YO!
Long day today, huh.
No lessons today, just celebrations of Canossian Saints' Day in school.
My school is a catholic sch, if any of you don't know -_-
Hmm?
Dismissed late today, there was a band performing for us with nice songs.
One or two songs were christian songs, so nice !
Too bad, most of my girlfriends didn't like.
Home, after that.
MHI then now preparing some stuffs.
Okay, gotta to go.
WAIT ! ONE MORE THING !
Kor is mean today ! =(
My girlfriends were the witnesses, lol =x

Goodnight !

Back again.

Oops after 12am -____-

Anyway, having my very-super-late dinner.

Hmm?

Went out again, after i came home from school just now.

Anyway, i may not blog tomorrow.

Well, you will find out when i update again =)

PRAISE THE LORD !

For everything ! My loved ones !

Bad news.

I failed my common emaths test. Sad ):

Anyway, work harder !

Gotta to go !

GOODNIGHT, ALL !

HOORAY!

Common tests are finally over !

Study break ! Nope, MYEs coming ! Rah, at least i finished my tasks for common tests ! =p

Tomorrow, NO lessons !!

School tomorrow ends @ 1130am !

WHEE !

Wonder what to do, before 5pm?

PRAISE THE LORD !

for this naughty Kor-in-Christ I have !

Don't ask why.

But it's a good thing to have him as my Kor.

Kor !

SEE ! Your mei, praising you leh =p

Always trust God more than yourself =)

Today, i'm early back home. I just finished my lunch & already bathed 1/2 hour ago.

Lols.

Have to go soon.

Clearing stuffs & work. Books & papers have been piling up on table for days.

TIME TO CLEAR !

Weather has been bad, oh gosh !

People, take care ! Don't slip & fall. Don't fall sick.

Looking forward to tomorrow and saturday ! =)

Not blogging much.

Busy studying.

Tomorrow is finally the last day for common tests !

HOORAY !

Will update more tomorrow.

See you all.

Thank God that today isn't screwed up!

Not blogging much.

Tests were screwed up today.

One test to go tmr & another 2 more to go on Thurs.

See you all !

I wonder, i wonder..

Since many days, i always have mixed feelings.

Sad - because one of us isn't in my ''family'' anymore. I wonder whether life is fated or..

Don't ask me who.

Whatever i blog here, i won't answer any question unless i tell you.

Happy - because i'm not alone.

GOD IS WITH ME.

I know my dear Kor & my close ones are with me.

Scared - You'll know why in 2 months' time lol =x

Anyway, no matter what, I must know that God is with me !

Although I want to be fully Christian, I do respect my parents.

It considers as I have not accept Jesus Christ fully.

I'm looking forward to the day that i will accept FULLY !

I wonder when it'll be.

Gotta to go.

See you all !

GOOD NIGHT, ALL !

Blogging again.

Someone asked me to type the church sermon today.

Sorry, i'll do it another day.

Still busy at the moment !

This weekend was all pink to me !

Pink shirt on Friday.

Pink shirt on Saturday.

Pink shirt today !

So damn crazy ! =x

Even my dear jiejie said i'm mad. I'm not.

Just that, i happened to get all pink shirts to wear. I didn't realise until she told me -________-

Nothing much.

Will be having my common tests this week !

See you all !

ps. every week is so crazy ! when can the crazyness stop? otherwise, i'll not survive until N levels come =x

Having some thoughts.

Not blogging anything.

Again, i'm home late.

Nearly 12am already -_____________-

Got my sleep this morning, my phone alarm was so irritating.

Afternoon, i was so blur !

Meeting time is 215pm but i kept on thinking it's at 115pm that i got ready by 1245pm !

-____________- silly me.

Tuition @ Orchard.

Shopping with my dear jiejie & friends.

Until after 9pm, i managed to buy a blouse, to go with jeans for the wedding ceremony next week !

Had dinner + supper before heading home.

Small blisters on side of my toes -_-

Anyway, i gotta to go.

Goodnight, all !

GOSH, AFTER 12AM ! -___________-

I reached home exactly at 12am, oh gosh !

Hmm.

Today is so crazy, man !

School until 245pm, went to see a teacher in office about N levels etc.

Reached home after 3pm & ate my lunch ard 4pm plus.

Went MHI ard 6pm plus.

My dear tutor was late, waited for an hour.

But i had fun, playing with my girlfriends that MHI is full of noises by us !

Later, went late dinner with some of my girlfriends & one of my gf's ''son''.

LOL ! Not a real son, hor.

Talked, talked.

Trained home. I ended up going TPY & taking bus & trained home ! -_____________-

All thanks to Ivy.

Should have taken NEL train straight home.

So tired after a day out !

It's nearly almost 24 hours OUTSIDE ! From 6am to 12am !

IMAGINE THAT ?!

Okay enough.

I gonna either sleep or do my things.

I hope everyone is all well, except some. I know who they are. I don't have to reveal everything here.

It's called respecting privacy.

See you all, goodnight !

A day out tmr from afternoon. At least i can sleep in the morning !

FINALLY THE CHANCE HAS COME !

Lol =P

HELLO!

Such a long day today.

Almost late for school today, just 2 minutes before time BOMB !

Stayed back for Accounts tutorial until after 3pm !

I hate that today is friday's timetable, because no lunch for me until after 4pm today !

I nearly die.

Had to walk so fast to Bedok MACs.

My muscles or whatever it is, nearly torn or collapse or whatever it's because it sorta pulled my muscles or what it's(again!) which caused pain.

Sorry, my english sucks ! =x

Anyway, went MHI with the girls.

Just a stupid incident on my way thereeee !

Headed home in late evening.

Now having my late late dinner !

And doing work.

Forever doing work, work, work.

Tomorrow no cca !

BUT.

Have extra lessons from 145(straight after sch usually ends) until 245pm.

Again, my lunch will be after 3pm.

What's this ?

Are the teachers trying to starve all of us to death?

Anyway, just one more day to go before the weekend comes.

Busy weekends again !

Gotta to go!

See you all, goodnight !

HELLO.

Sorry didn't update last night, i was too tired & went straight to sleep.

Yesterday.

Damn ! I failed my geog first test ! -__________- Just expected this anyway.

I just felt 'lonely'.

Anyway, i won't say much about it. Had tuition with Kor after school.

Kor ah. Forever bullying me, but i managed to bully him back once -___________-

Anyway, today.

Although i slept straight 7 hours, i still can't wake up this morning !

I seriously need 10-12 hours of sleep !

Had Geography test today, alittle screwed up - Hope i can pass =x

CCA, after school.

Felt alittle weird. Anyway, it doesn't bother me much right now.

Got home after 1 1/2h when i was dismissed.

So tired !

ONE MORE THING !

I just passed the first test -__________-

I failed 3 or 4 tests & finally passed this test !

MATHS TEST!

10 out of 20 marks, it was not my expectation actually.

I wanted to get 15 marks but found out that something went wrong with my standard deviation !

-___________-

Anyway, work harder for ALL my upcoming tests !!

Nothing else huh, bleh?

I thank God for this day ! I thank God that this loved one of mine is feeling better today !

Okay, gotta run now.

Tons of work are awaiting for me to complete.

I think another sleepless night for me, sigh.

See you all !

Just an hour left before 12am strikes !

Still doing my work.

Facebook pm: Work never end.

I kept on wondering & wondering..

You want to know what's this ?

Sorry i'm not going to reveal here & no need to come asking me.

I will just ignore (sorry ah, it's just very privacy - especially if you aren't very close to me), perhaps i will tell my close ones instead.

Okay, sermon in church yesterday.

Actually you can read the summary of the sermon in Xuehui's blog.

Too bad, only certain people are allowed to enter her blog.

Hmm, my summarization is bad.

Mostly, i'll list most of the things what the pastor said.

Church sermon (15 Feb):

Where is Kingdom of God ? (this is a very important question)

Answer may not be accurate, problem lies with translation.

But ! Change form of word for us to digest & understand better.

Cor 1:1

God has raised us up together and made us to sit with him in heavenly places.

Not referring to heaven. It's unseen world of realities.

2 worlds we live.

We must not get lost in transaction to equate the Kingdom of God with the local church, the building and its people.

Body of Christ where believers are, that's the Kingdom of God, superior to the Kingdom of the world.

It's obvious because we think we are freed from sins.

Have been delivered into Kingdom of his son of love.

Paul says that we can be filled with knowledge of God's will.

It's whether you want to believe the Kingdom of God as citizens.

We have to understand and willing to tune in.

About spiritual understanding.

Then we can have God's wisdom to understand.

In unseen realities, we need to know how that Kingdom works.

Able to function how to know that how spirit works

Ability to distinguish Kingdom's values.

Paul says that God has revealed all things that searched by the spirit of God

.Example: Research is able to work because of spiritual understanding.

Then ask for God's wisdom.

Sometimes, it may prompt further.

It's spirit of God to ask more questions.

Spiritual understanding when it comes to money? Yes, why not.

But Kingdom people must bring the values of Kingdom of God.

Kingdom values and applications are applicable everywhere anytime.

Cor 1:11

Paul said that we are strong with strength that comes from the might of God.

Meaning the power of God, strength to stick out of long haul not the spirit.

Given to us to live God's ways.

Takes long time to overcome the aggression to get Kingdom values in place.

Example(happened in real life):

A young man was discouraged in battle against slavery.

He got a letter from John Wesley before his death.

It was about words.

Read unless divine power raises you up.

What this was trying to tell us?

Discouraged if God is for you then who can be against you.

As a committed christian, it makes use to help change the world.

Advancing concerns of church and society.

As there are great challenges we will face.

Then, need strength of God, not about the fundamental values.

We are in Kingdom of God.

Pastor mentioned that he was from boys' bridge when he was young.

He learnt the advancement of the Kingdom principles.

Their responsibility to advance Kingdom of God in earth.

That's all about church sermon !

About the SF (15Feb) that leaded by Pat/Caroline,

It was awesome !

We were divided into 2 groups after their sharing & had to act out from what we understood from their sharing.

It was about Gideon.

He & his soldiers went to defeat the Midnighties(forgot the sp).

Firstly, Gideon had 32000 soldiers with him.

But God told him not to have too many.

Cut down to 100 soldiers, still not very satisfied. In the end, took 300 men together with him to the battle.

God was with their side

(they heard from the Midnighties when they chatted in their tents about the battle)

In the end, Gillion together with 300 men unexpectedly attacked their enemy while they were sleeping.

Secondly, the altars are other Gods.

We Christians respect one only true God.

God asked Gideon to break the altar. Although he was scared, he still did it for the sake of God.

That was all, i guess ?

Okay, gotta to go.

It's really late & i need to finish up my work !

Goodnight, all !

ps. sorry that the post is so freaking long =x

HELLO.

Monday Blues.

Worst of all, i was made to stay back until 245pm with last-min notice !

Every Monday & Thursday, Accounts ! Gosh.

Teacher, don't you find it tiring huh? If you don't, we students are tired please.

Last-min notices always happen again & again to me.

I hate this !

Only had my lunch after 4pm with my girlfriends @ TM.

Maths project (i mentioned earlier) - I did myself & handed up today.

Hope teacher don't scream tomorrow =_=

I skipped accounts tutorial & homework time last week.

Hope teacher don't question me & make me stay back =_=

Anyway, i'm staying back for accounts tutorial this week. Sigh !

Such a horrible life in school !

Really horrible, please.

Today i'm so freaking tired that i nearly fell asleep during Phy, EL & POA lessons.

I wish to have a break between every lesson, just to sleep for 15min =x

Impossible, anyway -_-

Okay, gotta to go.

Have work to do & gonna have my dinner.

ps. i've been thinking what's wrong with life & people around me ?

Get this right: Different things mean different matters !

Busy doing work.

So sucky when comes to projects.

It's just hard for me to get a group.

Well, i just do the project myself -________-

Anyway, nothing much.

I need disclipine !

Oh, sigh.

Anyway, busy weekends are soon over.

A new week ahead.

Mostly, i just get more busy everyday.

I need some focus too.

Just heard that i lack of focus. Know why?

Lack of sleep. Lack of energy.

But i don't wish to explain back, which may cause more arguments, sorta of.

Anyway, i accepted it.

Eh, if you don't know what i'm talking about, just forget it.

Okay, gotta to go.

I'm still in the middle of finishing up my work.

Still, no focus.

Again, why?

Multi-tasking. I need to stop it.

ps. the sermon from today service, i'll update it later on.

i'm not free at the moment !

thanks & my apologies.

Goodnight all !

Back home a moment ago !

I'm really tired, fell asleep in the train =x

Slept after 12am last night.

Out of a sudden, i woke up @ 5am this morning.

I thought of jogging at that moment, but i couldn't really wake up.

Went back to sleep until my alarm vibrates.

Went church service @ 830am, so super early leh !

Went SF (did by Pat & Caroline), after that.

SF was good, they made us act out what we understood from their teachings about God.

At the same time, we had fun !

I could see Pat & Caroline laughing so hard, lols !

Well done, Pat & Caroline !

A good way of leading SF & making people understand.

WT, learn from them !

Went off after awhile.

Lunch & bought stuffs @ Bugis.

Later, in evening should be nothing much.

Okay gotta to go.

Time to work again !

I'm really getting more and more busy & tired everyday.

See you all !

ps. sermon @ church svc will be posted in the next entry for those who missed !

Just reached home about 1/2h ago.

So tired !

I had been out the whole day, since i blogged this morning.

CSH band is ''horrible'' especially that instructor !

Gosh, man !

That instructor, please lah. We can't hear as well as you leh. Take it easy, please.

And the kids are just so young.

Don't tell me that you gonna make one by one crying after being scolded over a small mistake, man !

-__________-

Went bugis after the practice.

Then, to badminton @ Lavendar.

Then, to whereee? Erm, forgot. Went dinner & strolled at some place.

Not going to reveal, secret. Sorry !

But, spent time with my close friends & my dear jiejie !

Glad that i could survive throughout the day, until now.

I'm just gonna bathe soon, after blogging.

Time to work !

Have some work to do, before zzz-ing.

Church svc is earlier tomorrow !

Wah, wish it's later than the usual time instead.

Mostly, people surely go late lols.

Okay, good night all !

Happy Valentine's Day to all !

Going off soon.

Want to say:

My Kor is a big bully !

Heh, just kidding lah. He just loves teasing me, i guess? -____________-

People, must side with me.

VS him ! Okay? Lols =p

Haha !

Okay, gotta to run !

Diyana is already on the way to pri sch & i'm still here !

See you all !

Again now is after 12am -______________-

Had a super long day today.

Morning run in the morning, is so crazy !

I nearly died after that.

Total Defence Day supposed to be on Sunday.

But we had fire drill today, halfway during PE. Sat under hot sun for about 1h, if i'm not wrong.

Went to hall & starved until nearly 12pm then had recess !

Everyone nearly died, you know?

Teachers, please. Make things easy for us, can anot? Not just becuase we are the seniors, meaning we have to go last all the time -______________-

Anyway, forget it.

CCA after school.

It was kinda crazy, but glad that we managed to finish the song ! It's so nice, leh.

Finally i appreciated a song from the band lol =x

Left few minutes earlier.

Rushed like mad woman to MHI & this tutor of mine was LATE !

Gosh, i nearly died, man !

Had tuition while my stomach kept on rumbling. So irritating, can anot. Lols =x

So many people @ MHI ! O.o

Went dinner cum supper @ PS with gals & guys.

Home, after that.

So tired, man !

ps. My upper part of my chin hurts ! Blame on this girl who accidentally hit me SO HARD ! I nearly collasped, man. Haizzz ! Luckily no bruise =x

Okay, gotta to go !

Perhaps do some work before going to sleep.

Another long day tomorrow.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL !

Finally seeing my dear jiejie tomorrow ! =)

Again updating !

I'm seriously mad, lols =x

Well, i finally finished my work !

Left with one !

Hopefully, i can finish tomorrow in school.

Morning run tomorrow, shrucks !

CCA tomorrow, gosh !

Tuition tomorrow, oh my !

Whole day OUT tomorrow until night - hopefully i can survive ! =)

Gotta to go !

Just 1/2h before 12am !

And, i don't want to sleep at 12am again, again !

Goodnight, all !

Updating again.

I wanted to say something that amazingly surprised me yesterday.

While waiting for my dad after my CCA,

a teacher (i think she is Mrs Yip) just asked me whether i have umbrella when she got into her car.

Just asking me out of sudden.

I was like totally SHOCKED !

Just for a first time in my 3 years secondary school life !

Lol, but i thought again after that happened.

Teachers can be nice, just that they are ''meanies'' in school hours.

INTERESTING, MAN !

Just sharing with you all, since I always say my school sucks =x

Heh ^^

NOWADAYS.

What's wrong with people even myself ah?

One having problems but very common to most HIs.

One showing her stupid attitude.

One still acting like a kid.

We all are getting more & more forgetful.

More & more stressed.

Oh gosh ! Please give us better life !

Not only teenagers. Also, the adults whom i know.

Some also mood swings.

Some showing stupid attitude to me & different attitudes to others.

WHAT'S THIS?

Well, people are people. Can't blame anyone.

Okay, enough ! Lol =x

Gotta to go! I still haven't finish my work !

Need to get my eyes away from the computer for 1/2 hour to finish at least 2 homework !

Just finished the first homework ! Gosh !

See you all !!

edited:

A moment ago, i was just looking through my entries last year, in my blog.

I really had a tough life & my mood kept on clashing on me everywhere.

Just feeling sad ):

Why is just that my life has to be this way?

I'm just a girl.

I'm just a secondary girl.

I'm just a student.

I'm just a teenager.

Wondering & wondering..

Still, I thank God for these great people in my life !

I love every single of you !

You all are always forgiving, although sometimes i'm really very frustrated & will vent my anger on you all.

A big thank you !

Especially my Kor & my Jiejie & my mentor & my dear girlfriends !

Still, wondering & wondering..

-edited @ 8pm

Back home earliest of all, today !

Skipped POA tutorial =x

I don't want to go, please.

I'm tired & prefer to study at home, my lovely room & table.

Home after school & had lunch.

Here blogging, till & then.

3 tests today !

POA, Eng & Phy at one go, before recess !

(i didn't study for POA, gosh ! no one informed me & it's gonna be graded -___________-)

A disadvantage of being ABSENT ! Damnit !

Now, all OVER !

One more tomorrow, EMaths test !

Everything is sort last-miniute here & there.

I know some teachers are reading blogs, don't mind these lol.

Finally one more day to go before weekend !

Okay, gotta to go.

Gonna shower & do my work.

Perhaps update again tonight (:

Hello !

Studying for tomorrow physics test at the moment.

Remember what i mentioned about my dad & me in yesterday's post ?

This morning, he really overslept !

My mum called him & he woke me up in a maddening way.

So funny, lah !

Luckily, school starts at 845am today for me !

I was like doing actions, showing him the time today 845am for me.

Wanted to laugh but, was still in a sleeping mode -_________-zzz

Today school was as usual.

I nearly fell asleep in class again ! Yesterday was worse =x

CCA after school.

Instructor was in good mood today O.o

I guess he has recovered from his crazy sickness, lols.

Dad fetched me home after CCA.

Dinner & right now, blogging & studying.

2 tests tomorrow ! Physics & English -__________-

Tomorrow, until 3pm for Accounts !

Hey, teacher please lah !Can give me break, leh?

Out of 5 days in a week, 4 days have to stay back in school >__<

Okay, i shall survive until this crazy weekend arrives.

Gotta to go!

See you all ! Goodnight !

Good luck for my tests tomorrow !

Thanks for those who pray for me, till and then!

Sunday's church sermon

-- those in colours are most important to know --

Matthew13:3-9

Matthew 13:18-23.

The key to understand this parable is the act of sowing.

The central point concerns the coming of Kingdom of God.

Kingdom of God comes into the world to be received by some, rejected by others.

This success depends on human response.

Word of God is sown.

Sometimes bear fruits, sometimes don't.

Sower sowing the same seed gets different result from the same seed.

But faithful one will lead to a harvest.

Matthew 13 illustrates the mystery of His Kingdom.

It brings to men in this age, the blessings of age to come.

Although power of evil is strong, God is stronger.

Success of God's work is certain.

Don't be discouraged when evil is strong.

When gospel is preached, it makes us repond but yet there is no fruit.

This mystery of Kingdom of God has worked in a special way,comes secretly and quietly.
Howver, it can work among men but not recognised by the crowd.

Kingdom of God works among men in a special way.

Seeds we sow represents the gospel.

These seeds should continue to be sowed.

The life giving force is in the seed and not the soil.

Its life of the Kingdom in the person's heart.

Only the person who receive this deep in his heart will allow it to bear fruit.

Some accept, some reject Him.

The results are in the hands of God and choice of individual.

Mixed responses.

Ground to be sown may not look so healthy.

But God doesn't quit.

It's not easy sometimes, we get discouraged and tired, depending on our strength.

We don't believe as we see no result.

But the seed itself has the power to produce in dead soil.

Continue to be the sower in the parable.

Some sow, some water but God gives the harvest.

We just need to go out and keep sowing.

Kingdom of God is here but not with irresistable power.

It's like a man sowing seeds, some will receive the sowing, some will not.

Men can still reject, but all will receive.

We are to sow seeds everywhere, sowing is universal, growing is individual.

John 3:16

God's Kingdom is working actively but He will not compel men to bow before his Kingdom.

Response must come from a willing heart.

God will not drive you to his Kingdom.

Seed - word of God.

Sower - anyone who disseminates that word.

Okay, that's all !

Goodnight all !

12am now ! Gosh !

Went back to school today !

BOMB !

The moment i reached the canteen, i'm being called as Japanese Doll ! -____-

Lol, i think people there will know who i'm talking about =p

The medicine that i took the previous night is SO drowsy, man !

I even fell asleep half-way when i was eating my bread -________-

Okay, forget it.

After school,stayed back until 3pm plus for a project discussion.

Joined my girlfriends @ library until 4pm plus.

Went off.

Ate late late lunch @ bugis & went for tuition with Kor.

Home after dinner.

Just ate tablets for my cough, not the cough syrup please !

But, found out that my dad took it earlier. Gosh !

I wonder whether he will be able to wake up tmr =x

If i'm really late for school, you know the reason ba. Lols !

Okay, gotta to go.

Goodnight ! Another sleepless night =_=

Tmr CCA ! Rah !

Continuing from yesterday's sermon

I can't summarise it anymore, so i guess i'll type everything that i noted down out here.
Take your time to read them.

Ground to be sown may not look so healthy. But God doesn't quit.

It's not easy sometimes, we can get discouraged and tired, depending on our strength.

We don't believe as we see no result.

But the seed itself has the power to produce in dead soil.

Continue to be the sower.

TO BE CONTINUED ---

I'm too tired now ! Goodnight !

Went to see doctor just now, got MC.

Well, i'm alright.

Just a cough.

Hopefully it will recover before saturday.

You better stop telling my mum what's in my blog.

Don't you know how an teenager feel?

MY LIFE IS MY LIFE.

Understand?

I'm not feeling miserable.

I'm going through what an teenager usually experience when growing up and meeting all kinds of people.

Especially i'm a HI.

Hearing impaired person's life is slightly different from hearing person's life.

Get it now?

I can't hear as well as you nomal people.

So, please stop talking about whatever i post in my blog to my mum.

I don't want to be a burden to my mum.

If i hear this once more from my mum, i'm going to reveal here who you are !

You better stop it.

Okay, gotta to go.

Have some work to do already.

See you all !

Yesterday's church sermon (notes taken down in phone)

Matthew 13:3-9

Matthew 13:18-23

The key to understand this parable is the act of sowing.

The central point concerns the coming of Kingdom of God.

Kingdom of God comes into the world to be received by some, rejected by others.

This success depends on human resources.

Word of God is sown.

Sometimes bear fruits, sometimes don't.

Sower sowing the same seed gets different result from the same seed.

But the faithful one will lead to a harvest.

Matthew 13 illustrates the mystery of His Kingdom.

It brings to men in this age, the blessings of age to come.

Although power of evil is strong, God is stronger.

Success of God's work is certain.

Don't be discouraged when evil is strong.

When gospel is preached, it makes us respond but yet there is no fruit.

This mystery of Kingdom of God has worked in a special way, comes secretly and quietly.

However, it can work among men but not recognised by the crowd.

Kingdom of God works among men in a special way.

Seeds we sow represent the gospel.

These seeds should continue to be sowed. The life of giving force is in the seed and not the soil.

It's the life of Kingdom in the person's heart.

Only this person receives this deep in his heart will allow it to bear fruit. Some accept, some reject Him.

The results are in the hands of God and choice of individual.

Mixed responses.

Ground to be sown may not look so healthy. But God doesn't quit. It's not easy sometimes.

I will continue the sermon later when i've summarised everything.

The notes that i typed in my phone is almost everything what the pastor was talking about, so it's very very long ! I need time to summarise first.

Those, who are interested. You may read the first half of the sermon's explanations by the pastor.

Thanks !!

Went to watch a percussion performance just now @ Esplanade.

It was awesome!

Today was the last day of their performance.

Surprisely, their leader knew sign languages and spoke to us.

Took train home after that.

Tomorrow Monday Blues o.O

Well, i'm still coughing ! My stomach hurts at the same time ):

Anyway, it has been a week already.

Hope this medicine, this time, works.

ps. some people whom i'm close with even say that i've changed, sigh.

rofl. what's wrong with me seriously? i'm utterly disappointed with myself, still never give up with God being there.

sometimes, i'm really very very discouraged. still, can't give up.

learnt from SF today; a video from a man - i forgot his name (is it Rick Varren?)

Never give up although discouragements or evil comes into you !

Rah, still very difficult for me. I still try try try sooo hard until i really want to die ! =x

Erm, don't force to read all those small words.

All about myself - being self-centredness.

I'm sorry. I'm just very irritated by things in my mind, till i'm having headache.

Goodnight !

A usual Sunday.

The Joyce whom you know has changed.

Mixed feelings.

My mood has been changing every minute every single day.

Wish i have never gone to SF today.

I had already said.

My stupid attitude only shows people, which i don't want.

All the best to those who are going for mission trip !

I won't be going this year & next year.

Next year O levels ):

ALL THE BEST.

I will serve MHI when time is ripe.

Got home after SF.

Parents are unusually quiet and my brother is crazily mean, as usual.

Even I sense my family is going wrong.

What's happening to us?

God, i need your strength & wisdom on us.

Bless me & my dad, who are down with cough !

Give my mum strength !

Please bless everyone with your Almighty strength although they are not Christians.

I believe that one day they will get to know You.

Okay, gotta to go.

I'm not in right mood & still sick. See you all !

Have a blessed week (:

I'm truly sorry to those who i showed my stupid attitude !

And i shouldn't stay on for the CNY party just now.

Showing my 'bad mood' face, would destroy the fun.

I refused to participate in the games.

I refused to take pictures.

I refused to talk to people much.

I refused to join my girlfriends.

What's fcuking wrong with me? ):

I'm sorry, everyone !

Especially Joe Eng & Zhou Meng ! You have done a good job.

A pity that i didn't participate.

I'm not in the mood of playing.

I think i'm under stress, sorry people.

I know you all care.

But just that, i've changed.

I don't know why either.

My stupid face, my stupid attitude ):

Okay enough of this.

I even didn't join my family for the gathering.

wtf.

But, I'm grateful that my parents understand this =x

Okay, gotta to go.

Not in the mood, to write anything further.

Goodnight.

Finally a nice simple blogskin !

I just need a right timing to do a right blogskin (:

Okay, updating tonight.

What's on today:

1st tuition @ 1130am

2nd tuition @ 2pm

MHI CNY party @ 4pm - People, come & join us!

If last-minute coming, do sms me ! (:

Family gathering @ night

Okay see you all !

Enjoy & have a blessed day ^^

Just few minutes before 12am.

What's wrong with my family today?

I came back, all were sleeping already. Haiz.

Nothing much today.

Still coughing, coughing.

Didn't see doctor in the end.

I feel like not going out tomorrow and until then.

Sian ! ):

Anyway, never mind.

I know God is with me.

Dear Father in heaven, please give me some strength ! Amen.

Okay, i shld go strong.

Ok, goodnight.

Gonna do my things. See you !

-updated @ 1145pm

Biology test tmr !

I studied for it already !

Hope i do it well, *prays hard !

Studying POA now.

Zzz.

I guess my cough is getting worse.

Okay, gotta to go.

*coughs !

Goodnight !! (:

-updated @ 950pm

Hello.

So many negative thoughts today, wtf.

Still, i thank God for today good weather !

I supposed to stay back in school till 5pm, i sorta escaped.

I've been running away from staying back.

Why leh?

Yeah, sick. But, i think i'm sorta abit mad.

Thinking negative things.

Now cough & flu -__________-

Still, i'm staying strong ! But mostly, i can't go for band yet.

Staying in aircon for 3-4hours, will make me feel more worseeeee ):

Seeing doc @ polyclinic tmr, hopefully.

Cheaper than the private clinic !! It's sooo freaking expensive !

Erm?

Saturday; Study & Play time !

It gonna be a sorta crazy day for me !

Okay, gotta to go !

ps. i failed my freaking 3 tests already ! bio test tmr ! phy test next week !

WTF. I need to catch up already.

Failing 3 tests at the beginning of the year, is really sucky !! ):

I need some positive thoughts ! Gosh !

See you all !

-updated @ 7pm

Blogging again.

Hmm?

Argh, what's wrong with me?

Last night was a slight argument with this person.

And, just now another slight argument with another person.

WTF. what's wrong with me?

Am i trying to affect the relationship between these 2 people & myself ?

I guess i'll leave these alone.

I, myself, have to cool myself down first when i'm already so frustrated.

I'M SORRY !

You see, i'm just affecting everyone in this stupid thing.

Don't get affected by me please.

I'm really stupid & silly ):

REALLY STUPID.

SILLY.

I should stop blogging on these crazy stuffs, oh my damnit !

Okay, thanksgiving to God for the day !

No matter what, i still worship Him & love Him !

Today, didn't go CCA.

Sick - still coughing & everyone is complaining of afraid that i'll pass the virus -.-

Zzz.

Okay, will update again.

See you !

-updated @ 915pm

Do you know this ?

You just simply hurt me.

I think too much already.

I don't know what i want to do !

I have enough problems !

I've been experiencing this and that.

I just need someone when i need.

You people just know how to make me hurt.

Everytime, i feel like crying.

I really don't know !

My life is really sucky !

I've been attacking with bad happenings !

I broke glass bottle !

I tripped & fell & almost knocked my head and sprained my ankle !

I almost got stung by bees !

I am attacked with a cough & slight flu !

I got scolded for so much being kind !

I got reprimanded when i don't do things properly when i didn't really mean that !

When i want someone desperately, i get more pressure in the end.

Why?

Sometimes i do feel like ending my life right now !

I feel like killing myself.

I try so hard to stay positive !

I had so many bad experiences especially relationships with friends & family relationships.

I want just some (20%) understanding.

Not everything to be understood.

At least something abit please.

I feel so miserable leh !

Especially when my close ones/loved ones do this to me.

To this particular person:

Do you know that i put most photos of you in my computer wallpaper?

If you want to know, see for yourself.

Don't ask me.

I do love all of you !

I'm just under stress !

Neglecting all of you, is already making me feel very bad enough.

You all know. N levels for me this year !

Sigh.

I have nothing more to say further more !

I always think of this & that every night.

Think until my head is sooo pain !

Sigh !

Well, if you want to affect me more, go ahead.

I just get affected & carry on my life. Nothing else i can do.

ps. I still remember God & i try to pray to Him everyday for strength to face these obstacles !

-updated @ 615pm

Back to my old blogskin.

Nothing is nice, at the moment !

And my patience of editing the blogskins, is gone for now.

My life seems to be gone.

I'm unwell.

People started noticing the unusual me.

YES, i know ! My usual self is gone !

What's happening to me?

I kept on getting scolded & bad things fall on me recently.

WHY?

I need some advices, some encouragements NOT focus on studies & those stuffs.

Do you know what's wrong with me anot?

It's not because of studies.

My studies, i'm managing my time & doing my revision more often now than last year's.

WTF !

I feel so frustrated, you know !

I'm so annoyed.

Furthermore, i'm unwell already. People, still don't get that fact huh?

N levels & O level EMaths this year !

YES I KNOW THAT !

Don't need to remind me that.

I'm getting more & more frustrated.

Turn to God for help.

Helps alittle. I need more faith & trust in God.

But ! Still, very frustrated !

It's not the usual me !

WHY ? Wtf.

-updated @ 545pm

New blogskin.

It looks ugly at the moment.

Will change into a better one, when i've more time.

Gotta to go.

Goodnight, all !

PS. I managed to finish all my undone EMaths homework after days of piling all undone EMaths work !

It was like 3 exercises of tons of questions to finish up !

FINALLY !

But i still have other tasks to do.

Well, not much time at the moment. Perhaps tomorrow or before this week ends.

Monday Blues.

Today sucks !

I tripped & fell in school. Small bruises on leg & ankle.

But, i nearly knocked my head !

IF !

I knock my head, then i think i'll be more stupid already.

What's wrong with me? -___________-

Stayed back until 245pm & only had my lunch after 4pm.

Accounts extra lessons.

HEY MAN !

I need to rest. I need to eat. I need to go home.

I know my mum's reading my blog. Teachers may read my blog.

I don't care. I'm stating the facts anyway.

I've tons of work & revision to do.

I AM

tired + stressed + sick + mood swings + busy !

These are killing me please.

I've been neglecting friends & family.

What's wrong with me?

=(

I'm sorry.

Yeah, i've been not in a good mood.

I just lost my voice today (sick).

Sigh.

Okay gotta to go. Do work, work, work.

-updated @ 8pm

Had been a long day today.

Went out since morning.

Church & prayer meeting today, as usual.

Left to a ex-teacher's house.

Gathered with old friends & teachers, Ms Han & Ms Chan.

Had a nice time, catching up with one another especially these two ex-teachers.

Left & went 1st dinner before headed home.

Now having 2nd dinner.

Hmm?

Back to school tomorrow, as a new week begins.

My unhappy mood is still there and ever.

Mood swings, i guess?

Problems never end. Feel that things are just getting worse & i've to solve them.

Anyway, gotta to go.

Have a blessed week ahead.

-updated @ 9pm