YO!
Posting in the middle of the night.. =x
I'm going to collaspe already.
Yesterday was a crazy day.
Today another one.
I have 2 more crazy days which is tomorrow and Sunday.
Hope i can survive throughout. I simply gonna collaspe in one minute.
I'm really soooo tired, want to die already lol.

I have sooo many things to do.
Someone, help me pleaseee.
Give me your support, ya? =)
Okay, gtg!
Very tired alreadyy.


updated @ 3am !

YO!
Just woke up few minutes ago.
Wish i can sleep longer.
I've to go my grandma's place to pray to my late grandpa in 1 1/2h's time.

Hmm.
Things are getting fixed up.
I'm still having the uneasiness. Damn!
Okay gonna pray before i end my post..

Dear Father in Heaven,

I pray for myself to be more encouraged and have faith to do my jobs for MHI Christmas Party, no more conflicts/arguments with others.
I pray for Carolineee, let her come back to SG. She's stuck in Bangkok for 2 weeks already ! Pray for her safety.
Pray for Kor to have strength and wisdom as he is so busy until Christmas !
Pray for YK and XH to have faith in themselves and no Satan around them..
Pray for my dear friend to have some peace.
Pray for my jiejie to have strength and wisdom as she goes work and prepare for Christmas party as well.
Pray for everyone to have a blessed day !!
In Jesus's name.

Amen.

Just one more day to go before the weekends.
But i'm going to be busy tomorrow, saturday and sunday ! Hope I can survive -.-..
Okay gotta to run.
15 min has passed ! See you all !

JIAYOU, EVERYONE !


Updated @ 815am !

I'M SINCERELY SORRY TO EVERYONE !
I know i have done a wrong thing which i changed my mind again.
Shocked everyone.
Embarrassed myself.
I'm making a comeback to MHI Christmas Party.

Everything is back to one shape again.
But just want to warn you people.
Don't be ''too much'' to one another. I can react that again if you want to continue that.

Okay, everything is seriously over.
Thanks to Carolineeee, she talked me over again and again last night.
For hours.
She is sooo busy with work that she hardly sleep too.
Poor her!

I LOVE EVERYONE !

Okay, see you all.


updated @ 120pm !

YO!
Gonna post what i've learnt from SF last Sunday.
Although i missed half of it, i managed to get them from MHI website and learnt from thereee.

Jesus will come again

How do we know whether Jesus is coming back again?
John 14:2-3
(v.2) In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go prepare a place for you. (v.3) And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you unto myself, that where I am , there ye may be also.
(I'm going to prepare a place and if I have done that, I will come and take you together with me.)

Acts 1:11
(v.11) Which also said, Ye mean of Galilee, why stand ye gazing up into heaven? this same Jesus, which is taken up from you into heaven, shall so come in like manner as ye have seen him go into heaven.
(Men of Galilee, you do not need to continue to look at the sky. You saw Jesus go up to heaven. Like that, he will come back again.)

When is Jesus coming again?
We do not know but still should be prepared !
Matt 24:36
(v.36) But of that day and hour knoweth no mean, no, not even the angels of heaven, but my Father only.
(No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, not the Son, but only the Father.)

How will He come?
Matt 24:36
(By clouds of heaven with power and great glory)
Acts 1:9-11
(v.9) And when he had spoken these things, while they beheld, he was taken up; and a cloud received him out of their sight. (v.10) And while they looked stedfastly toward heaven as he went up, behold, two men stood by them in white apparel; (v.11) Which also said, Ye mean of Galilee, why stand ye gazing up into heaven? this same Jesus, which is taken up from you into heaven, shall so come in like manner as ye have seen him go into heaven.
(He will come back in the same way that you have seem Him go into heaven)

Warnings to help us prepare?
Matt 24:5,7,10
(v.5) For many shall come in my name, saying, I am Christ; and shall deceive many.
(the Christ, and shall deceive many)
(v.7) For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom; against kingdom: and there shall be famines, and pestilences, and earthquakes, in divers places.
(famines & earthquakes are the warnings)
(v.10) And then shall many be offended, and shall betray one another, and shall hate one another.
(away from faith and will betray)

How shall we prepare?
- Be ready at all times
Luke 12:40
(v.40) Be ye therefore ready also: for the Son of man cometh at an hour when ye think not.
(must be ready but not expecting him)

Encouraged to face sufferings and persecution to be ready for that.

That's what SF last Sunday is all about.
So sad that i missed church svc as well. Hmm, not detailed much when i tried to find out.
Anyway it's okay.
I gotta to go.
Update again..
Life is unpredictable..
I've still decided to be out of MHI things.
But I'll still continue to go church svc.
For SF, i can't say anything yet.
Let me think over it again again .. Give me time first ..

See you all !

Life is so unpredictable..

I'm out of everything.
OUT OF MHI CHRISTMAS PARTY.
I know some people are trying to talk me out.. but i tell you all, it gonna be pointless because i have made up my mind.. i'm seriously sorry.. but i don't wish to embarrass myself in the end.. =(
OUT OF D-GEN BAND.
OUT OF MHI OUTREACH ACTIVITIES.

Let me out please. Why cannot? I seriously want to be out, then some people'll be happier.
People happy, i'll be happy as well.
If you want to see me, then see me on Sunday @ church.
Anyway, i'll stay in MHI tuition until my O levels end. But i'll be only there on Tuesday afternoons. For Friday evenings, perhaps some of them.

Guess some people'll be happy.
I'm VERY sorry to those people who cares for me. I have let you all down.
But i have suffered very much.
I may just end my life one day if i continue like this.

Yeah, i'm very self-centredness and impatient.
Give up on me? Go ahead.
I will give up on you people either.
Okay enough.

I guess i'll just have my schoolmates, friends and God..
Studying throughout..
Finish my secondary school, Poly and go on with my life..
I think it'll be better.
For those who wants to see me again, contact me. I'm sure that most of you have my contacts..


updated @ 1120pm !

since 24Dec, it has been 11 months.. whee! waiting for next month~
God's gift to me..
I believe that relationship will continue thru all obstacles and problems..
(ps. it's not love relationship. i don't even have a boyfriend. HAHA)

Had 10 hours of sleep.
Felt much better, not so much aching already.
Busy everywhere.
Everything is going crazy until the week after next week. Then, gonna prepare for Christmas!
Many things are arriving.
2009 is approaching, which means my N LEVELS !
Oh gosh..
Time to get serious, no more being playful.
Okay.
Gotta to go.


Updated @ 1220pm!

Had a refreshing bath.
I was at sports camp since Friday.
Now i'm aching everywhere and imagine that i couldnt sleep well for 2 nights.
Panda eyes already.
Okay, i'm going to summarize everything about 3-day camp. Don't want to be soooooooo long-winded. Haha.

1st day - Handball, Paintball(didn't play, was scared)
2nd day - Archery, Fustal(similar to soccer)
Today(this morning) - Floorball
All activities were fun especially Fustal, heh. But of course, very tired and muscle ache in the end.
Fustal is similar to soccer. Soccer for boys. Fustal for girls and boys, haha.

Made new friends as well.
Enjoyed myself.
Oh, after the activity and prize giving just now, went to MHI with Aloy pest and YK.
For SF. - missed half of it. Sad. I was hoping to learn something from it.
But, i learnt the ending part. It's okay.
I'll make up for it NEXT sunday =)..
After that, went for lunch and headed home.
I nearly collasped already. So tired, yet had to carry 2 bags and badminton racket around here and there =x
Oh yeah! I'm abit tanner now! I want to be MORE tanned, haha! =)

Okay, that's all i guess?
See you all again!


updated @ 530pm !

YO!
I'm back from camp!
Super tired.
Haven't bathe. I stink.
Update later about the camp,ya?
See you !!


Updated @ 445pm!

I want to be a GOOD girl lah.
Treat me as a human, can anot?
Don't treat me until like i'm an alien or whatever.

I'm not someone who you can control huh.
I'm a girl.
I'm a human who has bad and good points.
I'm Joyceee.

Whatever you've been treating me, sounds like not the Joyce you know, eh.
Bad point, tell me.
I do something wrong, tell me lah.
I'm just 15 years old !
15 years of my life, must i suffer this much?
Like making me that i don't want to live anymore. People, come and kill me lah.
Don't like me, kill me lah.
Like me, don't make use of me. Can anot?

Ok example..
Last few Sundays, Caroline kinda scolded me in front of everyone in MHI.
For what? - For my own good.
Until now, i still can remember what she did to me.
And how badly i embarrassed myself.

See...!
Tell me, tell me.
Not angry at me, scold me, hurt me, backstab me.
For what? WTF.
Get it anot, people? Ahiyo.
Just.
15 years old leh!

I want to say something too.

Someone also talked to me last night.
Not the same person, btw.
This person knows that i'm hurt by all these, but still i don't get it(something else).
Well, after i say all these..some of you or that person will know who i'm talking about.

That person told me to:
Stay strong.
If (this person) can do it, i also can.

Another person told me:
Be patient in ALL aspects.
Believe in God in all those.
No one is perfect except God.

Okay, answer is 2 persons told me all these. But there're more, hiding themselves.
Don't want to tell me. I know who they are.
And i can't reveal here.
Too personal. But some people may know.
Both of them are my close ones, yet the older ones.

WTF..
I just realised some things in me.
I guess i'm a bad friend.
good friend to some people.
close friend to some people.
being good and close, is it hard for me as well? - i even don't know who to trust.
A bad sworn sister. (mei/jie).
sworn mei to some people.
sworn jiejie to some people.
Being the younger and older one to different people, really hard for me. Don't you think so?
I realised whatever i do.
Cause many problems.
Cause envy/jealousy to be there.
I guess i'm also a bad daughter to my parents, a bad sister to my blooded brother.
Always go out.
Refuse to listen to them sometimes.

I'M REALLY A BAD GIRL. Oh sian.

Okay, things here are kinda messed up.
I just have to stay strong, be patient in all aspects.
Look out in all ways that WTF is wrong with myself.
Okay.
Gotta to go. See you all ~


updated @ 9am !

Hi,

I've not been blogging good recently.
Hmm.
Many things have happened, and i can't reveal here because some aren't meant for people to know.
Someone asked me last night: Why focus on bad points?
Why i've been sighing away, is because of this matter.
I've been emotional, hurting and wanting to cry everyday. EMO. But i don't want that, so i always control myself.
But i don't think people know?
Ok never mind.
SELF-CENTREDNESS - my bad point. Most of you may agree.
I think it's my words whatever i say, and from my blog. Perhaps my actions too.
LACK OF PATIENCE - it has been my bad point till then.
I'll say it's a gene from my dad, he is also impatient. But, again people will not believe and insist me to change if i'm willing.
Hmm, anyway.
Again, i'm too self-centredness - talking about myself.
But i think that's totally WRONG to me.
Perhaps i'm wrong instead.
I think there're more abt me till then.
Since everytime when problems occur, i get hurt.
I get scolded in return.
Anyway, not only one person tell me this.
More than one, mind you.
Yeah yeah, self-centredness again. Whatever. Don't you know that it hurts me?
Ok i think i must say this:
I'm the cause of everything.
I cause everything to be bad and sour.
I'm a baddie.
Okay with you all?

Sigh, i don't wish to write further more.
Everything is so difficult, but not impossible.
People out there.
Don't ask me why and questions here and there, about this. Don't even mention about this matter in front of me, otherwise you will die in the hands of me =X..
But, some people knows more about this.
I'm sure they will come saying that: WHY TYPE IN YOUR BLOG?
Sigh.

Oh, now happy things.
I went to watch the movie(The Coffin) last Sunday.
The first horror movie i watched in my life.
But it don't look horror to me, although there're some horror parts.
Anyway, it's nice.
Nothing much moreee.


Update again, another time.
Gonna get ready soon, to go down to my primary school.
Hmm.
Today is PSLE's results day.
Wonder who is gonna be the highest. Gonna find out later, lol.
See you all ~


Updated @ 810am !

Many things are happening here and there.
Sigh.

Updated @ 11pm !

Hope everything get better nowadays.
I can't blog much at the moment.
TOO MANY THINGS.
Sorry people out there.
Btw, i'm alright if people want to know how i am doing.
Some people'll know how i'm doing nowadays.
No problem.
I won't update often as well.
Perhaps until this sunday, after my camp.

See you all !


Updated @ 645pm !

YO!

Updating before going off to meet that stupid pest Aloy to go together to tanah merah.
Haiz, why must i stay near his home of all? =.=ll
Well, people out there !!
HE IS NOT MY OFFICIALLY BOYFRIEND. I EVEN DON'T HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM. I HATE HIM LOL !
Get it ?
PS. Sad that my dear jiejie isn't going with us to cycling =(.. Wish that she's around, will be more fun =)
Okay, i gonna pray for today then gonna log off =)..

Dear Father in Heaven,

I pray for a blessed day today, with good weather.
I also pray for every single of us who are going to Pulau Ubin for cycling, our safely especially.
Pray that everyone will have a great day ahead.
Safety there, also during cycling, and lastly back to Singapore.
Thank You.
In Jesus's name.

Amen.


Updated @ 845am !

YO!

Just bathed, just got home.
Went out the whole day today.
Today band performance @ CCPS (primary school band), was good. Stayed behind for 1-2 hours before we seniors/teachers left.
Went to meet XH for lunch @ cityhall, had a nice one. (don't believe me? go ask XH lol..)
Went to MHI.
Awhile later, went to walk until somewhere near Clarke Quay, popped in a new shopping centre. Interesting !!
Went back to MHI.
Hmm, nothing much. Evening, had dinner @ PS with my piggy Kor and XH.
Went Cathay for a while after meeting dear jiejie and JE @ MHI nearly to 9pm.
Ended up talking talking talking.
So, got home late lol =x.. Luckily my mum didn't nag, but gave me usual look lol =x..
Need to learn to be on time =x
Okay, that'll be all.
Hmm, pray that Caroline and Patrick will be back in sg safely tonight !! - I miss Caroline lol =x
Pray also for good weather tomorrow.
Cycling @ Pulau Ubin ! Wheeeeee ! Pray for safety for everyone, as well =)
See you all ~
Nights nights !!


Updated @ 1130pm !

Just finished my supper.
Went school late for lessons =x..
Lesson was alright.
Teacher kinda long-winded and there were some funny parts, but kinda lame =.=ll
After lesson, headed to my grandma's place @ Yishun.
5th week that my late grandpa has gone to heaven.
Cousins, aunts and uncles were there O.o
I was the only one wearing sch uniform, kinda weird lol.
Nothing much.
Tomorrow will be out the whole day, but hopefully i can come back in evening to rest for Saturday cycling =)
See you all ~
Nights nights !!


Updated @ 1120pm

In 2-3 hours' time, i'm off to school for lesson.
3-hour lesson, hope it doesn't bore me.
Nothing much.
Hope i'm out of everything and i need some slience..

See you all !
Update again tonight, perhaps.


Updated @ 1140am!

Finally back home!
Went out with my mum the whole afternoon.
Shopping @ Novena & DG.
Had japanese food for dinner, heh heh.
It has been some time that i ate jap food again =)..
Bought a ''sporty'' bag for myself @ DG.
It gonna be useful for outings. Great that my mum agreed to buy the bag finally !!
Wanted to buy sports shoes, cap but didn't in the end.
They are TOO expensive !!!
Okay that's all.
Lessons tmr in afternoon >.<..

See you all !
Have a restful night..


Updated @ 910pm !

MORNING !

Luckily called the school up.
Today lesson changed to tomorrow.
And i was already in uniform and just finished my breakfast when i received that damn news -.-
I should have gone back to sleep =.=
Now i'm awake so freaking early.
I shall find something to do today.

See you all.


Updated @ 820am !

Got home few minutes ago.
Went out to MHI for tuition !
Tutor was that crazy sworn kor of mine ! =)
Nothing much.
Today was quite slacky.
Starting not to like going out much. Still not in holiday mood.
Hopefully, i can do some work tonight.

Gosh ! Tomorrow, have to go school for that accounts lesson @ freaking 9am!
Wish i can sleep in longer everyday =.=..
Not really looking forward to the camp that is within a week's time.
Not really looking forward to MHI christmas party that is within a month's time.
Not really looking forward to special events.
=X..
See? I'm not in the holiday mood yet =.=..
Okay, gotta to go!


Updated @ 810pm !

Gosh!
I supposed to finish up the assignments that i mentioned last night.
I was studying accounts and FELL ASLEEP! =.=..
Hmm?
Someone asked me to read some verses from bible and i did..
Something popped in my mind.
Share with you all, what i've read..

John 15:9-17
As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love.
Reminding me that God's love has remained there for me.
If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father's commands and remain in his love.
Telling me that what i'm instructed to do, go ahead and do it. God'll love you whatever you have done(obeyed).
I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete.
Saying that whatever you have done, you'll have peace(joy may be in you) and everywhere is in peace.
My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you.
Always love one another like you love God, no matter what.
Greater love has no one that this, that he lay down his life for his friends.
Willing to have that love for other people than ownself.
You are my friends if you do what I command.
Whatever you do, you are a friend not a servant to God.
I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for have made known to you.
Friends doesn't know one another that well, but I still do it as it has made known to me.
You did not choose me but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit-fruit will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.
In fact, I'm not supposed but always happen that ended up with me doing it and God'll reward you(but i never ask for that, it's all my willingness)
This is my command: Love each other.
Always love one another - God always says that, reminding us.

This is telling me something that i've done and what God has said to me.
Main purpose of this is:
Love each other.
I know I've done/said something relating to this. - Father in Heaven, forgive me on these.

Okay, gotta to go.
Need to finish up my stuffs, before tuition in afternoon.
See you all !!


Updated @ 730am !

YO!

Went to bed last night after updating my entry.
And i woke up nearly to 12pm today!
12 hours of sleep !!!
I think this is 2nd/3rd time already during holidays =p..
Dragged myself out to meet my mum for lunch @ Kovan.
Got home nearly to 5pm.
So sickening. I was complaining and complaining.
I didn't want go out of the house today.
Yet, I went out for my mum's sake =.=..
I WAS SUPPOSED TO STUDY TODAY =.=.. Ended up listening to Christian songs after i got home.
I'm still tired, feeling sleepy O.o
Hopefully I can study tonight.

Tasks I must complete tonight:
- Caroline's journal entry
- Caroline's HW - compre/compo
- Accts WS (to be brought on wed's extra lesson)
- Accounts Revision
Will update again after i'm done with thesee..

Oh yes!
My shorty brother..(btw, it's my blooded brother NOT my sworn brother)
He is going to Scotland this sat, gonna be away for 2 weeks !!
Oh damn, i'm so jealous of him. He went to China(Beijing) and Australia(Gold Coast) last year.
Also, he went to 2 countries earlier on. I can't remember the countries' names.

At same time, my uncle is coming back from China (bringing his girlfriend back from her homeland) =.=..
I'm so jealous !
I didn't go for holiday since last 2 years, execpt HK (band cultural exchange programme) last year.
S'pore is soooooo boring !
But i'm occupied though. Thanks to MHI, all those events ! =)
Okay, gotta to go..


Updated @ 645pm !

YO !

So tired.
Went out the whole day o.O
Anyway,
I'll like to share today church's sermon, preached by Pastor Alvin @ wesley church and also what i learnt from SF @ MHI, was leaded by Lynette babe.

Church's sermon today
Romans 10:14-15

(v.14) How, then can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them?
(v.15) And how can they preach unless they are sent? As it is written, "How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news !"

1. Conversion does not happen by chance.
How will they believe in Him if they don't hear any preaching, nor believing Him in the first place?
- 2 types of preaching in church
1. Traditional ways (CDC, COSC, missions & W & E)
2. Non-traditional ways ("Just walk around the room" & Sports Wesley Ministry)

2. Reasons why people don't accept Christ.
- They have met a Christian
- They have not met a Christian

3. Evangelism is designed for the whole church.
How are they able to preach?
- By sending messages
(What it means?)
We people need messengers to send messages, similar to: Pastors preaching His word every service to us
A bigger role: Our responsibility to send someone out in the field.
1. Evangelism is a process - begins with conversion and never end
2. Front-end evangelism (to win) & Back-end evangelism (to build)
Back-end evangelism - 1. Be the community for the converts
2. The Third Place
The church plays a bigger role but we usually think that is only for professionals. But that is not true !!

--------------------

What's missing from church today?
- Limited concept of evangelism
Everyone is the witness, not only the professionals.
No one turns into a Christian after somewhere like school that we preach His word.
Being a new convert, which needs to have a 'church' to receive them, means that when you wants to be a convert of God. Surely, you want to know more about His word.
Do it by going service every week and listen to pastor's preachings.
These also needs time to adpat.

-------------------

Conclusion:
What must I do today?
1. Change in mindset - doing a better job
2. Resolving to be involved - making time for it (more than going to church & do necessary things)

Don't ever stop sharing His word with others. No harm doing that, even when someone points a gun at you. The gospel is being shared, like refreshing our minds or letting the new converts know You more.

SF - The Church is the Body of Christ
From Acts 1:8-11 & 1 Corinthians 12:12,13, 27.

Do you know where is the body of Jesus Christ today?
1. Body of Christ - 1 Corinthians 12:12-13
2. We people are the parts of the body of Jesus Christ - 1 Corinthians 12:27
How to contribute to our church as one body of Christ?
Be united together, have the team spirit.


That's all what i've learnt today.
I'm glad that i managed to focus on the sermon and SF today, even though i had bad times for the past 2 weeks.
I hope every week is in this way.
So that, i can commit fully to Him and know Your word.
A prayer before i logged off..

Dear Father in Heaven,

I thank God for this great day that i managed to know You more !
I pray for wisdom and strength as i start a new week and also in my revision.
I also pray for myself, time management between things and studies - otherwise, naggings are here again.
I pray for everyone to have strength, wisdom and guidance in everything they do.
I pray for everyone including myself to have a peaceful and calm week ahead and we'll meet again during weekends.
In Jesus's name.

Amen.

Updated @ 11pm ! - took an hour to update this entry -.-ll

Blogging again before i'm off to sleep.

Sorry to SOMEONE - my dear friend whom don't wish to be named.
I'm sleeping late again >.<
Sorry, sorry.
I'll still appear in church and you'll see me, no worries.

Hmm, i guess i'm feeling better now.
Thanks to that naughtyyyyyyyyyy...i won't say who lol.
Okay, later church then SF then....?
Will update then..
See you all !
Good night/Good early morning ! =X..


Updated @ 220am !

Wanting to post some things but kept on forgetting for the past few days...

I have been hurt by teenagers/adults/people in higher 'ranks' many times until now and then.
People don't get what I mean.
I have to face all those harsh, bad, rude words being said to me.
People don't understand what I mean.
I can be angry and lose my cool.
I can be moody.

I cherish everyone around me.
I keep quiet, doesn't mean that I'm alright.
I never give up on everyone even when you all hate me or are angry with me.
I never lose my cool, then don't make me do it.
Others have disappointed and upset me many times without knowing.
People see outside me, which is not the real Joyce you know.
Others never see what i am trying to do.
The real Joyce is when you all know inside me.

You all think i'm stupid, silly, playful, lazy etc.
All the truth is that i am NOT silly, playful, lazy - I'm tired, annoyed and moody when everyone is pushing me harder and harder.
You all think i'm hard-hearted.
Don't think i'm lucky.
All the truth is that i've been having hard time.
Don't think i'm taking things for granted.


These are all reasons why i'm feeling very uncomfortable for almost 2 weeks.
Whatever it's.
I'm not asking you people to change or whatever.
But think what you all have done to me.
Have i ever done bad things to you all?
I organised things for what? for who?
Why must i go all that extent? Spend so much? For who? For what?
What have you shown to me?
I'm NOT asking things in return. I'm NOT showing off.
I want you people to THINK and treat me as your friend, treat me nicely, treat me as one.
Pleaseeeeeeeee!

Everyday i feel miserable, upset.
That's NOT what i want. I want to see happiness and joy and peace in everyone, not only me.
Yes, i'm trying my VERY best to manage time.
Managing things.
If you don't understand these, then forget it..waste my time, energy and care for you people!
That's all what i wanted to say..


Updated @ 730pm !

Just came back from outside.
Overslept this morning.
Still having a headache, at least much better than last night.
Sigh.
Have been two weeks already..my unhappiness/moodiness still everywhere.
WTFFFFF.
I think i'll stop mixing much with people.
Affecting me here and there.
Makes me feel like quitting EVERY single thing.

Tomorrow is Sunday again !
Reminds me of last Sunday's happenings, pssst. Especially the harsh words spoken to me.
I think they will stick in my mind for long time.
Anyway..
Again, i warn everyone.
Don't make me lose my cool, especially when i'm still not in right usual self.
Okay, i go study accounts.
Didn't study for the past 2 days, i'll be dead if my mentor finds out ! Luckily she is on holiday,right now -.-..
See you all.


Updated @ 515pm !

Again updating, nearly to 12am !

Outside the whole day today.
CSH swimming carvival in the morning.
Afternoon, all the way to evening: meetings.
Only ate my dinner at 8pm plus.
Headed home after a short while.

Right now, i'm having a bad headache.
Sigh.
So much things annoying me and i'm very tired already.
Ok nights people !


Updated @ 1115pm !

Gosh it's nearly 12am !

Today..I were out almost the whole day >.<
Didn't study today, damn !
Maybe later O.o

Late morning, went down to CSH with XH and YK.
Met the teachers and my little juniors there.
Had a nice chat with Mr Wu, my long time favourite teacher lol.
Hmm, left in afternoon.
Headed to VSA Bedok for practice until 8pm plus.
Finally got home almost 10pm!
Sooo tired.
I feel so insulted today, don't know why.
I feel like quitting everything.
Guess i'm mad again =.=

Okay never mind.
I don't want to say so much, people get hurt 'cos of me =X..
Tmr, will be out the whole day AGAIN !
Jiayou ~
A prayer before i end my post =)

Dear Father in Heaven,

I pray for everyone and myself for Your wisdom, strength and peace !
Peace and Joy in our hearts, minds and souls !
In Jesus's name.

Amen.


Updated @ 1145pm !

My fifth post for the day.

What am i doing? Updating again and again =.=
I've been thinking over again and again.
Should i forget it ? Should i do something ? - wtf..there's nothing i can do -.-

Hmm?
Some people asked me to cheer up.
Some people are annoying me.
Some people are confusing me.
Then, what shld i do?

I've been thinking all day along..zz, my brain will burst one day =.=
Okay, i'm not going to update any more for today !
It's nearly to 12am already.
Enough, enough.
I'm seriously mad enough =.=..

I've been studying every single day since this week started, but another lousy week..
I wanted to have a better week,very much.
People not annoying me.
Not confusing me.
Happiness please. Peace, please. Not anger, unhappiness, moodiness, sadness etc.
It is like destroying the whole of me.

Now holidays leh.
I want a peaceful mind. I want to study and finish up ALL revisions within one month, before MHI christmas party please.

I'M NOT COMPLAINING.
I'M NOT RANTING.
I'M NOT NAGGING.
I'M NOT SCREAMING AT ANYONE.

I just want peaceeeeee ! Joy brings to the world !
End of my fifth post !

Dear Father in Heaven,

Please bless everyone and myself with happiness, peace and joy inside ourselves.
Also, with peaceful minds, souls !
In Jesus's name.

Amen.


Updated @ 1130pm !

Forth time updating =.=

Anyway, i sounded scary in the previous post.
Well, I mean it.
Okay.
Today, spent all the day along at home.
Finished up Ant's HW.
Studied Accounts.

Okay, see you all ~
Till the next post.. =)


Updated @ 6pm !

I have thought of what i wanted to say after last night and this whole morning.

I am always a willing person who always never give up on people who i've cherished in all my life.
Even you call me silly, stupid or whatever.
I NEVER GIVE UP !
Get this right?
No matter what happens, i will wait and wait.

Another thing.
I want to warn all of you, it may sound offended.
Don't make me flared up with any of you.
Once i'm, everything'll stop and everything'll in the mess, i can say.
Get this right?

I'll never have the courage to return to my CCA.
Because you all have looked down on me.
You all never change impression towards me when i tried SO hard to change.
I'm a HI.
NEVER BE A NORMAL PERSON !
HEARING IMPAIRED MEANS HEARING IMPAIRED.
So, you all expect me to hear well as you all?
No way ! This never happen.

People out there.
I don't know whether my mum reads my blog.
If she does, i don't care.
Better make sure that i don't flare out one day.
Once i do it, everything's over.
I'm OUT of everything once i lose my cool.
I'm sure you all haven't ever seen me losing my cool. I can be one fierce type. Want try?

I know some SAC people read my blog.
I know some MHI people read my blog.
I know my mum read my blog sometimes - not sure, she does it secretly -.-
My blog may sound offending, may sound rude.

But i really mean it.
Anyway, enough saying of what i want to say.
Since Monday, i managed to study.
Right now, i'm studying too. - All thanks to Carolineeeeee, her harsh words to me on Sunday =X !
Okay, will have a prayer before i end my post.

Dear Father in Heaven,

I pray for myself to have encouragement and wisdom in things I do.
Pray for XH for strength and blessings in whatever she does.
Pray for YK to calm her anger or whatever & speaks to us again. Pray for strength and wisdom as she does things whatever she needed to.
Pray for Caroline and Pat for their safety as they are away overseas for holidays.
Pray for Ant as usual, strength and wisdom in whatever he needs to do.
Pray for Elaine as well, as her exam's coming up or is it classes for next exams. Give her Your wisdom and strength.
Pray for my dear jiejie Yanyu to have strength and encouragement as she goes work everyday and hopes of knowing You more.
Pray for my dear friend for better things for him/her as time pass.
In Jesus's name.

Amen.


Updated @ 330pm !

A quiz tagged by Char.

Four screen names you had.
1. Joyce
2. Joyceee
3. Joy
4. JN

Four physical things you like about yourself.
1. Eyes
2. Face
3. Nose
4. Skin

Four physical things you don't like about yourself.
1. Fats in my limbs
2. ??
3. ??
4. ??

Four parts of your Heritage.
1. Mathematics
2. Chinese - My family is, but i'm not.
3. Short-sighted
4. Shorty ! - My family is short -.-

Four things that scare you.
1. Ghosts? No.
2. Scary games? No.
3. Scary movies? Never try once lol.
4. Big insects - eg. Adult cockroach, lizard etc.

Four of your everyday essentials.
1. Handphone
2. Wallet
3. Batteries - For my CI (people who know me well will know what i mean)
4. Spectacles

Four things you are wearing now.
1. Aqua shirt.
2. Light blue shorts.
3. ???
4. ???

Four of your favourite bands or musical artistes.
1. S.H.E. - used to
2. ???
3. ???
4. ???

Four of your favourite songs (Right now).
1. You Are My All In All
2. Blessed Be Your Name.
3. ??
4. ??

Two truths and two lies, in no particular order.
1. I have an older brother(truth)
2. I have a younger sister(lie)
3. I have a handphone(truth)
4. I have 100 pairs of shoes(lie)

Four physical things about your preferred sex that appeal to you.
1. Eyes?
2. Hair?
3. Personalities
4. Habits

Four of your favourite hobbies.
1. Swimming
2. Cycling
3. Badminton
4. Drawing randomly

Four things that you want to do really badly right now.
1. Study
2. Go out ! - not really lah.
3. Eat
4. MSN-ing - not really lah.

Four careers you are considering/you've considered.
1. Music instructor
2. IT designer
3. Accountant - perhaps if my Accts gets better
4. ???

Four places you want go on vacation.
1. Japan
2. Taiwan
3. Korea
4. Australia

Four names you like.
1. Joyceee
2. Silly Joyceee - some people call me that
3. ?
4. ?

Four things you want to do before you die.
1. Pass N levels and O levels
2. Get a job and earn money
3. Hang around with friends more
4. Achieve my dreams

Four ways that you are stereotypically a girl.
1. Talkative
2. I like shopping
3. Don't have beard
4. ??

Four ways that you are stereotypically a boy.
1. Being rough
2. ??
3. ??
4. ??

Ten people you are tagging to do this quiz.
1. Char
2. Yuki
3. Yanyu jiejie
4. Ant
5. Elaine
6. Jaslyn
7. ChongDing
8. Chanying
9. Diyana
10. Anyone lol.

End of my Quiz ~

ZZ, I CAN'T THINK.

WON'T UPDATE UNTIL I THINK PROPERLY.


Updated @ 815am !

Slept this whole morning ! Woke up @ 1145am, nearly to 12pm !
Nearly 12 hours of sleep ! Oh gosh !
Hmm?
The whole afternoon, have been facing the computer.
Doing the schedule for the whole holidays. STUDY SCHEDULE !
I am done with Nov schedule but NOT the Dec schedule.
Couldn't carry on.
Eyes almost wanted to pop out already =X
Just now studied 4 chapters of E Maths for 1-2 hours. Can't study for another hour when i'm supposed to.
Stopped.
It was done for the day ! =X
A prayer before i'm done posting..

Dear Father in Heaven,

I pray for myself that i managed to finish half of my study schedule of the whole 2 months today !
Pray for wisdom and strength as i catch up in studies and things i do.
Pray for YK and XH to have strength and guidance in whatever they are doing.
Pray for Ant for encouragement and guidance in whatever he is doing @ work, @ home or wherever he goes.
Pray for Elaine for her upcoming exam, wisdom and guidance to be with her.
Pray for Caroline & Pat to have safety as they go for their holiday, wherever they go.
Pray for my dear friend (whom don't wish to be named) for strength in whatever s/he does and some encouragements to get rid of her/his moodiness asap !
In Jesus's name.

Amen.


Updated @ 1145pm !

Hi all !
I don't want to say so much today. Missed church. Nearly missed prayer meeting.
My apologies to everyone for today.
I'm not in the good mood. I'm very sorry to everyone.
Anyway i'll just leave a prayer for today and update again another time.

Dear Father in Heaven,

I pray for myself to have the encouragement to do what i needed to do, also patience with others.
Pray for YK that she will have the guidance and strength for her tomorrow performance.
Pray for XH for guidance and wisdom in whatever she do.
Pray for Ant and Elaine for wisdom and strength in whatever they do, especially in their jobs.
Pray for Caroline and Pat, their safety as they go for holiday in Israel for 2 weeks.
Hmm..
Pray for a blessed week ahead !
In Jesus's name.

Amen.

BTW ! Thanks Lynette babe for the birthday card although it's late now !
Well, I got kinda scolded by someone today, i won't say who.
But some people knows.
Well..I know she meant well. Okay gtg to stop here.
See you all !! Nights.

FREAKING HELL!
Don't feel like going church.
I want to listen to the sermon ! I want to worship songs to Him !
But all because of that stupid PERSON A ~
ROFL.
Well, i'm trying to finish my work asap then see whether i've the time to go. If not, perhaps i'll come for prayer meeting @ MHI which is @ 1130am.
WTFH.
If THAT PERSON A don't disturb me, i'm fine. Going there, separately from PERSON A.
see the word: SEPARATELY.
Get it, people?
Okay gotta run ! See you all !
I guess i'll be out for the whole day again ! Have a blessed day ahead ~


Updated @ 805am !

I'm back updating again.
WTF WTF.
I'M NOT GOING TO BOTHER ABOUT THAT PERSON.
THAT PERSON GONNA APPEAR IN CHURCH TMR. WTF.
okay, i have to stop. It's enough !!
Hmm, tdy went for badminton. Many youths came. Glad that they were able to come !
Vanessa ! Next time, book 3 courts then i'll ask more youths to come lol. =)
Dinner @ Novena.
Hanged around before heading homeee.
Had a nice time with all of them ! =)
But THAT PERSON was there. Tmr i gonna see THAT PERSON again. WTH.
Okay, fineee. Enough means enough.
Gtg ! See you all !


Updated @ 1145pm !

WTF.
I don't want to say bad words any more please.
But i can't take it anymore, as well.
WTF.
This person, i'm so freaking angry with. Person A.
Person A think she is so pathetic or whatever.
So despo, or whatever its?!
2 years (OLDER, mind you) apart from me, acting like younger than me ?! WTF.
YOU ARE IMMATURE, DON'T YOU KNOW?!
Everyone is trying to help you and yet, you don't get it and try to complain people about especially me. WTF, you lah. I try to help you then you complain. WTF. Complain queen, huh?!
Now i'm not going to bother about you. Whatever you want to do, go ahead. Don't tell people you know me huh. I don't know you, okay?! F_ _ _ off please. Thank you!
WTF, WTF.
I hate you, seriously! I update more later.. I'm seriously pissed now. Need to control myself first.
Sorry people out there, zzz !
WTF.
WTF.
WTF.
WTF.

Sorry, I know i'm not supposed to say bad words -_-lll