Just updating before i go out.

Hmm, didn't update for the past 2 days as i was tired.

I was also very distracted since Thursday.

On Thursday,

Spilled water, dropped watch(luckily there was a carpet below, otherwise it'll be spolit & i gonna be sad) & broke my glass bottle of shampoo !

On Friday,

My stomach got hit by a ball thrown by a classmate during PE(I nearly died), got my slight cough & very stressed & didn't go for CCA due to some reasons !

Today,

My plans for this morning was destroyed as i went back to sleep until 1245pm(having cramps) !

See?

I'm sooo distracted, don't know why ):

Dear God in heaven, help me ! Give me some strength & wisdom ! Amen.

I miss everyone !

What's the real Joyce?

Being HI has disadvantages & advantages.

Being normal has disadvantages & advantages.

WHAT'S THIS ?

Still remember: Life is created by God.

Anyway, i've nothing more to say. Gotta to go!

See you !

-updated @ 1pm

Just updating a short while.

A poem that i came across while surfing net a moment ago.

Even though I'm alone

I still stand strong

Even though i"m alone

I know whats right and wrong

So give me something

I can hold on too

Give me something

I that reminds me of you

You will always be in my heart

And we will never be apart

This poem is encouraging me to stand strong, no matter what.

My feelings are getting mixed.

Seems mood swings.

Unknowingly affected, as well. Since that thing happened ):

Okay gotta run now.

Getting late, need to off comp. Goodnight !

-updated @ 1115pm

Hello.

Supposed to update last night, but didn't.

Came home late & i was very tired.

Anyway, today again very tired.

School then CCA.

Couldn't rest during CCA - straight from 245pm all the way to 545-6pm.

Furthermore, bused & trained home - standing from Bedok, all the way to Sengkang.

It's really so far & I nearly collapsed !!

1234567890 stations between Bedok & Sengkang !

Enough of rants.

It's going to be 4 years already & i've one more year to go which is next year.

CCA was good in the first place, but turned ''sour'' when almost end of practice.

This instructor was disappointed(what i heard from leaders) & walked out of the music room.

I wonder what went wrong.

I guess everyone was doing our jobs.

To this instructor:

It's only 2nd practice of this song, man. Take it easy. With that attitude, you're simply giving us a difficult time, especially when we are working hard to make perfect music.

Anyway, what i heard was that he was unwell. - Whatever it's. Take care lor.

Okay enough.

People who wants to irritate/annoy me:

YOU BETTER SHUT UP & GET RID OF MY SIGHT

before i go scold right in front of your face !

ps. I'm just warning some people.

Because !

I'm not in the right mood nowadays.

I'm facing some stress matters !

Obviously, i hope to get them solved asap.

Gosh, my post is long !

Okay, gotta to go. See you !!

-updated @ 920pm

How was my day today?

It's nothing much.

I was affected very much till then.

Cancelled all my plans.

Spent half of my afternoon @ home - crying & sleeping.

The rest of the day, was @ Yishun.

Went bowling with cousins - the only time i enjoyed alittle.

Didn't know that my dad play bowling - surprised (:

I love my dad ! I love my mum !

Although i was upset with them, i still love them !

No matter what, i still love my family.

Still affected though.

Sorry people if i worry you.

I'm very sorry to those who i was supposed to go their places today & tomorrow.

Due to some family matters, i've to cancel everything.

I'm glad for your understanding !

Okay, gotta to go.

Need to do some stuffs & off i go sleep.

Breakfast with family tomorrow.

Lunch with family.

Dinner with family.

My CNY is all spending time at home & with my families (dad's side & mum's side).

After tomorrow, i'll be back to school & down for CCA.

Goodnight all !

-updated @ 1120pm

SO ANNOYED & IRRITATED )':

No house visting @ friends' place anymore.

No mood for anything.

Don't ask me why.

Bye.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !

Although it's new year today, i don't feel anything about it.

It seemed nothing to me, just a short break from school.

Don't know why either.

I noticed many of us teens feel the same way this year O.o

Anyway, no saying bad things today & tomorrow.

Enjoy yourselves !

Me, waiting for my parents to pick me & my brother up.

House visiting @ friends' place later, after lunch time (:

See you all !

-updated @ 11am

Slacking all day along @ home.

Finally my mum's back from market - she usually help her mum out @ market.

Now during CNY period, the stall is open until later hour.

I didn't talk to her since Friday morning - when i woke up for school, she was already @ market o.O

Well, finally CNY is here after tomorrow.

Reunion dinner tomorrow !

Did some house chores the whole morning.

Bought lunch & stuffs for myself & brother.

Cleared some stuffs.

Went to buy a Christian CD, it's so expensive !! =x

Brother went out till then.

That is my day today.

Tonight, hopefully celebrate my brother's birthday with a cake.

Hopefully, he'll not come back so late =p

Okay, see you all.

Won't update until tomorrow (church, movie, reunion dinner)

-updated @ 550pm

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY

BLOODY BROTHER, JONNEO!
Eh i've not get him anything lols.
Gonna get him something later, shh (:
Okay, will update tonight.

-updated @ 9am

eh now after 1am O.o
i don't feel sleepy at all ! guess because of my nails being polished !
pink !! my wallet also pink !!

people out there, you will see me mostly pink during these days, CNY =p
okay, enough.
otherwise, some people may get sick of pink, even before seeing me =x
anyway today was a long day.
stayed behind in sch until 3pm plus & forgot to take my lunch.
took dinner in the evening & tuition @ MHI.
supper with my dear Kor @ PS after that.

right now !
i'm getting hungry again =x
oh well, at least i eat more & grow faster =p
LOL ?
okay goodnight !
-updated @ 130am

It's so late now.
Just finished settling things. Oh, whatever it's.

I apologised for the ''rude'' entry that i posted previously.
Sigh.
Also, for the other posts as well.
Sorry people out there, i'm just lacking of sleep and energy which'll cause me to have mood swings and feeling down ):

A BIG SORRY TO EVERYONE who got affected by me !
I'll survive !

I'm just feeling stressed, get it?
Okay, gotta to run now..
Getting late, goodnight !!
-updated @ 110am

More & more sleepless nights ):
CAN STOP DISCOURAGING ME ANOT ?
I feel more hurt ):

WTF !
SO, PLEASE STOP DISCOURAGING ME. MIND YOUR WORDS, THANK YOU.
Mostly, it's people who are not in teens anymoreee.

I had a LONG day today & I'm VERY tired.
So, please stop it !!
Gotta to go. I've tons of work to completeee.

ps. Don't ask me why and whatever it's. It's IRRITATING ! Thank you.
-updated @ 10pm

After 12am again, sigh.

I went out just now, to the airport.
Supposed to send one of my classmate off, as she gonna emigrate to Australia for 10 years.
Yet, i think her flight changed again - 2nd time changed.
Almost half of my class came !!
Imagine that ?!
Well, i went home after i found out that & it was getting late.
I don't know how the situation is like now o.O
Probably everyone went homeee.

Sigh, problems & stress.
I think it's the end of the world, but people don't think that.
Anyway, nothing will change no matter how much i rant and how long i rant.
Okay gotta to sleep soon.

Goodnight!
-updated @ 1210am

My apologies to all for those previous posts.

I'm just really stressed out.

Time for me to let go some things & accept even though i dislike certain things.

I shouldn't get things to heart.

Still hopefully, don't ever do that as i'm a person who always get affected easily pleasee.

Thank God for this person !

Without this person, I won't be blogging here. Thank God !

This person is the only person who knows everything about me, even my worst thing i've ever done in my life.

Don't ask me what is it ah - I won't ever tell anyone else. It's gnikcuf embarrassing please.

Anyway, i shld stop broading about this person.

I had some notes about the sermon @ church today.

Learning about the Kingdom of God this year.

It's the theme of the whole bible.

In new testament, the rest of the care of the Kingdom of God is associated with Jesus in every gospel.

Mission of Christ includes the whole creation, present and future.

John 3:16 - The important verse that most people use which tells how important the Kingdom of God is.

Acts 28:30-31

Meaning that everything that Paul wrote was also about the Kingdom of God.

Not easy to understand that, it's a condition, abstract but very real.

Need better understanding of the Kingdom of God.

It takes the correct understanding to evoke a correct response & is crucial.

Once understood, not only personal salvation.

It affects everything in present & future.

That was all about the sermon today.

Just some sharing with you all.

What i've thought about this is that we need better understanding,right?

BUT ! We don't know whether we will accept the facts of the Kingdom of God. Perhaps we don't accept and believe in other ways.

We don't know. Still, we never forget God.

Praise to Him !

During SF,

I learnt about God being wonderful to us.

He create us, He plans our lives, He put us through some certain things which could be happiness or unhappiness. It depends.

Still, we must not forget that God is there & He planned for us to live through these.

Being hearing impaired is not a bad thing though.

God is giving us a test & we may have better lives in future.

That was all for today.

Oops, nearly 2am at the moment.

Need to sleep for school - 3 1/2h more to go before i get up & ready for Monday blues =x

Okay goodnight !

Why these three words?

Because:

1) Some people hurt me today.

-I'm not someone who can accept whatever you've done to me

(I can simply scold you off, but you are lucky that i didn't do that.)

- I'm not someone who you can hurt or have no feeling

(I'm a human & have feelings, again you are lucky that i didn't show otherwise things surely turn sour.)

2) Stressed about family & studies

- I've some problems with my family

(it usually happens, i just need some peace - but some people even don't notice that)

- I've difficulties in my studies

(I'm trying so hard to manage time to study/do work although i'm not the type who is hardworking - yet, some people don't appreciate, thinking that i'm not interested or something.)

Yeah, i know my English is VERY BAD - must you repeat that all times? ):

Yeah, my studies are VERY BAD - must you say that all times? ):

I feel very discouraged - wanting to give up, don't you know?

IT'S SO ANNOYING !

Some people are putting too much pressure on me. (not my mum)

I won't say who they are, but they should know what they've done & you see: even my mum doesn't do that, then you've no right to do that all times.

YES I KNOW N LEVELS THIS YEAR !

Who doesn't know? -_-

3) Very tired

- School days: wake up @ 530am and go home late.

(No choice.)

- Yesterday woke up @ 530am again & I only got home after 11pm & slept after 12am.

(Yeah, not supposed to go badminton - But can't i enjoy a little & exercise a little?)

- Today i woke up @ 3am until 5am, then i went back to sleep until 7am plus.

(Too many things in mind, can't have a good rest.)

See how tired I am?

This weekend is crazy for me - getting worse than the last weekend ):

It's my usual rants for being very tired.

Today isn't my day but i got hurt by some people & found out that i'm not really important to those people.

Might as well, i should stop in whatever i'm doing.

Just focus on my N levels & I'll not spend time with you since you are like that

Sometimes, i do rant @ my mum.

But, i need UNDERSTANDING - doesn't get what i mean

It's really hard to explain to adults. Not only her, i've miscommunications with others too ):

Okay, i guess these are much more details for certain people who are wanting to know.

Don't ask me so much on MSN, if you want to ask..ask something that will not annoy me pleaseeee.

I'm already affected by these so much that i even couldn't finish my dinner ):

Okay gotta to go, finish up my tasks.

- updated @ 920pm

Feeling hurt & stressed & tired.

FTW(read from the third letter)

Just shut up & don't ask so much !

I may disappear one day ):

-updated @ 445pm

Facing many things.
Problems.
Family.
Studies.
I'm trying so hard, and yet no one understands. Not even my mum.
Why?
I really want to end my life here =x
Why people are so hard on me?
Do i really have that bad impression, sigh?

Anyway, don't ask me so many questions.
Irritated.
Annoyed.
Tired.
Stressed.
I have enough ):

Tomorrow? - Good day? I can say 70% bad =x
See you.
I've to do my things. Goodnight!
-updated @ 1015pm

Just 2 minutes before today ends (:

So tired.
Caught in the rain this afternoon ):
Another restless night again ):
I reached home late after tuition & my late dinner @ PS.

I've 4-5 tasks to finish up before tomorrow !
Okay, with God's help, nothing is impossible, no matter how tired I'm.

God is always there for us !! - There's a purpose to it (:
-updated @ 1158pm

Back again !
Just 5 minutes before this day ends.
Want to say something before i go off to pray and sleep (:

God's strength is best seen in our weakness.
Luke 23:43
If you want to know more, go read Luke 23:33-43 (:

Glory to Him, Praise Him!
God is great, no matter what.
God has a purpose for us. - What's God's purpose for you?

Goodnight all !
-updated @ 1155pm

YO.
Congrates to those passed their O levels !!
Those who didn't do very well, it's okay. Go ahead into your next stage of life. God always has a plan for you (:

Stayed behind with the girls who were taking their O levels results, after school.
I kept on jiayou-ing the girls like mad.
Well, i'm supporting them.
Seeing people cry, seeing people jumping make it sooo scaryy !!

I'll be the next one.
Collecting results for N levels this year, especially !!
Near to the END OF THIS YEAR !!
Scary, man.
SCARY, SCARY, SCARY.
People !! Must support me & others hor.

Managing my time, improving slowly.
Study hard !! Study smart !!
MYES !
PRELIMS !
N LEVELS !
Gosh, i'm sooooo scared now -.-..

Okay, enough of this.
I gonna have more goosebumps already. As if now it's already N levels =x
Always believe in God !!
-updated @ 635pm

WAIT !
i just realised that whatever i learnt from SF today..
is related to what i've gone through for the past few days !!
Gosh, it's sooo concidence.
I guess God is trying to tell me something ! (:
Praise Him, Glory to Him, Thank Him ! x)

God is always Number One! (:
-updated @ 450pm