYY! PLEASEEEEEE SIGN THE FORM! I'm sooo annoyed already, haizzz ):
PAPAAAA! Get well faster! Recover faster! Sign the form! Mummy dont want sign! Siannnnn ):
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SOMEONE MAKE MY MUM SIGN THE CAMP FORM! I'M SO DEPRESSED BY THIS! =(

Lunch, tuition and dinner with Kor today.
I got cheered up abit.
Thanks to Kor.
But he looked stressed too, lol? Anyway, he's alright, ya? :D

MY FIRST THING IN MY MIND IS TO GET MY MUMMY TO SIGN THE FORM! RAHHHH~

Yes i'm still awake. Yes i'm crazy-.-.
Slept from 2am until 4am.
Can't sleep.

Sorry, Carolineeee that i didn't reply you in MSN last night again. A MILLION SORRY TO YOU!

Still feeling very irritated):
I apologise if i'm being annoyed with anyone of you.

I just want to do my things alone!
I want go for the camp pleaseeee. The chance of going and not going is 50-50. I'll keep on ranting on my mum until she lets me go. Yesterday failed, she got angry.
Gonna try tonight, wish me luck -.-.
Feel like going out aloneeeeeeeeeeeeee! Feel like punching someone =x.
Sigh.
Enough of my unhappiness. I shldn't pour out too much. Keep to yourself.

I'm looking forward to the weekends! I'm looking forward to 19june! :D
I'll be looking forward to the camp if i can go, RAHHHHHHH~
So infuriating =/

Update again tonight.

STILL HOPELESS!

Pray to God for my dad.
He's having high fever n bad cough.
Bless him with good health!
Give him strength and power during work!
He work really hard for my family, don't let anything happen to him please!

Pray to God that my mum will accept that i want to believe in God!
I want to go for the camp!
I want to believe in God!

Buddhism, i can't believe anything in it seriously.
I believe more in God and can teach me in many ways.
I realised that most HI people are Christians actually. I realised many things can be taught in the bible. I realised MANY MANY MANY things after going to church for some time.

Update again later.

A million sorry for those i've been 'nasty' to today, i'm quite irritated today.
Don't know why *sob*

So irritated todayyyyy.
I only completed 1 1/2 sets of Accounts. I still have another 1 1/2 sets to go.
I only completed 4 out of 7 questions in Kor's EMaths paper.
I only completed the journal writing for Caroline's work.

I still have:
1 1/2 sets of Accts.
Caroline's hw which is the compre's corrections, newspaper article's re-corrections, a new newspaper article and summary's corrections.

I still have to:
Pack my messy table which is filled with tons of papers and rubbish
Pack my school files, which papers are flying everywhere.
Tidy up my things properly.
Get ready my school bag.
Get ready my packing bag for camp.

And lastly,
I NEED TO STUDY ALL THE SUBJECTS! My brain has gonna rusty, time to buck up!

Okay, gtg.
To bathe, eat dinner.
Will update again tonight when i've the movitation to clear everything.

PS. These are not because of lack of time management. I'm just super irritated today. *sob sob*

OH YES!
YUKI AND JOEY! ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAY! BON VONAGE! :D

08/06

Tired.
Tired.
Church service n fellowship the whole morning until afternoon.
Lunch in afternoon.
Went somewhere in late afternoon.
Headed home in evening
Swimming for 3-4hours.
BBQ.
Now everyone's gone home, finally.
Dead beat.

When i was swimming,
I was thinking many many things, being a teenager and things that i'm facing.
Frustrating.
I sorta realised something as well.
Won't say out.
It's kept in my heart.
Okay.

Good night.
Gonna settle work tmr, because next 2 weekends i will be busy busy.

Sigh.
Disappointed.
Tired.
Frustrating.
A friend that i want to trust is not around.
It's always changing.
People betraying me.
Why why?
I hate this.
Parents are also difficult to deal with.
Like in christian things.
But people think it's easy to talk to parents, just asking me to wait until i'm older.
I'm frustrated.
I share with this one. That one.
Everything is pointless =(

07/06

Badminton competition was great.
Tired.
Sleepy.
Got another bruise now. 1 from last week band practice and another one today, lol.
Wedding dinner was okay.
Didn't stay long.

Parents are hard to talk to =(
Well, something i've to deal with.
Headache now.

Good night.

06/06

Supposed to have lunch at Kovan with Kor.
Ended up going MHI first.
Then 2pm plus, i ate my lunch. Tahan for sooo long lol.
Tuition for a hour before i went for meeting.
It was 50-50.
Shifeng, Pauline weren't around so some of us were actually joking and going out of the point -.-.
Well, i still laughed too lol.
Meeting ended late.
Went dinner with Yuki later at Park Mall.
Tuition continued after Kor's meeting regarding tmr competition.

Okay, good night.
Need to rest for tmr(:

05/06

Doing Caroline's HW the whole morning, the whole afternoon.
Evening, went over to her place for tuition.
Back home after that.
Still tired.
Tuition, meeting tmr.

Good night.

PS. Very happy that everyone enjoyed themselves yesterday! My first plan for dear Yuki worked~ (:

04/06

Oops, it's after 12am already.
Didn't go for CCA.
Went out in evening.
Had fun.
Celebrated my dear Yuki's bday with the rest! :D
At Vivo City.
With Caroline, Pat, Vic, Erni, Kor, Char, Elaine, Yan n Joey, also plus Wen Tjin and Wei Nurn. Didn't expect them to come lol.
But we still had fun although supposed to go Clarke Quay for the cake(:
Fun Fun~
Tmr, tuition in evening at Caroline's place :D
See you, good night! :D

03/06

Tired.
I'm really tired.
I'm really tired.
Can i don't go for band tmr pleasee?
Can i rest tomorrow morning until afternoon?
My shoulders really in pain.
My legs really in pain.
Dropped the conductor stand, which is made of METAL on my foot twice today.
Carried the toms for like almost 3hours without a min's break today.

I'm reallyyyyy very tired.
Time management, i know. But understand my pains, my feelings.
I'm not getting attention.
I'm not childish.

I'M SERIOUSLY TIRED, IN PAIN =(
PS. Looking forward to tmr evening! :D

02/06

Just back home.
Went out here n theree, so tired.
CCA this morning.
So sleepy. Tired. Arms aching everywhere, sigh.
Tmr CCA again.
Sigh sigh.
Okay.
Good night!..

01/06

I'M SERIOUSLY STUPID.

good night people ):

PS. sorry i'll update again tmr.. i'm just thinking too much right now, problems. sigh):

31/05

FINALLY BACK HOME! :D

Went for a drama performance just now with others.
It was awesome!
Since afternoon, i was with Yuki and Joey.
The whole afternoon, i was with them, Kor, Nette and the others for badminton practice.
The whole morning, i was at Caroline's hse for tuition(:
Her hse's amazing!
I saw her photos when Patrick and herself were young, so cuteeee. And she looked very different from last time and now! I was sooo embarrased when i asked her who she was with Patrick in the photo. Actually its her! XD
Cuteeeee. Niceeee.
Heh, will be sleeping soon. Super tired, outside for the whole day.
Good night (:

30/05

FINALLY TODAY IS FRIDAY :D
CCA was alright.
Dismissed even later.
I also was even moreeee tired =.=
But, everything was much better actually(:
Tuition was cancelled at a last minute.
Postponed to tmr morning.
Had dinner with Kor, YK and JC and i stayed in MHI with them, also with Nette and JE.
We all went back together.
Thanks Nette for the ride to Boon Keng MRT :D

Will be out the whole day tmr.
See you people.
Good night!

Dear God,
I pray for success and happiness tomorrow!
Good weather too!
In the name of Jesus Christ.
Amen(:
Wonder how special 01/10 will be to me, O.o?