Tdy sorta messy.
But everything was alright, i guess so?
Okay i won't update much.
Tmr badminton @ early evening.
Hope i can play.
My body and legs are still aching, can't even walk properly lol.
Pray hard everything'll be okay tmr =)..
Glad that things are better now.
Glad that everyone is all good again ! Back to happy and cheerful peopleeeee !
Tomorrow..oops i already said. BADMINTON -_______-ll Blur me, lol..
Will end my post with a prayer.

Dear Father in Heaven,

I pray for encouragement and wisdom in whatever i need to do and also commit in Him.
Pray for YK to be more positive and encouraged.
Pray for XH to focus in things she needs to do.
Pray for Ant to continue whatever he is doing and commit to Him. - He had done a great job ! =)
Pray for Elaine for strength and wisdom in whatever she is doing.
Pray for my dear jiejie Yan for encouragement to know You more. =)
Pray for everyone for a blessed weekend coming up ! =)
In Jesus's name.

Amen.

Thanks Caroline and Ant for these advices/encouragements/things etc. Truly grateful for that.
I'm feeling better now.
Just give me time please. Thanks, my mentors !
Oops, Ant - my dear Kor ! =)
Caroline - my dear friend + tutor ! =)
Thanks my dear friend as well.
Continue in whatever you're doing. I'm okay with these, just give me time.
Sometimes i'm being very blur. Forgive me for that =)

Gtg ! See you all !

Updated @ 10pm !

Anyway ignore the previous post.
I'm sorta alright now.
Not so irritated already.
Okay gotta to do my things.
See you all !

Sorry i thought i should delete the previous post.
It's way too mean !
Whatever its.
I'm still in bad mood, but feeling abit better. Damn !
Oh my, i'm aching everywhere.
Hope i can play badminton tmr :X.
What the ....
You.
You.
You.
You sucks.
I want a life please.
Yeah, so concerned until i'm going mad already. Oops don't think you're the one when you read this.
I gotta run soon !
Meeting accts teacher tdy for just an arrangement for 1st lesson, i guess?!
Why can't simply call her and arrange the 1st lesson?!
So freaking stupid.
And i don't live so near.
Imagine SENGKANG to BEDOK ! Rofl.
Somemore, wearing uniform just go all the way to school.

Can i have a break?
My plan today is planning a schedule to start studying but firstly i woke up just now, a SMS to go school NOW.
Wth.
Fineeeeeeee.. I gotta run now !
See you all !


updated @ 10am !

Jogged @ ECP with Ant, YK and XH in late morning 'cos we all were late -.-.
A nice jog, but tiring lol.
I could jog 1.2km, but thanks to Ant. I managed to jog 1.5km or more today.
Jogged until my legs wanted to break already.
Lunch @ Subway.
First time. Food there, not bad. Reccomended to you people if you go ECP.
Went Heeren(Orchard) after that.
XH left @ ECP with her parents. Aloy, the pest joined us.
Went to see the artworks or whatever its, done by HI people.
Niceee work ! =)
Slacked around, before we went dinner.
Food sucks :X.
Headed home after that.
That was my day. Simple & that lol.
damn you.
what is it that you want ? wth, wth, wth. i wanna kill yo u -.-


Updated @ 10pm !

JOGGING TOMORROW !
WHEE ~
Jiayou, jiayou ! Hope i've the energy tomorrow.
I'll be out the whole day tmr.
See you all !
Before i go off, i'll just say a prayer.


Dear Father in Heaven,

I pray for good weather for tomorrow morning.
I pray that YK's flu will go away and she will be better by tomorrow morning.
Pray that we all can wake up in time XD..
Also, a good day tomorrow ! Peace ! =)
Lastly, pray for Caroline for her safety as she make her way back to sg tonight !
In Jesus's name.

Amen !

Updated @ 940pm !

Didn't see the principal today. Don't ask me anything about it.
Nothing to say about it -________-
I will just say: ''wasted trip to school''..


Updated @ 1240pm !

O.o didn't update yesterday.
Hmm?
Was at home the whole day yesterday until late evening.
Last minute decision.
Went to meet YK, XH and Ant @ CityHall MRT.
YK and I were late lol. - Sorry Ant & XH ! =)
Went to Peninsula Plaza to check the prices of tees for D-Gen band.
But we ended up confirming it, ordered already O.o
The funny part is we didn't bring $$ lol !
Ant paid $10, I paid $10. Deposit is $20 !! HAHAHA :D
Hmm, after that.
XH went hm. YK, Ant & me went arcade, wheeeee !
We played one time only, ba. =)
Headed hm.

PS. I went to try to go TPY and went home from there. Hmm, seems the same if i go DG and take train home lol :X..

Later, gonna meet the principal ! Gosh, i'm not ready -_________- Well, wish me luck. Gonna get ready soon and off i go to school :X.. See you all !


Updated @ 815am !

Happy Deepavali !

Today, my day was spent with family and now, alone @ home.
I was woken up by my mum =.=
I wanna to sleep more ! No choice, she chased me out of bed to go breakfast with her n my dad.
Ate @ TPY with parents.

I'm really sick of TPY :X
Thurs - TPY
Sat - TPY again
Tdy - TPY again, again
This coming Thurs - TPY again, again, again
Lol !

Went maternal grandparents' place, after that ! Has been months that i went there again, wheee !
I felt that i've grown tall.
I'm almost same height as my grandpa :X
Nice to see my grandparents again !! Long time didn't see/talk to them.. They are more close to me than my dad's side. Because they watched me grow since young, until when i was P5..the time i moved to SK

Home, after that.
Facing the PC and doing stuffs until now.
I'm super hungry !!
Hav to wait for my parents, since i didn't want to go my paternal grandparents' place.
Now i'm avoiding myself from going there so much.
I don't want get reminded of my late grandpa too much.
I want to carry on with my life =)

Finally i'm not going out tmr.
Wed - school to see principal =.=
Thurs - exercising time !
Fri - i think probably evening, going out. At least i can rest in morning, afternoon.
Sat - Badminton !
Sun - usual stuffs.

Okay see you all ! I'm starving :X..


Updated @ 745pm !

I'm back again !
Okay, i'm going to update a proper one about today !
I know my posts are kinda confused =X

Hmm today.
Nono, last night. I didn't sleep until 5am, but woke up ard 7am.
Had breakfast then service @ Wesley.
Worship songs and songs done by different ministries were very awesome ! I love them !
Sunday fellowship after service.
I was only the youth. Yanyu came late =.=..

Lunch tog with others.
Aloy, Yanyu and me went airport, met Joey and YK there.
We did our stuffs until evening.
We welcomed the penang trippers back !! Guess they were surprised again ?! =)
Went dinner @ Yishun before heading home, but didn't eat much.
Food not nice !! =.=
Now waiting for supper lol :X..
Okay.
Will update again.
See you all ! Tmr public holiday ! Whee !! :D


Updated @ 1130pm !

Hello !

Me @ airport right now, with friends.
Gonna surprise the Penang trippers later ! =)
This morning, service @ Wesley was awesome !!
Songs were great !! <3
Hahaha.
And, i was the only one there, among 5 of us who go to church lol.
Went sunday fellowship @ MHI.
Again the only youth there, had to join the adults. =.=
Lol !
Okay gtg.
This naughty jiejie yanyu, looking what i'm blogging. HAHA :D


Updated @ 645pm !

Awake @ this crazy hour !

Hmm, went out for badminton. Had a good workout, but now legs in pain.
Have been going out too much, walked here and there :X
I need to cut down !! =X.. Otherwise, i'll get MORE nagging ba.
Had dinner with my dear 2 girls and a lovely couple lol.
It had been some time that we could eat tog again =)

Okay, i shall stop here.
Gonna off comp and rest awhileee.
See you all !


Updated @ 4am !
PS. I wasn't sleeping all the while :X.. I'm mad hor?.. Okay nights all !

Here to update !
Later, i'll be outside.

2pm - 530pm - tuition @ Caroline's place
6pm - dinner with friends @ Tanjong Pagar

Then..
I'll be home !

Sunday:

930am - 11am - SCV @ Wesley
1130 - 1pm - SF @ MHI
1pm to 3pm - Lunch with people*
3pm - 7pm - Will be @ somewhere with friends*
8pm - SURPRISE !

*subjects can be changed

So, i won't be updating tonight. Maybe tmr night instead =)..
See you all !

PS. SMS me if you're looking for me ! =)


Updated @ 9.10am !

Tuition today cancelled !
Badminton - 1pm - 3pm
Will be @ somewhere after that, before dinner i guess?
Pray for Caroline for fast recovery !! - She is sick =(..


Edited @ 11am !

The verdict is out !

I'm promoted to sec 4NA ! But, but, but..will have a hard life next year, or maybe right now :X..
I'm asked to work hardER.
I'm asked whether i want extra lessons during holidays, i think so?
I'm asked to see the principal on wednesday.
Sigh.

N levels !! =.=.. Time to work extremely hard ! I want to exercise, by playing badminton regularly too !!
Anyway...erm shld not say anything more about this alr.

I had a nice time tdy, although i wasn't thinking right O.o.. !
Hmm hopefully another nice day tmr ? Eh, don't think so..not sure :X
Okay, good night all !


Updated @ 1140pm !

Today is the day !

Verdict of my outcome for next year gonna be out ! :X
Anyway, hope everything is smoothly well.
Well..
If i promote, then good !
If i retain, then let it be. I can't do anything :X..
Wait for my update tonight i guess?

See you all !

Speechless.
Didn't go school today - pon-ing !
Tmr is the doomsday ! :X
Hope everything goes well tomorrow, pleasee.

hello ! tired tired !
hmm, today was alright.
very tired.
good night all !

Oh yes !
I wanted to update about yesterday, the happy things..not the bad things =)..

Hmm, overslept this morning - (slept very late on Sat night ! Thanks to Ant lol. Kidding, it's me =X)
Was not in the good mood, but still went out =(..
Was supposed to meet Ant at PP for breakfast. But not enough time, so we just met at PP to go church tog.
On way, we decided to meet XH, YK and JE as well, at DG station.
We all went church tog.
My apologies to XH that my blog caused a mess which made you upset.
Hmm, sat tog at church. Sermon was probably suitable to parents and kids O.o
To me, my parents aren't Christians, what's the point of knowing this O.o? But it can help me in future with my children, it'll be YEARS later lol.

After service, went to HANS to buy our breakfast. Cannot tahan already.
Had fellowship @ MHI.
Jesus's ressurrection(not sure of spelling).
After that, Clement was preaching that he gonna preach in Penang mission trip which is this coming friday to sunday. Wish i can follow them, but next time ba. =)
Went to HANS again for lunch with about 20 people, if i'm not wrong?..
Ant left after eating his lunch, for his soccer. - Was cancelled in the end -____- lol.
I was suspecting something, later on when people started talking to me, i forgot about it lol.

Hmm, Cherie came talking to me. Then suddenly everyone started singing the b'day song and Caroline, carrying the cake. I got a shock. Later Erni also got a shock. She didn't know that it was for her as well. Heh !
Cut the cake, took photos.
Thanks WTJ for cutting the cake into pieces !
Hmm, took photos with people and ate my cake - was the last person to finish lol.
Went back to MHI as Nette left my bday present there. - shared with WTJ, i guess so?
Heard that there was another bday card from them, but they forgot to bring lol?..
Tdy, i received presents from YK, JE, Jaslyn, Nette, WTJ and a card from some people.

Thanks everyone !!
After that, I went with Aloy, YK and XH.
We wanted to go Bowling at Marina Sq, but we ended up playing pool with Aloy's help of his IC and also arcade beside the place where people played pool O.o..
XH left before we started to play pool, had to go home.
XH, perhaps this coming sunday..join us again? =)
We played until ard 6pm plus. Decided to head home.
On way to MRT station, we got attracted by sunglasses. YK and I tried few of them. Some nice, some not nice. And it is very very expensive !! Lol?
Finally we headed home.

That was my day yesterday !! =).. My mood became better. But I still feel not right -_____________-..
Anyway, i'll be busy this week with meetings !! 3 meetings !! -_-..
I shall end my post with a prayer..

Dear Father in Heaven,

I pray for Elaine for speedy recovery as i heard from Ant yesterday that she is sick !!
Pray for Caroline for safety and guidance as she go Thailand for work, also safety when she comes back to SG on wed night !!
Pray for YK and XH for positive thoughts and to ease their mind slowly.
Pray for Ant to have a peaceful mind and carry on whatever he needs to do.
Myself, to be positive as well. Not mourning over my BAD results. Also, ease my mind, heart and soul as i carry on with my life. Bless me, while i bear my mum's anger, unhappiness, screaming at me for this moment of time.
Pray for JE and sec 4E friends for their O levels, guidance and wisdom !!
Hmm, who else? My dear jiejie Yan - strength and wisdom as she go work everyday.
Lastly, my dear friends who don't want to be named here : Pray that they'll be healthy ! Wisdom, strength and guidance from Him in whatever they do or wherever they go, especially when they're going for mission trip on Friday !!
In Jesus's name !

Amen.

PEOPLE OUT THERE..WHO TAGGED MY BLOG:

Please kindly leave whatever i post and whatever my friends say to me alonee.
I don't want things to get worse.
Saying to me, means it's me. I will settle it.

YES i know you all care about me. But all cares for each other in DIFFERENT ways so, we all may misunderstand each other. Get it?
Erm i'm not being rude.
You all know that i'm stressed and upset, right ?! Then, you all should know what to stop and what to say,right ?

So, please stop it and leave things to be. I'll get them settled when needed.
Please please leave it, okay?
Or else, i'll die of this ! -_______________- okay thanks all !
Hmm, i think i'm gonna get away from blogging for this few days.
I need some time to sort out my thinkings.
I know i have been posting too much negatives heree, erm may not be good for me and also others.
So, yep.
SMS or MSN or email me if anything. Also, can tag my tagboard but NOT spamming please.
Thanks everyone ! See you all, have a blessed week =)..

sigh..
I WANT TO AVOID EVERYTHING NOW ! I'M SO STRESSED !
WHAT CAN I DO?
sigh..

Very super sad ='(..
My results released today, they suck.
I
FAILED
EVERYTHING.
why ? why ?
i think i can study. i think i'm stupid fool.

everyone said that i studied like mad before exams, but i got these kind of results in the end.
so disappointed.
i even may retain in sec 3 next year =(..
why life is soo unfair to me ?
or i shouldn't say this way, eh.. why why ? =(

i wanna escape from tmr and sunday.. i don't have the mood to go out..
well, tmr i may go to the outing and dinner?.. sunday, maybe i going out late or going for svc then home or even not going.. =(
just very upset, want to cry already.. ='(

WHY WHY ? AM I A STUPID FOOL ? sigh..
i really let everyone, every single person i know down.. i'm very sorry ! i'm really upset ! =(.. sob sob !

SOB SOB ='(

sorting out my things..
thanks to friends out there, cheering me up ! i'm alright =)..
especially thanks to my dear Kor Ant and jiejie-in-law-to-be Elaine, not forgetting my dear lovely jiejie Yanyu !
my jiejie yan ! never make me angry before O.o.. lol ?

well, don't get jealous ! i love everyone !
okay, gtg !
see you all ! =)..
tmr, will be FINALLY going to school O.o..

ONE
BY
ONE
HURTING
ME


WHAT
IS
THIS?

AM
I
A
STUPID
SILLY
FOOL
TO
BE
SOOO
NICE
TO
EVERYONE ?

zzzzz..
i'm very frustrated over this and that !
not just one thing, it's many many things !
just now, nearly fought with my mum because we BOTH are very frustrated and tired.
sigh !

CAN I HAVE SOME PEACE ? CAN MY MUM HAVE SOME PEACE ? PLEASE !

i feel wanting to avoid everyone except some certain people .. sigh !
i don't wish to do these !
but i may not go out much.. i don't have much clothes to wear..

NOT allowed to wear: red, yellow, orange, pink clothes..bright colours..shorts, shirts, bags !!
sigh ! can't wear since my grandpa just recently passed away..
that's the custom, my parents said ?
actually most of my clothes are all these colours.. have black, white, grey and dull colours.. a number of them only.. those bright colours one, i've moreee !

i always wish that i'm born from Christian family instead !
sigh !
can't do anything.. have to follow..
FOR 100 DAYS ! CNY, also cannot.. Christmas, also cannot.. =(
how miserable is that ?!
just for the sake of my dear beloved grandpa.. obey heaven, obey him..

can't enjoy much until next year after N levels, maybe a short while..then have to wait until after O levels !!
i wanna enjoy during these holidays, i think probably cannot =(..

maybe i'm NOT going out during this coming weekends ! maybe i am going as usual ! maybe i go out to be alone ! i don't know what i exactly want !
i feel so stressed, tired, frustrated and upset !!
sounds like i'm a fool !!
why why why ?
i've suffered so much during my 15 years of my lifeee !! i still have many years to go on !!
will i be able to survive further more :X ??
ALMIGHTY FATHER ! PLEASE BLESS ME AND EVERYONE !
i feeel sooo arghh.. =(

results are releasing soon on friday.. not going sch tmr.. will be going back on friday for the sake of the exam papers !! hope i will pass..but not getting in top 20 pleasee !

PS. sorry that i updated 3 times today !!
i feel so arghhh..need to update, make me feel better..

ok good night all ! have a good rest !

sigh! i got hurt again..
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why? why?..
anyway, forget it..

hmm ! didn't make IC today..will be tomorrow
staying at home all day along..
sorting out things
it's just sooo much to think about and do them

i think it's the time i shall keep quiet.. -_____-
okay i won't say anything further moreee..
see you all !
tomorrow may be not going school again..
will update again, byee !

didn't go school today.
didn't expect my mum to take it seriously about what i told her last night..
i told my mum that i don't want go school and wanna sleep more and do my IC in afternoon, and she did it !!
OMG ?!
i got a shock, when i woke up in morning ard 9am plus, finding no one at home !!!
Lol..so sweet of my mum ! =)

yeah, will be doing my IC at ICA later.. -______- hope the photo don't look ugly, hahah ! :X
hmm?
now many things to settle..hopefully i can settle everything before holidays officially start.
my holidays is cut down by a week, have to go back to school for a week for lessons T.T..
well, next year N levels !! super fast.. T.T

time pass very fast !!
since my grandpa's death, the wake, the funeral, i stopped everything that suppose to be moving in my life.
now rushing for time O.o..
i miss everyone !! gonna be 2 weeks already when weekends arrive..
perhaps not going sch again on thurs..
i only bother to go school when checking exam scripts..if not, i will want to skip and sleep in.. lol?
people'll think i'm mad :X
because most will not want to see their exam papers..haha ! right, people ?
BUT !
i want to see the exam papers !! lol, i must be insane.. okay, enough lah =)

BTW !!
Thanks to Caroline, Patrick, Yewkim, Vanessa June, Pauline, WanQi, WanZheng, ChongDing, Shifeng, Jasmine, Jiejie Yanyu, Kor Anthony, (Jiejie-in-law-to-be..XD) Elaine, Lynette, Wei Tjin, Joe Eng, Xuehui, Aloysius..
for coming to the wake and paying respects to my late grandpa !!
A BIG THANKS FOR THAT !! MUCH APPRECIATED !!
And also, the rest..their concern for me and my family ! Thank you ! I'm alright now, just mentally tired !! =)

gtg ! maybe update again tonight or tmr ! see you all ! =)
BTW, if i forget to make appt...Xuehui and Yewkim, i'm looking for you 2 !

for the past few days, my focus was all on this !
i forget about school, the usual life i usually haveee.
the busy busy usual life i havee..

now i need to get my focus back to my usual life.
i have many things to proceed.
FOCUS !

Dear Father in Heaven,

Please bless my grandpa as he goes to another world..
Also, bless my family with calm mind and soul..although all of them aren't Christians.

Bless me with focus on getting back to my usual busy life!
Thank you, Father in heaven !

Bless these people:
- Caroline as she is in Thailand, working.
- Patrick as he is in China, working.
- my dear friend with a peace mind and soul while handling many things at a time.
- Kor for peace in himself..i won't say why =)
- ALL OF MY FRIENDSSSSS: have a blessed week !

In Jesus's name..
Amen !

okay..gtg ! see you all soon ! =)

i'm back !
the funeral is finally over !

stayed there for 2 nights, so tired.
slept few hours for the past few days.
he is buried at CCK cemetery.. sooooo many tombs theree, first time seeing :X

Dear Grandpa,

May you rest in peace ! Go heaven smoothly !
May you have no suffering further more in another world !
Enjoy in a better life !
Rest in peace, ah gong !

oh gosh, i know it's late !
well, didn't update already becauseeee .....
MY GRANDPA JUST PASSED AWAY ! SOB !

hmm, he died last night..hmm i still regarded today as friday night..
well, he passed away last night (thursday night).
it was a VERY SCARY experience i had.

what happened on that night:
i was at my grandparents' place, visiting my grandpa as i won't be free over the weekends to come over.
at night, quite lateeee..i think after 11pm, grandpa's breathing was unusual and hands turning black..called my aunt who is sleeping downstairs and my grandma to see him at his bed.
it was late, i had to go home since next day, i've exams.
my dad wanted to send me homeee, when he just drove out of the carpark slot there, received a call.
and I THOUGHT THAT MY GRANDPA WANTED TO SEE MY DAD...but
it was: MY GRANDPA DIED ! ='(
everyone was crying, crying, crying..and i felt so speechless and stressed.

all thanks to my uncle, willing to send me homeee.
headed home and couldn't sleep for a hour !
had 3h of sleep.

had 2 last exam papers today.
they were fine, but i couldn't concentrate much. but still, i did my very best for them !
had a short celebration with sac girls at bugis before i left for the wake.
i was only back home a while ago, before i bathed.

SO SUPER TIRED !
i'm really grateful to everyone who want to come and pay respects to my grandpa !
and i apologise for the sms confusion.
too many people to sms and i got confused who did i tell and who didnt i tell.
sorry guys and gals ! =(

anyway, do sms me if anything.
i think i won't update until tuesday or wednesday something like that.
okay, see you all !

PS. i wonder how the meeting went just now, 8pm meeting ?
i wonder how everyone is ?
i miss everyone ! i miss the usual time i usually am in MHI !
sigh ! hope to see you all soon !
nights, everyone !

back home, back home !
so super tired.
not feeling well.
giddy, blur vision just now at my grandparents' place and i nearly can't balance myself.
but forced to control it, luckily no one noticed.
people think i'm tired instead :X..
throat dry too, uncomfortableee..need to drink lots of water !
sigh.
what's happening to me?
maybe i too stressed with exams and things in my head..now my head hurts =(
tmr i've tuition.
hope i can survive until next week.
i gonna be busy too,after friday O.o..
okay gtg.
need to clear my stuffs and use comp awhile before i go zzzzzzz.
also, need to straighten out my thoughts.
headache of theseeeee..

REMEMBER: OUT, OUT OF MY LIFE ! :X
okay enough enough.
i don't want worry my dear friends alreadyyyyy..
see you all ! nights !

morning !
just woke up..8h of sleep ! hooray :D

will not update much now..
probably tonight =)
see you all !

i'm back again..
just came back from my grandparents' place.
hmm?
tmr - will be out from early afternoon until evening

my table's sooooo super messy with booksssss !
i gonna get them clear before friday, when mansura'll come my house O.o?
if not, forget it lol..
weekends, i'll be busy...outside, having fun XD

i'm truly sorry to my dear jiejie and friendssss !
i'm really mad/disappointed with these people !
okay, no more venting out my anger or scoldings for today.
enough !

okay, i shall stop here.
gonna study physics and find something to do.
maybe study accts as well ?
nights ! see you all :D

accounts paper 2 !
not so bad, not so good..

went out with the girls and back home now.
was talking about life of being hearing impaired.

life is up and downs.
sometimes we feel insulted.
we feel we wanna go die.
we feel stressed.
we feel sad, hurt.
regretted this and that.

what is this?!
BUT,
still..we hearing impaired people are always happy together as a group =)

i still wanna vent my anger hereeeee..let me vent for a few things then i will end the post with some nice words :X.. thank you!

YOU, YOU.
READING MY BLOG HUH?
BETTER THINK PROPERLY, BEFORE YOU SAY THINGS ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE.

SOMETIMES I FEEL SO INSULTED, ALL HEARING PEOPLE LOOK DOWN ON US.
DON'T GIVE US RESPECT, AS WE ARE DOGS NOT HUMAN EH.

SOMETIMES I FEEL SO HURT AND SAD, ALTHOUGH I DON'T CRY OUT.
MY HEART IS BLEEDING.
I'M SERIOUS.
I DON'T USUALLY SAY OUT, BUT I HAVE TO BLOG THIS TO LET YOU PEOPLE KNOW.
AND AND MY LIFE IS NOT IN THE MESS.
I FEEL IN THIS WAY BECAUSE OF YOU PEOPLEEEEEEEEEE.

FEEL STRESSED BECAUSE:
- FACE PROBLEMS IN SCHOOL
- STRESS OVER WORK
- FACE PARENTS AT HOME
- THEN THEN ! I HAVE TO FACE YOU PEOPLEEEEE WHEN I GO OUT, MIXING WITH FRIENDSSSSSSS.

IT'S LIKE EVERYWHERE IN MY LIFEEEE..
EVERYWHERE I GO, EVERYTIME I SEE YOU PEOPLE.
NEVER STOP.
THAT'S WHY I SAID IF YOU ARE NOT INTERESTED IN BEING JUST A FRIEND TO ME, GET OUT OF MY LIFEEEE ! OUT, OUT MEANS OUT !!
haizzz..i feel like so hurt, disappointed by you people. ok, enough enough..

tmr & thurs - no school, yay !
but will be outside, studyinggggggg like mad for the last 2 papers !!
okay gtg..
btw, thanks my dear friend for easing my heart & mind last night and i'm alright today..
just venting my anger..
gonna bathe and do stuffs, update again maybe tonight =)..

sigh..i apologised for the meaniee previous post, i'm really mad !
I JUST WANT MY FREEDOM AFTER EXAMS =(
and yet, i've to solve these problems.

why, why?
i wanna to be aloneeeeee please !
sigh =(

my efforts gonna be wasted ?
me being silly ?
me being stupid ?
doing for no reason ?

WHY, WHY ?
i've enough stress.. *crys*.. i wanna cry for the whole night, but i don't have the courage to do so.. =(

GET OUT OF MY LIFE PLEASE.
LEAVE ME ALONE PLEASE.
OUT, OUT PLEASE.
I'M STRESSED ENOUGH.
HAPPY NOW? SO, GET OUT !

you don't want care abt me? - Go ahead.
you don't want to be my friend ? - Go ahead.
don't act like you care so much for me.. - I'm not fooled by this.
you don't appreciate me? - Go ahead.

GET OUT !
OUT, OUT MEANS OUT !
please get this right.

i don't expect you people to be my best friends or whatever sworn sisters.
don't anyhow tell people that i expect things from you people.
YOU ALL EXPECT TOO MUCH FROM ME INSTEAD.

i'm changing for the better, i know i'm mean. i'm fierce. i've bad attitude when i'm angry/moody.
BUT PEOPLE HAVE FEELINGS.
i'm NOT lucky.
i'm facing other problems besides you people.

YOU KNOW THAT MY GRANDPA IS DYING NOW?!
GONNA DIE SOON.
GONNA TO BE IN HEAVEN SOON.

AND MY EXAMS ARE ENDING SOON.
I HAVE TO GO BACK TO CCA.
FACE THE BLACK-FACE INSTRUCTOR AND PEOPLE WHO LOOK DOWN ON ME,WHICH IS THE WHOLE BAND !

I WANT MANY MANY THINGS, BUT I DON'T GET THEM AFTER YEARS.
I DON'T ASK FURTHER MORE.
SOME OF THINGS YOU PEOPLE MAY HAVE.

I FACE MANY BAD EXPERIENCES WITH OTHER FRIENDS LIKE SAC GIRLS.
I FOUGHT WITH THEM IN SEC ONE.
FOUGHT AGAIN IN SEC TWO.
A BIG GROUP OF GIRLS VS ME, ONE PERSON !

AND I HAVE TO FACE YOU PEOPLE.
SHOW ME ATTITUDE WHEN UNHAPPY.
IF I'M YOUR FRIEND, YOU CAN SHARE PROBLEMS WITH ME. IF NOT, JUST TELL ME THAT YOU ARE NOT IN RIGHT MOOD THEN I WON'T DISTURB YOU.

JEALOUS OF WHO I MIX WITH?
YOU HAVE TO BE FAIR WITH OTHERS.

COMPLAIN TO THIS AND THAT PERSON.
SMSING ME ALL THOSE NASTY SMS.
WHAT'S THIS ?

TRYING TO AFFECT ME HUH?
I'M NOT GONNA AFFECTED BY THIS. I'M TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU PEOPLE !
FRIEND MEANS FRIEND.
DON'T NEED TO BE BEST FRIEND.
DON'T NEED TO BE SWORN SISTER.
DON'T NEED TO BE CLOSE FRIEND.

CAN BE JUST A FRIEND, WILL YOU ?
I'M NOT EXPECTING MUCH.

If you don't understand this SIMPLE english, then GET OUT please !
Sorry to other people if i give you a shock..i'm just really mad !
SERIOUSLY MAD ! :X
ok gtg..studying POA

update again later..

BTW !

I received more b'day presents which is 4GB thumbdrive and a doggy hp chain tog with a card !
Thank you :D

And thanks Elaineeee for her concern, asking me what happened yesterday !
Maybe after exams, ya?
Now focus on exams first ! =)

I miss talking to my dear friends everywhereeeee, exams now. Busy, stressed.
Hope i can catch up with everyone the next weekends !

And not forgetting..my dear friends.. E and V =)...
PLEASE PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES !
Noticed that you 2 keep on falling sick every week !
PLEASE PLEASE...TAKE CARE ! =)

Loves you all !
okay, better stop now.. =)

today went church service late !
it was 2nd/3rd time already -_-lll
was sleepy and tired after yesterdayyy.

after service, wanted to go home but couldn't.
went MHI for prayer meeting.
they changed the method of starting a prayer meeting every month.
i prefer this new method =)

today i had the courage too, to pray for MHI concerns and one another in my grp =)
dr vic was impressed by it O.o
heh ! after that, ate brunch.
had short tuition with paoru for accts and kor for emaths before i went home.

now i gonna study bio !
tmr emaths paper 2 and bio ! then 3 more to go ! jiayou :D

after exams, what shall i do?
PLAY.
EXERCISE.
SPEND MORE TIME WITH MY DEAR FRIENDSSSSS.
SOLVE ALL THE CRAZY PROBLEMS.

okay, gtg !
hope tonight i'm not going to yishun again again ! :X
see you people ! :D
maybe not updating until tuesday night O.o?

deleted the previous post, don't ask me why.

sorry i'm in the bad mood right now..
sigh, don't know why
just problems everywhere.
SCHOOL.
MHI (maybe).
HOME.
where can i escape to? *crys*

hmm, thurs - maths paper 1 and social studies..
maths paper 1 - did my best although 2 Qs, couldn't solveee.
social studies - hope i can pass, i wrote so messy..scribbling like mad :X

fri - geog
bad morning ! bad day !
but i managed to answer all Qs except 2 Qs, cos i didn't focus on coasts.
only rivers and food production, because of ...... !
didn't manage to finish studying, sigh

today, went queenstown to get new badminton racket for myself !
no more borrowing from my bro, also his rackets are heavy ones.. i bought a light one ! XD
ok, went cc for badminton practice.
until 6pm plus then went dinner.
went grandparents' place at Yishun again again again !
was stuck there until almost 11pm, then finally i'm home and refreshed after bathing !
phew ! so tired after the whole day..

but now, things happened again.
bad mood, bad mood ! what's happening to my life ? is it better if i avoid everyone ? =(

Hahah !
Some people're excited to know what presents i got, huh ?
okay, i won't reveal the people that gave me pressies (you know who you are, ya?)

my birthday pressies are..
- a pink Baby-G watch !
- a blue Coca-cola shirt !
- a sovenier from London !
- a lovely b'day card !
- a book called ....ask me yourself, i won't say here =) !
- a nice leather wallet !
- a orange + black zinc slingbag !
- 2 hongbaos from my 2nd & 3rd aunts !
- cake from cousin ! dinner from my 1st aunt !
AND ALL THE WISHES THAT I RECEIVED THRU MSN, FACEBOOK, FRIENDSTER AND SMS ! :D

Thanks very much, everyone !
Surprised that some of my ex-teachers/old friends still remember my b'day !
You've made my day although i've to study for exams tmr ! :D
I guess more're coming this weekend or next week ? XD.. well, these are enough already in fact =)

Celebrated b'dae with family this year ! Friends, probably next week AFTER exams, super long XD..

Okay, gtg to mug for exams tmr :D
see you all !
good night ! just few more min before my b'day is over O.o !

HAPPY OFFICIALLY BIRTHDAY TO ME ! SWEET 15 !

Thanks to people who had alr given my b'day presents!
I love them very much ! =)
Thanks to people who wished me via SMS, my blog's tagboard, MSN ! :D

Yesterday was English Paper 2.
I finished the paper on the spot, whooooo..scary man !
Didn't update yesterday because i only reached home after 12 am ! so tired !
went to Yishun after my tuition at late night :X
thanks Kor for accompanying me, otherwise i'll be scared again.
I don't want to have the phobia, i want to go out until lateeeeeee. i love this !

Okay, today?
I don't know what to do later.
I'm alr studying for tomorrow exams :X
Parents at market, bro sleeping and me STUDYING.

Will update again tonight.
Presents'll be revealed tonight =)
see you, peeps :D