I just kept on injuiring myself today ):
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First is that i knocked my last toe against something hard in MHI office.
Second is that i knocked my ankle in MHI DIC.
Third is that i nearly tripped over the stairs while walking to PS & knocked my finger.
Fourth is that MY ELBOW STILL HURTING ):
And also, right now hurting ):
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What a stupid day to me, huh?
Had supper cum a short chat with my siblings-in-Christ.
One person was missing, stuck at home, resting. Poor thing !
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School was alright.
Zoom-ed home after school, then to MHI.
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Can i have a day off please? ):
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FINALLY MY BREAK IS HERE TOMORROW !!! (:

Getting more and more pissed !
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If you don't want to sms me, then don't sms me lah.
If you don't want to help me, tell me lah.
WTF?
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So damn pissed lah.
I hate last minute changes too! -_____________________________-
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ENOUGH, CAN ANOT?
You want me to scold you infront of your face, isn't? -_______-
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Anyway, it just always spoil my mood ):
Today school was lonely.
Most of my girlfriends disappeared today, lols.
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A short day today.
Lunch at home & dinner at home (:
I made the effort to eat 2 meals at home with mummy and bloody brother who didn't go school this morning !
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Studying Geog.
My elbow hurts ):

I'm tired of this and that.
FIGHT FIGHT WITH THIS AND THAT.
I'm seriously tired to hear that !
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I can't be bothered with being upset with this and that ones.
I'm not going to bother so much !
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My life is going this way, then let it be (:
I'm happy in that way (:
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My parents are going fine, my girlfriends are going fine, my friends are going good.
Then, that's enough (:

After a night's thoughts,
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I'm starting to dislike some people's responsibilities and attitudes towards me.
That's probably why i'm quiet yesterday.
Not my girlfriends.
I can say they are adults.
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Well,
I won't elaborate anymore.
I guess it may be obvious to them.
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I just want to say that,
I hate when you change moods towards me ):
Also, i must say that you are not organised and responsible.
Sometimes, i'm really flared up ):
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I seriously can't be bothered anymore !

An unusual day today, huh.
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Recess, i was so quiet.
Tuition in the evening, i was so quiet too.
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People thought something is wrong down there.
Nothing is wrong down there, people!
I'm also feeling weird here =x
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Exams are nearing.
Friday is coming soon - a break for me !
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Gotta to go! (:

Headache the whole day ):
Again, i fell asleep during the last 2 periods --- wtf? can something motivate me to stay awake?!
BUT ! I slept early than 11pm last night ! wtf lah !
Elbow hurts ):
I pray that the elbow pain can lessen until my exams end.
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I need it to write my papers !!
No time to find out what happened ):
But, i remembered that i knocked it against something hard long ago & the pain started today ):
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Left school with the girls.
Had to ask some of them to carry my 3 damn heavy books =x
I know i sounded bad ):
But, help me pleasee.. at least ! (:
THANKS, GIRLFRIENDS (:
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I'm starting to get tired of life.
My mood starts to go down -____________________-
SOMEONE MOTIVATES ME PLEASE !
But, my actions still make my girlfriends laugh. Especially talking about our own friends (:
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Tuition tmr, tuition on wed !
I gonna die soon =x
Thurs, finally last day of school of the week !
FRIDAY, NO SCHOOL.
BUT !
Have to study for exams next week ! ):
Jiayou, everyone. Yeah?
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CAN'T WAIT..
to have a good sleep,
to buy my HDD,
to go sentosa & get tanned,
spend time with family & friends ! (:
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Time for me to go!
See you all (:
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p.s. Maybe updating again tonight.

Still not feeling tired in any way (:
I thank God for giving me strength for today !
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Went to church & SF.
A question popped out during SF, which i never think about it, in fact.
Because the fact is that we are hearing impaired for life.
I've to wear my cochlear for life too.
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I will never have the chance to hear the real noise in surroundings.
Do appreciate if you are able to hear everything so well.
I wonder how the real noise is like.
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I always believe that God plans us to go through these.
Maybe He put us into a test.
Who knows?
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Went for late lunch.
Drank BBT at Toa Payoh.
COOL. I love it ! (:
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Thinking what the next step will be like to me (:

Yeah, yeah.
I'm still awake at this hour.
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Studying, studying.
Being an owl, after drinking a cup of coffeee.
It's nearly 4 now.
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Just 4more hours to go, before i get ready for church (:
Studied 7 chapters of POA & did Lynette's POA homework & Caroline's homework & 1 chapter of Biology
Right now, studying 2nd chapter of Biology.
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Just so much to study & so little time left !
Rah, stressed !
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I got some misunderstandings with this person just now(few hours ago), i'm sorry.
It's over,yeah? (:
Okay, gonna back to study now.

Like WTF?
Tuition in the morning, and that person ..
I won't elaborate much, i respect him.
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Tuition in late afternoon and that person ..
I won't say much too, i respect her.
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Dinner with friends & chi-chatted for 1-2hours.
Off we went home.
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I don't want to say so much.
I respect people although i don't like some things.
I'll show proof when time comes.
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One friend asked me just now : Have you ever go out with hearing people?
My answer was definitely NO, not even once.
Imagine how bad it is & of course i'm always reminded of my bad experiences i've been through.
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Answer is always NO.
Reason: Bad experiences since sec 1.
That's all.
Don't ask me so much, if you aren't close to me (:
WTF.
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Planning to study this whole night.
Gotta to go (:

Today is another terrible day.
Not really terrible, more likely a crazy day lols.
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Stayed back.
Supposed to be released at 3pm, but extended by 15minutes -_____-
Rushed home.
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Had my late lunch.
Did some work.
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Headed to MHI for no reason huh.
Once i stepped in there, people screaming here and thereeeee.
About same old problem, which is very silly actually. But, now at least 95% settled huh?
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Just hearing things, well i shall not be KPO.
Headed to have my late dinner.
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Headed back to MHI.
Chatted with XH while walking to platform.
Train home with my dear Kor.
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Tuition Day for me tomorrow ! (:

Sleepy as usual.
But, i managed to stay awake during most of the time today (:
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Many thoughts in head.
When can people be more mature and realise things around the world?
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Went down to MHI for BSL this evening & i had a BIG shock !
SAW CAROLINE !
I thought i'm gonna die under her hands. Oh well, i'm not afraid anymore.
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Finally we had a comfortable conversation.
Everything was alright, no worries people ! (:
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PLAYED PAULINE'S PSP!
Cool, but she naughty that she removed the movie that i watched half-way that time -__________-
Hahaha, i don't blame her because i'm also naughty ! xD
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That's my day (:
Yep, my feelings are changing again.
I hate it ! - But, i'm alright though. Heh heh (:
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Lastly,
HAPPY 1ST YEAR WITH MY YANYU-JIEJIE !

Feelings are horrible ):

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I wish to go back to old times, when people appreciate one another.

I'm treated as invisible now ):

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Should i continue this relationship with others?

Friendship will stay.

But..

I don't want to say out here, but obvious to some of you.

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Or, the best is to stay with my family every weekend, every each day, every free time.

I hate especially when people put my exams together with the friendship/relationship with me ):

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Will you tell me?

Especially YOU.

I want to know! Give me some faith, some honesty. Backstab me if you want.

If you don't want this relationship, then tell me straight to my face.

I want to know the truth !

Tell me please.

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If YOU didn't read my blog after days, days - FORGET IT.

I'll not bother about it till then ):

Don't assume that it's you when you read my blog - obviously that person can sense if he/she realise what he/she has done to me.

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I wonder this person'll remember when Friday comes. If not, how about 8 months & 2 days later?

See you all ! - I'M ALRIGHT BTW.

Just pouring some thoughts/feelings here.

Besides it, i'm really alright.

NO WORRIES (:

Not like someone who blogs and acts emo infront of people =x

Super tired & headache.
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Didn't join the girls for captain ball today, too tired & my legs gonna break soon ):
I didn't expect my darling to follow me, haha (:
Surprised that she actually wanted to go because of me, but in the end both of us went home to rest (:
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I didn't manage to wait for my dad last night, too tired ):
I wonder whether to make up for his birthday this sunday O.o
Together with his present that i gonna buy on saturday (:
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I slept early last night, earlier than 11pm & yet, i couldn't wake up this morning & refused many times to drag myself out of the bed !
So irritating lah, lols O.o
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Tomorrow, ends early & home to rest before out in the evening (:
Exams are coming & I need to accompany my mum more at homeeeee.
Staying at home is my first priority (:
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Gotta to continue studying. See you all !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DADDY! =)
Dead beat !
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Had 2.4km run today, i nearly died ):
AT LEAST.
It's finally over !
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Yesterday was a horrible day, but glad in the end.
I almost got kicked out of my house after what happened on sunday night ):
Had my dinner late last night ):
In the end,
my mum finally came to her senses!
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So, both of us are alright.
Thank God !
No worries about it, i'll always find a way to minimize the problem =)
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I'm starting to miss people !
Looking forward to finish my MYEs, when i'm going to get my HDD!!!
Laptop'll be next, but not so fast ):
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FIGHTING! JIAYOU!

Now everything is in silence.
I wonder, i wonder why.
Something is going wrong here.
My dinner ended up with my parents & brother coming back home at the same time.
And the food is probably bought by my parents.
BUT!
I received my brother's SMS that he would buy for me.
Later, my mum asked me whether i want dinner via SMS.
Ended up in this way.
VERY SUSPICIOUS ALREADY !!
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Something is wrong down there.
Can my parents/brother talk to me please? ):
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Can't do anything.
Gotta to do my things & goodnight !

Again, my dinner disappeared.
Waiting for my brother to buy my dinner.
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A usual Sunday.
Some trippers who recently went to Philippines shared their testimonials and photos.
I'm attracted by it, but too bad for me.
WHY?
Next year, O LEVELS !
Defintely people won't allow me to go unless i can obtain very good results =x
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Tomorrow, Monday?!?!
A new week starts.
Tuesday - 2.4km run !! AHHHHHHHHH !!
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Just so flared up ):
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Tuition in the morning, so sleepy :x
Went to shop for my things at TPY and Bugis.
Badminton at Lavendar.
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When comes to decide for eating place, please give respect.
I know it's hard to decide.
I said this, some want others but some don't want.
I don't force, ask to go together.
Don't know, don't know.
How will you feel?
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When i ask something, i got 'scolded' or being pressured in return.
How do you feel if you were in my shoes?
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Never be greedy, be satisfied.
Example.
Today badminton, until 630pm - I know some came late because of tuition, but be satisfied that you still could play for an hour, come to think about some people that didn't play or miss it.
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Anyway, if you hate me, then i've nothing to say.
I know i'm very different from you all.
Sigh.
Still, don't make use of me please or just ignore me by saying don't know here and there.
The feelings are hurting & i already had many bad experiences since 4 years ago.
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I've problems here and there.
Don't think i love being catched by teachers for not going CCA, not going tutorials, not going here and there.
I'm more than being tired enough.
Bad experiences.
Bad outcomes.
These lead me to this path, but i'm struggling because i also chose this way.
I won't complain.
My choice due to reasons.
Even my parents don't understand, i can't expect anything more from friends/mentors.
It has been days and weeks that i've 5 hours or less of sleep ):
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It's very terrible to me already.
Furthermore, exams are coming.
You people know.
Then, please think how to respect one another and put yourselves in our shoes.
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My feelings are being hurt again and again.
But, i accepted them.
Until today, i'm really very flared up & no ones cared.
Know the feeling ?
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Enough of saying.
I can't force you all. But, at least think how to respect.
FURTHERMORE !
I'm sorta the youngest among you all, what's this ? ):
I won't say these in front of you all.
Read my blog and understand, that's it.
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I don't want any conflict.
Just understand and i'm satisfied.
I'm not the kind who is VERY straight-forward, but i can be one if you want.
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Okay.
GOODNIGHT, ALL (:

I nearly died today.
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No morning run today, phew.
SS teacher didn't come, phew.
BUT !
NAPHA 5 items today, HI check after school until i had no time for my lunch.
Was feeling very frustrated & went straight to Biology tutorial then CCA.
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Farewell to all seniors today.
People started to cry.
Me, also very emotional. Cried for a short while, but i got reminded by the times that i had been backstabbed by the band, bad memories that i had with the band.
Very few memories with the band.
During all the presentations by different levels, i don't see my name, together with the seniors' name.
Maybe just once or twice. And, saw one pic of me inside.
BUT, STILL THANK TO THOSE WHO WROTE ON THE BIG PAPER TO ME ! =)
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I left straight after it ended.
Went to MHI, it was noisy as usual.
I starved until in the end, didn't go eat dinner.
Got home late.
Had my lunch + dinner + supper together few minutes ago.
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It is so horrible, please !
Finally weekends are here !
BUT !
I'm out the whole day tomorrow, from morning until night.
Then, Sunday from morning to late afternoon.
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WHEN CAN I SERIOUSLY GONNA HAVE A BREAK ?!
Lol ?
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MYEs are coming too.
Scary!
JIAYOU! =)
I wonder where my good memories have gone to. Just most of my bad memories came back to my mind today ):

Another sleepy day.
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Everyone is simply very tired, including myself.
Since Monday, i have been sleeping for 5h++++ for every night ):
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A dreadful day tomorrow, with having morning run as usual then, NAPHA 5 items followed by biology extra lesson after school, then CCA until evening AND finally MHI at night.
I'll be dying soon or later.
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Looking forward to Saturday's morning rest & badminton (time to exercise!).
Went down to BSL course @ MHI this evening & everything was good.
Have to help out alittle & it got me very tired already.

Gotta to run! Goodnight (:

A stressful day yesterday.
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Another stressful & sleepy day today.

I kept on falling asleep in class, although i tried to stay awake all times. That's another reason why i don't understand the whole chapter 4 of emaths ): (struggling to understand by revising again & again)

I kept on using wrong tactics in my words, ended up with people telling me this & that. It makes me very annoyed but, still I've to control myself. Forgive me please, people out there =x

I know this period of time is not right time to me again. Back to the crazy unusual self ):

Today, when i was on my way back home with Rach. She told me that she accepted Christ when she attended Hauen's church last week. I was surprised indeed!
She even asked me some Christianity things & some, i couldn't really answer as I, myself, am like her. A beginner to be a Christian.

It gave me a thought again, wondering why.

Besides it, i've many things to think about.
WTF. CAN I STOP THINKING TOO MUCH? - I asked myself.
It nearly affected my friendship with others & relationship with my loved ones ):
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I envy people who have such a nice sibling or nice parents.
My sibling isn't that really good to me huh, my parents are not easy to please & i'm still surviving =)

I really need a good break. But, exams are nearing. I only deserve the good break after my exams end next month. Sad, sad.

Being worried and concerned, just telling me that you are alright. Can i believe you in this way? Well, i can't force you & i just want you to know that you remain in my heart as my sibling-in-Christ. You know yourself.

I wonder when my good break will be here. Getting tired and sleepy everyday is my usual thing. Nothing will change until my major exams are over in October.

I wonder whether i should believe in religions, especially God. Buddhism is nuts to me. Christianity is not easy for me to accept fully. Free-thinker is being advised by my parents.

I wonder & wonder..

Walking by the beach on that day with a companion was wonderful indeed !
I had a good breather & went back home with a peaceful heart, also some positive thoughts in mind.
Can i do it again?
Perhaps, at Sentosa instead. More peaceful =)

EASTER DAY.

I don't want to blog much today.

I wonder whether i should continue this path that i chose to take.

ANYWAY.

It was MHI Captain Ball Competition 2009 yesterday.

My team won 3rd -- that's good enough =)

Although i didn't play, i shouted SUPER LOUD to jiayou all of you!

Not just my team, other teams as well, even some boy teams!

You know yourself, if you were there.

Heh.

Okay, gotta to run!

GOOD FRIDAY.

Sermon @ church today was good. Managed to take down some notes =)

I can't take myself to blog nowadays.

Getting busier and busier.

I need time for myself, God, family and friends!

Hmm.

At a last-minute decision - I went ECP today after the service & brunch

I had a companion, along the way.

It was a meaningful talk between her and myself.

Also, i had the energy to enjoy the wind, together with the sun.

So.

I'M HALF-SUNBURNT NOW!

Some parts aren't sunburnt, so i'm looking very weird at the moment -___-

Please don't laugh at me if you see me tomorrow.

Hopefully i'm FULLY tanned after tomorrow day out =x

Heh heh!

Okay, see you all.

PHOTOS FOR YOU TO SEE.

STILL, WONDERING WHY..

Yesterday, i dropped my phone with a loud bang unknowingly.

SO SCARY.

I got a new phone today & bought all protection covers, being scared after what happened.

SCARED.

God, please take away my fears.

Receiving many different opinions irritatingly.

FEELING LOST.

Sharing about myself comfortably.

FEELING LOST.

God, please give me wisdom & right advice to be given to me.

Went for a talk given by an Australian friend named Mr Rob George yesterday.

He makes God so wonderful.

Thank God that we, on behalf of MHI, came across to know this person!

PLEASE BLESS ALL OF US, GOD.

Amen.

Dear my beloved grandpa (who is in another world),

I miss you dearly.

I hope that you are having a good eternal life out there.

You are being remembered by me.

I remembered seeing you suffering in pain during your last days in this world.

I remembered your enjoyable days with us eg. family gatherings that my dad would go and pick you and grandma up to go to the eating place.

Never forget those times when you were around.

Please bless everyone with your mighty powers, ily! =)

Some things came across me when i attended my cousin's 21st b'day bash last evening.

I saw this group of my dad's younger distant cousins.

These cousins are very close as one whole.

I saw some of their facebook, always together, hanging out together.

I ENVY THEM !

I am also very glad that i managed to get time to talk at least more than i usually talk to my bloody brother.

This time, we didn't fight.

It was so wonderful !

I hope our communication will improve as days go by.

THANK GOD FOR THESE !

BACK HERE BLOGGING.

Hmm.

I wonder why i've to go through this path and that path, without knowing which one is right for me to go through.

Still, i chose the difficult path and have been going through.

I wonder why i chose that way huh.

O.o

PHOTOS OF BABIES !

These babies are under Christian parents from MHI, Wesley Church =)

PAORU'S BABY, CEPHAS.

DAVID'S DAUGHTHER CARRYING EVELYN'S 2ND CHILD.

I'll try to have a chance to snap a photo of Evelyn's 1st child, daughter & also a photo of Rene's granddaughter.
5 babies in total, in MHI's side of Wesley Church (:
ALL THE BABIES ARE SO CUTE LAH !
Heh heh (:

FOR A REAL THING.
I'm seriously NOT bluffing this.
My lovely grandma (mum's side) fell this early morning & knocked her head ):
Doctor said that she has to go hospital if any effect takes place for the next few days.
I pray hard that nothing will happen to her.
It's 4th time that she fell down since last few months(last year) at the market.
I WANT MY GRANDMA TO STAY WELL & BE WITH ME.
I seriously don't want my grandparents to work anymore, retire & enjoy life.
My grandparents just love to work.
My grandpa just recovered from his eye minor operation but now he has high blood pressure.
Dear Lord,
I pray that you will give them your blessings!
I want them to stay healthy ever and ever.
Amen.
I LOVE MY PARENTS & BROTHER(although we seldom communicate)
I LOVE MY GRANDPARENTS.
I LOVE MY FRIENDS.
I LOVE MY SIBLINGS-IN-CHRIST.
I DON'T WANT TO LOSE ANYONE.
(:
Remember.
It's my blog, i blog whatever i want.
(:

APRIL'S FOOL DAY.
Hmm i didn't get fooled today, so today isn't anything special.
But i received complaints from people that they got fooled - poor thing luh.
LAST DAY OF CAMP SEMINAR TODAY.
The super boring long day finally ended today!
I couldn't understand, so i don't see anything learnt from this seminar =x
Anyway, back to lessons tomorrow !
FINALLY.
It's better than the camp seminar, i swear! Lol?
3 tests before the weekend comes!
LOOKING FORWARD TO SATURDAY AND SUNDAY!
Oh yeah.
Today Jiayi & Zhoumeng came to SAC to visit us huh, or just to get their O levels cert lols.
Anyway, i gotta to go.
GOODNIGHT ALL.