8 more days to prelims ! 36 more days to the first BIG BIG paper ! 55 more days to the last BIG BIG paper ! 56 more days to holidays of the year ! ♥

Super duper long day today, with no proper lunch !
Finally, tomorrow is FRIDAY ! (:
I'm still ranting in my mind about this sucky O levels Maths !
I rather get kicked out instead of being on probation =x - STAY POSITIVE, JOYYCCEEE ! (:
YES, STILL FIGHTING ! :D

So much things that Kor & I can't get along that well ): - BUT, I still love my Kor ♥

Stressful in preparing for exams, exams, exams indeed !
Thanks people for jiayou-ing me & keeping me in prayers always ! ♥
I love you all !
Forgive me, if I neglect any of you nowadays.
JUST WAIT UNTIL END OF OCTOBER !
I'LL BE SUPER FREE, BY THEN ! :D
Wait for me to put down my pen after touching the STUPID last paper of the year, okay?! :D

Now, mug & mug & mug until I really drop dead.
LOL, kidding :D

BTW,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PATRICK WEE ! (:

9 more days to prelims ! 37 more days to the first BIG BIG paper ! 56 more days to the last BIG BIG paper ! 57 more days to holidays of the year ! ♥


Whatever outcome it will be, I will leave it to fate.
I believe that it's God's will if I receive good or bad outcome (:
Not forgetting God's purpose in everything.

Thanks Kor for some encouraging words last night ! ♥ (although you sorta pissed me off again, lol !)

I will still fight all the way until my last paper, no matter what !
But still, i'm scared. (Yeah, so unusual of me saying that, lol !)
Anyway, FIGHTING ! ~

An advice to all those younger generations:
If you are in NA, taking N levels & you are offered to take O levels in certain subjects.
Please take my advice to take the all Ns first, then proceed to all Os.
Unless you are super duper smart in the world !

Thanks for those who are keeping me in prayers ♥
I'm sincerely alright.
BUSY LIKE MADWOMAN.
Mugging for prelims & actual exams ! Ahhhhhh ! :D

PAPER 2 TODAY D:
It was even harder, I'm prepared to fail these damn prelim papers =x

Finished ard 4pm plus & got home nearly 6pm.
So tired & yet, I had to go tuition.
Went down for tuition & headed home (:

Tomorrow, go home at 4pm ! Rah, jiayou man !

O LEVELS MATHS PRELIM PAPER 1 TODAY D:
Really sucks !
Yeah, my days are getting more sucky.

PAPER 2 TOMORROW D:
Hopefully this paper is easier than today's paper.

I'm losing confidence & trying to get more faith in myself ! Rah !
I'm expecting myself to fail & proceed to ITE instead of sec 5 !
WTF?!
Anyway, wherever I go, I hope our friendship and support from you all are still there.
I know now, I'm losing trust in almost all of you D:
Like wtf ?!

Rah !
Tomorrow's Tuesday ! D:
TUESDAY BLUES.
With PE & finishing school at 4pm & tuition in the evening (I guess so?) !

N LEVELS PRELIMS ARE LIKE 1-2 WEEKS AWAY ! D:
I'm not fully prepared yet, oh freaking hell.
LOL ! FIGHTING ! :D
It's a must to start self-studying all the way until my last major exam paper ends on the spot !

Btw !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LIM JIA YI ! :D

My day really sucks !

Went kayaking at Lower Seletar & everyone got a partner from COSC.
Mine was a guy, because i'm not that good swimmer (:
He resembled another guy, whom was Xuehui's partner & I got mixed up at first :D
Kayaking everywhere. Splashing one another.

Nothing much today.
Just that & went home.
I don't want to elaborate so much already.

Everything is so freaking busy and sucky ! ):
Yeah, my studies suck.
Don't tell me straight to my face and be proud of that -_________-

I gotta to go.
MATHS PRELIM PAPER 1 TOMORROW ! D:

Rah, I blogged halfway last night & internet connection went off for no reason.
Hmm.
Overslept & not going church service again ):
Okay, about yesterday.

Went out in afternoon at Bugis, evening at Orchard.
Supposed to self-study.
Ended up with shopping & dinner & chat.
WTF?!

Sigh, I wanted to study last night, too tired.
And now, OVERSLEPT.
Help me, God !
Today gonna be another sucky day ):

So freaking early at this hour.
Yesterday got so much internet problems, that my brother & I were so flared up.
SORRY PEOPLE, WHO I KEPT ON TALKING HALFWAY LAST NIGHT & THOSE WHO I NEVER REPLY!
(if anyone talks to me - btw i didn't see anyone talking to me because my msn kept on going on and off )

I slept after he slept.
And now, he woke up after I woke up.
LOL, siblings' connection huh?

Hmm?
Yesterday was another dreadful day in school, so much work :D
Went down to MHI as usual.
Ended up talking, playing BUT managed to understand abit of graphs & new method to solve ! :D
Dinner & supper @ MACs, before heading home (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LYNETTE LIM ! Sorry my post updated a day late ):

Today, self-study later with friends(:
SHOPPING, perhaps :D
Okay, update again tonight ! :D

Exhausting, long day in school today.
Many words can describe today, but can't express them(:

Thank God that Kor, Victor, Erni & others reached China safely through transit at Bangkok from here(:
Pray for all their safety until they come back on monday evening(:

A shorter day tomorrow, finally!
But, prelim's coming very soon which is on monday !
Okay gotta to run ! :D

Update again(:

GOODNIGHT, ALL :D

I'm really sorry to all whom I've randomly hurt recently, perhaps today as well.
Please forgive me !
Yah, I don't know what's wrong with me nowadays.
Just facing many challenges now ):

Sorry, people! Forgive me, please(:
My feelings just suck sometimes, what a headache !

I just want to say to all of you,

Whatever I want to do, can let me do it?
Yeah, you all just make my N levels/O levels as all excuses.
Sure, I won't join you all if you all don't like it.
Yes, I know you all want me to study for exams, I'm really studying like mad. Please get it clear (:
I just need a short break by having some meals with you all, also cannot ):
Anyway, it's alright.

After N levels/O levels, don't call me back.
It's like making use of me & I hate this ! Thank you ! (:
I might just go back to the old me, being with family all times, yah?

Today is dreadful, weather is also even so dull.
No eclipse could be seen here?
No tsunami, pray hard for those people there in Korea or wherever (I forgot).

School as usual and ended earlier.
Late lunch with the girls, in order to celebrate Ivy and Rach's birthdays because ..
Not important to say here lol.
Ended up going home in late evening (:
I nearly died, lol.

Tomorrow is another super long day.
Pray for those who are going to China deaf conference tomorrow super early morning ! (:

Gotta to go ! :D
Piles of work are waiting for me to touch them (:

LASTLY,
Happy Birthday to Rachel Koh (the cute blur babe) & Caroline Chua (the pretty babe) !
I LOVE BOTH OF THEM :D

Still kicking alive.
No worries about me. I'm alright(:

Anyone want to be studying buddy with me on Friday and over the weekend? (:

What was happening today,

I went to see doctor at polyclinc & got my 6th MC of these 7 months.
On medication for 6 weeks, from today, which suck man !
I wanted to go down for tuition, but Kor refused me to come & insisted me to rest.

Yah, yah
My gastrics are going to be there like forever nowadays.
I just need someone whom I can rant at, someone whom I can get some motivation from ):
Yah, yah.
From my earlier post, I sorta argued with Kor.
I'm trying to get him to get my point, not fighting back for himself or whatever so.
It's so irritating ! ):

My maths prelims on Monday and Tuesday !
Last week's tuition and today's tuition cancelled & this coming weekend, he won't be around !
HOW AM I GOING TO SURVIVE WITH THIS FREAKING MATHS PRELIMS ?!
WHAT THE HELL !
Someone who is a maths genius, please help me out ! T.T
Yeah, i know i suck in my studies, but doesn't mean that you have to neglect me and help with those smarter ones & hardworking ones ! ):
I NEED SOMEONE TO MOTIVATE ME !
Yeah, what's so great to be still your mei. Your mei sucks in everything ):
My health even sucks, sensitive stomach & can't take up too much stress.
OH GOD.

Please help me, God ! At least, be grateful for what God has given to me (:

Morning outcome: Didn't go school ):
What's the outcome later?
See tonight's update.

Tuition cancelled again tonight, don't tell me that ?! Like wtf ! - Sorry Kor if it really happens !

The moment I reached home, I went with a big sigh.
The day has finally ended for me, time to fight throughout the evening/night !
Work is there, waiting for my pen to touch them.
I'm going with another big sigh & thinking about what is going to happen tomorrow.

Will I collapse tomorrow?
Will I die tomorrow?
Will I fall sick tomorrow?
Will I just meet with an incident and just go Heaven on the spot?
God, help me !

But, I believe God is super great !
On wed, I finish early, 115pm ! ! ! The disappointing thing is that I've to go school as usual at 7am on Wed, instead of 830am ! ! !
Should I feel happy or annoyed ? LOL :D
Nevertheless, still appreciate what is given though ! (:

Give me some strength !

O levels Maths prelim next monday ! Wtf ?!
I'm not even prepared for it !
HELP ME ! ! !
I'm sucking in Maths ! D:

Anyone wanna be my studying buddy for this coming weekend? LOL.
Can be anyone who is super free & able to accompany me as well (:

Time schedule that I gonna have self-studying outside: (can't really confirm yet)
1. Friday early evening, all the way up to night
2. Saturday afternoon, all the way up to night
3. Sunday afternoon? (still unsure)

After a stressful week & a horrible weekend,

All these are just misunderstandings, after all.
Until then, this is really silly -_____________-
Yeah, yeah.

So much arguments I had.
Feeling so horrible since yesterday or friday night instead.
After all, there's a purpose to it.

I thank God for it !
And I still love everyone ! :D

My weekend is described as horrible.

Today, didn't go for church service (Forgive me, God !)
Went down for SF, but was late ):
Missed the worship songs but, came in time to watch Purpose Driven Life video.

Thank God for that !
After the video, did some discussion questions.
Came to sharing our fears in life..
For some reasons, I nearly burst into tears (Sorry, I won't tell you why if you ask me personally)

Went lunch with friends & went back to MHI for no reason.
Soon or later, went off.
Supposed to study, but slacked until late evening @ Orchard, then later back to Dhoby Ghaut.

Headed home & now, just had dinner with family(:

School's starting tomorrow !
HORRIBLE !
I'm ending school late, everyday except Friday ! D:

God, give me strength & bless all those whose O levels prelims're starting tomorrow !

Stressed mode.
Weekend is here, time for me to relieve.

But something affected me, so my weekend is stressed again D:
Well, I'm still busy with things.
Will update again (:

Ah, my blog is in the mess.
Update after 12am, here and there.
Gosh !

THURSDAY.

Super long day in school.
My lunch was not even one whole Quaver biscuit ! I ate at least 3/4 of it & had to rush back to class.
It's so horrible ! D:
Had to wait until i got home & waited until it was time for dinner.
Busy the whole night, doing piles of work !

FRIDAY.

Super short day in school,not really short.
Ended school earlier of all days lol.
Went home & ate my lunch (:

Went down to MHI as usual.
Dinner with friends (:
Slacked, slacked the whole evening @ MHI & didn't do work which is so irritating =x
Supper with Kor @ TPY.
Turned out that I was so affected by him -_- (I'm alright now anyway)

Argued with him so much online, the moment I got home & got online.
For 1 1/2 hour or more than that !
But, still..

THANK GOD.
We are still brother and sister :D
Both of us are different from others, just being sisters/brothers-in-Christ, because this already started before I start to know Christ.
See how wonderful my Kor is, brought me to church to know Christ. All thanks to him :D
Yet, we don't get to understand each other.
Misunderstandings are always there & pray that God'll be there for us to sort this kind of thing (:

THANK GOD, THANK GOD ! :D

Irritated the whole night, didn't do work ! Have to push everything to tomorrow & Sunday ! D:

TODAY.

Morning gonna be destroyed with last minute changes D:
Afternoon, gonna be out with my mum.
Night, too tired to do already D:

GOD, GIVE ME ALL YOUR STRENGTH TONIGHT TO DO ALL MY WORK ! (:

I'll update again tonight !
I'm rushing for time, going down to primary school to meet a very important person ! (which I rejected so many times, yet doesn't work =x)

I don't know what to describe today.
My night is all destroyed.
Maybe I'll update again later.

I'm just not in the right mood to blog yet (:

BTW.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO DARREN TONG :D
I know I'm late in wishing because 12am has passed =x

GOSH !1am soon !

I just finished at least most piles of work !
Left with 2 more, I gonna push these to tomorrow. I can't stand anymore ! =__=
I've been like a crazy woman, doing work since 7pm plus all the way until now.
It's like about 5 hours of madness !

Today school was super long.
Got home 1/2h before 6pm, so tired !
Just an hour before I started doing my crazy piles of work, I was having dinner during that hour.

TODAY IS SERIOUSLY CRAZY!
Tomorrow is another one !
ANOTHER SUPER LONG DAY IN SCHOOL !
God, please save me.

Gonna drop dead soon..

BUSY!
Update later..

YEAH.
Today was really funny :D

I finished 2.4km retake & ended up that my dad had to pick me up home halfway through recess.
Gastric pains came :(
BUT,
I finished my 2.4km retake, which was so damn great ! :D

ALL THANKS PEOPLE,
who kept on cheering me & running with me !
THANKS MANSURA,
for accompanying me !
THANKS THIVYA AND JOY,
for bringing my bag down, especially Joy who had to go up and down twice !

Sorry Kor that I had to cancel evening tuition with you ! ):

THANKS ALL,
for your concern :D
Yeah, I'm alright now, but just some uncomfortness.

Will be back tomorrow, staying alive :D

Just my luck.

Tired mode.
Busy mode.
School's killing me everywhere this week ! :D

Panda eyes today !
Sorry, i looked ugly today. Ha!
I slept very super late :D

Thank God that I managaed to catch the sermon in 930am service today !
It was done by Youth Ministry !
The sermon by the chairperson of YM is wonderful !
Connect with God :D

Bible giants by Patrick in MHI.
Also another wonderful one ! :D
Lord's prayer.
Ask. Change. Guide.
Meaning: Ask God for forgiveness & Change our self & Ask God for some guidance in your walk with Him(:

Another puzzling issue in my head.
Now is more focus on studies, prelims're coming very soon ! :D
Today is a just wonderful Sunday to me(:

Glad that Jaslyn came church service & fellowship today !
People, come on & encourage her to attend more ! :D

Okay, i have to settle work and prepare for school.
GOODNIGHT, ALL.
A busy week for this coming week !

Yeah, super late right now.
I can't sleep & I've to attend early morning church service later !
Rah, rah ! :D

Eh, I just chatted with a friend & whatever lah.
The feeling that I had recently came back again & I don't know whether I should stop again.
Oh gosh !
God, help me ! :D

Oh yeah.
What happened to life everywhere?
On my way home just now, I saw 2 crazy old women, that freaked me out !
One was banging door at bus interchange, talking to herself or someone in air & another one was sorta scolding few boys, on their bikes.
So ridiculous ! LOL.

Damn, should collect my physics textbook later !
It's so troublesome lah !
Wish that someone could help me instead =x

Feeling gulity at the same time.
I shall book my next weekend for my family, rah :D
Don't ask me out, please(:

OKAY, GOOD NIGHT !
I gonna sleep soon or later or whenever.
I'm doing some crazy Biology work (:

YO, PEOPLE ! (:

No more bitchy lol =x?
Hanged out with friends for a meal in the evening (:
Heard some youths're coming tomorrow fellowship, hope so ! :D

Yeah, I should go for service tomorrow morning.
GOD IS GREAT ! Agree, people? :D
Okay, gotta to go.

I think i've another 2 or 1 more task(s) to finish up before having a peaceful sleep tonight (:
GOOD NIGHT, ALL ! :D

SO FREAKING BITCHY !

Things are going wrong.
-__________-
Asking this & forgetting about it after few seconds, so idiotic !
Whatever rubbish.

Trying to finish up my work.
YEAH.
Maths suck now !
Stacks of maths papers & I can't finish in a week with freaking difficult questions everyday ! !
I NEED TO STUDY MORE !
And study smart ! :D

Okay gotta to go !
Have a blessed day (:

ALL WRONG, ALL WRONG ! ! !
Yeah, it was last minute decision that i didn't turn up for today's talk.
Sorry, people.

Why i kept on receiving calls and smses whether i'm going?
I made myself very clear, by smsing Yanyu and Dr Victor that I'm NOT going.
Like what the ..

Went down to MHI instead.
Yeah, I should not have ..

Oh whatever, I should have cancel everything today & stay at home today !
Like what the ..
Don't worry people.

Tomorrow, I'll be alright.
Just having mixed feelings. Okay, will update again(:

School was horrible, long day indeed !
Workload is increasing ! My strength is decreasing !
LOL ? :D

Still, went down for a talk at St. Andrew Cathedral by this lady named Prof. Alice.
Although the talk was super long, it still encourages people in God's word (:
Do join us tomorrow night, another talk from her again.
7 to 10pm at St. Andrew Cathedral ( Reserving seats're not allowed so, come early ! )

Tomorrow rocks !
A short day in school, but going out again, as usual :D

Pray for my mum to recover from her cough ! (:

Stomach uncomfortness, go away !
Muscles aches, go away !
Headache, go away !
EVERYTHING, GO AWAY PLEASE ! :D
I want to continue mugging for upcoming craze prelims and exams !

Tired, a shorter day though.
Many things came across my mind.
Realised many thing along the way :D

A long day tomorrow, indeed !

Had a great evening, long day though.

Many thankgivings to Him for this wonderful person I've in my life !
Never fail me, although I get annoyed with this person at times, for particular small things(:
Still, grateful that this person never take things that aren't supposed to be told, as if being very straight forward,to heart ! :D
And this person is..
..
..
..
my Kor ! (:

Anyway, tomorrow is just a short day perhaps.
Update again, gotta to sleep soon =)

Finally i'm done !
I feel it's really alot since I get all my focus on work ! (:

I'm really super busy, man !
So much work to clear, and finally I did until this late hour ! =_=
Gosh !

Yeah, yeah.
I pray that tomorrow'll be a good one with planned schedule, a long day though.
Thank God that all my work are done ! (:

May He gives us strength

Everything is moving so slow today.

Still, have few more assigned tasks to complete.
FIGHTING ! ! !

Just drank Starbucks drink that my brother bought & a Vitagen drink.
Gosh ! !
Am i going to get stomachache tonight? LOL ! =x

Deleted previous post - too bad if you didn't see(:

Idiotic night, yesterday.
Why must I have to say this kind of thing to someone whom I trust very much? - Thank God that this person don't remember anything(:

Wonderful morning, today.
I slept the whole morning & feel so slacky right now.
Need to finish up the other 1/4 of work by tonight, give me some inspirations to do work faster, lol =x

Yeah, reflecting for the past week - I feel so damn that I did many things that were not worthy):
Well, time for me to buck up, now onwards(:

Thank God for these!
Tuesday blues tomorrow(:

My day was ups and downs today.

Glad that I managed to finish most of my works and able to understand 730pm service today !
Thank God for that ! ! !

On studying mode.

Weekend is here ! ! ! !
Realised that Accounts isn't that bad :D

No more slacking off, real studying all the way up till October, but sadly that I've to study on my birthday !

On recovering mode & busy mode (:
AND,
Finally tomorrow is last day of the week ! ! !

Gave my blog a refreshing look with some changes.

Btw,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PATRICK ONG ! (:

The previous post is just so freaking long !
Oh well,

Deleted my posts, because of a reason.
My words aren't just that good to make everyone feel the right way, not being in wrong way.
Getting the wrong impression of my life (:

TODAY,
Second day of school to me.

Horrible.
Frustrated and annoyed again.
I managed to get some time to cool down and talk to my dad,
although was frustrated in the first place.
PHEW !
Lessons were extremely tiring, please.
4 subjects at one go, today!

Yeah, yesterday had PE & it was more horrible.
Had to play 'don't know what' game under the freaking horrible sun !
I nearly died, especially when my gastric pains are still happening, on and off =x
Enough of this, already.

Just tahan for few more weeks, before timetable stop for N levels & then it'll be holidays soon (:

I deleted the previous posts.
I'm going to re-type everything for the past few days again.

CAMP,
I will just put my testimony about the camp here, instead of talking about these 3 days of camp.

I learnt alot from this camp, during Spiritual Gifts, BGR and Faith sharings !
You know ah,
The Bukit Timah Park, amazing race,
One of the stations was at the peak, and my group was walking until we saw a shortcut.
I didn't want to take the shortcut because,
on seeing the shortcut, it is quite tiring to climb up and up and up without stopping !
In the end,
I took it with my group.
I'm encouraged by Joeeng's words "Don't give up!" & Clement & Stephanie were behind me, in case ..
I managed to reach the peak, together with my group !
And,
I learnt alot from the sharing of BGR by Patrick and also, now I'm in my puberty stage.
I also learnt from the sharing of Faith by Andrew, because some people may know that I always want to give up on some things.
This encouraged me not to give up & put more faith in God.
In the first place, truthfully I didn't have much faith in God.
I just want to pray for more focus in God ! (:
That's all.

MONDAY,
First day of school,

I didn't turn up, was on MC due to my gastric pains.
Was wondering how things in school are like, because timetable is messed up and there're many new faces in my class, meaning new teachers !
Took ample rest at home,
No reason, I was being so frustrated & annoyed !
Could not vent my frustrations out & went to sleep without packing things for next day school.

TUESDAY,
Second day of school, but first day to me.

Got shocked, because school has turned to be like a hospital when I firstly entered the gate in the morning.
Teachers were wearing masks and asking students tons of questions.

There was this teacher asking me whether I came to school the day before.
When I was saying 'Nope' & her eyes went wide open, looking at me.
Imagine how scary it was ! -________________-

I told her it was because of gastric pains & was on MC,
but my mind was thinking that ' don't try to make it as like I've H1N1 huh ?! '
She only got what I said after few times of repeating.
I guess that she was in a shocked state, in the first place >.<

Yeah, many new teachers.
Never expect my co-form teacher to be the teacher whom taught me before when I were in sec 1.
She was just a trainee & was on training when I were in sec 1,
Right now,
She is a qualified teacher & back in my school to teach.
I NEVER EXPECT HER TO REMEMBER ME,
WHEN I FOUND HER SO SUPER FAMILIAR !
Even, she mentioned to the whole class that she taught me before & I was like so 'paiseh' please, lol ?

Anyway, lessons were alright.
But, one funny thing is that I didn't bring any paper to school, just the file with the old timetable & few papers from last term =x
Not even foolscap paper, either !
Things were screwed up & I got frustrated again at night >.<
Thanks to Kor, that I felt much better after hours, which was already in the middle of night =x
Zzz.

See the next post of today's updates (: