JUST REALISED SOMETHING !!

GOD ANSWERED MY PRAYER !
I prayed for Caroline to let her come back safely to SG and yet, she is really coming back TONIGHT !!
YAY! YAY!

Okay see you all..

I'M BACK !

Yesterday was so horrible !!
So stressed already after the rehearsal.
I have so many comments from people on my rehearsal, being the emcee !!

AH !
I DON'T WANT TO BE EMCEE.
Someone, take over my place pleaseee. I'm going to die already !
PLEASE PLEASE.
If not, please give me lots of support and confidence !!

Yesterday was Family Life Worship @ YWCA.
Nothing much to say about it, as i wasn't listening to it most of the time.
I was too tired as i slept ard 1am plus and woke up ard 5am plus the night beforeeee.
My parents thought i was crazy.
All thanks to the script, i had to finish writing all the cards !!

BUT !
Thank God that..
Caroline is coming back TONIGHT !!
YAY, LET'S JUMP !!
She has been stuck in Bangkok for days..weeks..
Poor her & her dear Pat !
They didn't see each other for 2 weeks already.

Okay i have to go..
See you all !!

REMEMBER..
Support me !! And also, Yewkim.
At least she's better than me !! She could do it without making mistakes !
Because i have more words to talk lol..
Well, practice makes perfect !!

CYA !

YO!
Posting in the middle of the night.. =x
I'm going to collaspe already.
Yesterday was a crazy day.
Today another one.
I have 2 more crazy days which is tomorrow and Sunday.
Hope i can survive throughout. I simply gonna collaspe in one minute.
I'm really soooo tired, want to die already lol.

I have sooo many things to do.
Someone, help me pleaseee.
Give me your support, ya? =)
Okay, gtg!
Very tired alreadyy.


updated @ 3am !

YO!
Just woke up few minutes ago.
Wish i can sleep longer.
I've to go my grandma's place to pray to my late grandpa in 1 1/2h's time.

Hmm.
Things are getting fixed up.
I'm still having the uneasiness. Damn!
Okay gonna pray before i end my post..

Dear Father in Heaven,

I pray for myself to be more encouraged and have faith to do my jobs for MHI Christmas Party, no more conflicts/arguments with others.
I pray for Carolineee, let her come back to SG. She's stuck in Bangkok for 2 weeks already ! Pray for her safety.
Pray for Kor to have strength and wisdom as he is so busy until Christmas !
Pray for YK and XH to have faith in themselves and no Satan around them..
Pray for my dear friend to have some peace.
Pray for my jiejie to have strength and wisdom as she goes work and prepare for Christmas party as well.
Pray for everyone to have a blessed day !!
In Jesus's name.

Amen.

Just one more day to go before the weekends.
But i'm going to be busy tomorrow, saturday and sunday ! Hope I can survive -.-..
Okay gotta to run.
15 min has passed ! See you all !

JIAYOU, EVERYONE !


Updated @ 815am !

I'M SINCERELY SORRY TO EVERYONE !
I know i have done a wrong thing which i changed my mind again.
Shocked everyone.
Embarrassed myself.
I'm making a comeback to MHI Christmas Party.

Everything is back to one shape again.
But just want to warn you people.
Don't be ''too much'' to one another. I can react that again if you want to continue that.

Okay, everything is seriously over.
Thanks to Carolineeee, she talked me over again and again last night.
For hours.
She is sooo busy with work that she hardly sleep too.
Poor her!

I LOVE EVERYONE !

Okay, see you all.


updated @ 120pm !

YO!
Gonna post what i've learnt from SF last Sunday.
Although i missed half of it, i managed to get them from MHI website and learnt from thereee.

Jesus will come again

How do we know whether Jesus is coming back again?
John 14:2-3
(v.2) In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go prepare a place for you. (v.3) And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you unto myself, that where I am , there ye may be also.
(I'm going to prepare a place and if I have done that, I will come and take you together with me.)

Acts 1:11
(v.11) Which also said, Ye mean of Galilee, why stand ye gazing up into heaven? this same Jesus, which is taken up from you into heaven, shall so come in like manner as ye have seen him go into heaven.
(Men of Galilee, you do not need to continue to look at the sky. You saw Jesus go up to heaven. Like that, he will come back again.)

When is Jesus coming again?
We do not know but still should be prepared !
Matt 24:36
(v.36) But of that day and hour knoweth no mean, no, not even the angels of heaven, but my Father only.
(No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, not the Son, but only the Father.)

How will He come?
Matt 24:36
(By clouds of heaven with power and great glory)
Acts 1:9-11
(v.9) And when he had spoken these things, while they beheld, he was taken up; and a cloud received him out of their sight. (v.10) And while they looked stedfastly toward heaven as he went up, behold, two men stood by them in white apparel; (v.11) Which also said, Ye mean of Galilee, why stand ye gazing up into heaven? this same Jesus, which is taken up from you into heaven, shall so come in like manner as ye have seen him go into heaven.
(He will come back in the same way that you have seem Him go into heaven)

Warnings to help us prepare?
Matt 24:5,7,10
(v.5) For many shall come in my name, saying, I am Christ; and shall deceive many.
(the Christ, and shall deceive many)
(v.7) For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom; against kingdom: and there shall be famines, and pestilences, and earthquakes, in divers places.
(famines & earthquakes are the warnings)
(v.10) And then shall many be offended, and shall betray one another, and shall hate one another.
(away from faith and will betray)

How shall we prepare?
- Be ready at all times
Luke 12:40
(v.40) Be ye therefore ready also: for the Son of man cometh at an hour when ye think not.
(must be ready but not expecting him)

Encouraged to face sufferings and persecution to be ready for that.

That's what SF last Sunday is all about.
So sad that i missed church svc as well. Hmm, not detailed much when i tried to find out.
Anyway it's okay.
I gotta to go.
Update again..
Life is unpredictable..
I've still decided to be out of MHI things.
But I'll still continue to go church svc.
For SF, i can't say anything yet.
Let me think over it again again .. Give me time first ..

See you all !

Life is so unpredictable..

I'm out of everything.
OUT OF MHI CHRISTMAS PARTY.
I know some people are trying to talk me out.. but i tell you all, it gonna be pointless because i have made up my mind.. i'm seriously sorry.. but i don't wish to embarrass myself in the end.. =(
OUT OF D-GEN BAND.
OUT OF MHI OUTREACH ACTIVITIES.

Let me out please. Why cannot? I seriously want to be out, then some people'll be happier.
People happy, i'll be happy as well.
If you want to see me, then see me on Sunday @ church.
Anyway, i'll stay in MHI tuition until my O levels end. But i'll be only there on Tuesday afternoons. For Friday evenings, perhaps some of them.

Guess some people'll be happy.
I'm VERY sorry to those people who cares for me. I have let you all down.
But i have suffered very much.
I may just end my life one day if i continue like this.

Yeah, i'm very self-centredness and impatient.
Give up on me? Go ahead.
I will give up on you people either.
Okay enough.

I guess i'll just have my schoolmates, friends and God..
Studying throughout..
Finish my secondary school, Poly and go on with my life..
I think it'll be better.
For those who wants to see me again, contact me. I'm sure that most of you have my contacts..


updated @ 1120pm !

since 24Dec, it has been 11 months.. whee! waiting for next month~
God's gift to me..
I believe that relationship will continue thru all obstacles and problems..
(ps. it's not love relationship. i don't even have a boyfriend. HAHA)

Had 10 hours of sleep.
Felt much better, not so much aching already.
Busy everywhere.
Everything is going crazy until the week after next week. Then, gonna prepare for Christmas!
Many things are arriving.
2009 is approaching, which means my N LEVELS !
Oh gosh..
Time to get serious, no more being playful.
Okay.
Gotta to go.


Updated @ 1220pm!

Had a refreshing bath.
I was at sports camp since Friday.
Now i'm aching everywhere and imagine that i couldnt sleep well for 2 nights.
Panda eyes already.
Okay, i'm going to summarize everything about 3-day camp. Don't want to be soooooooo long-winded. Haha.

1st day - Handball, Paintball(didn't play, was scared)
2nd day - Archery, Fustal(similar to soccer)
Today(this morning) - Floorball
All activities were fun especially Fustal, heh. But of course, very tired and muscle ache in the end.
Fustal is similar to soccer. Soccer for boys. Fustal for girls and boys, haha.

Made new friends as well.
Enjoyed myself.
Oh, after the activity and prize giving just now, went to MHI with Aloy pest and YK.
For SF. - missed half of it. Sad. I was hoping to learn something from it.
But, i learnt the ending part. It's okay.
I'll make up for it NEXT sunday =)..
After that, went for lunch and headed home.
I nearly collasped already. So tired, yet had to carry 2 bags and badminton racket around here and there =x
Oh yeah! I'm abit tanner now! I want to be MORE tanned, haha! =)

Okay, that's all i guess?
See you all again!


updated @ 530pm !

YO!
I'm back from camp!
Super tired.
Haven't bathe. I stink.
Update later about the camp,ya?
See you !!


Updated @ 445pm!

I want to be a GOOD girl lah.
Treat me as a human, can anot?
Don't treat me until like i'm an alien or whatever.

I'm not someone who you can control huh.
I'm a girl.
I'm a human who has bad and good points.
I'm Joyceee.

Whatever you've been treating me, sounds like not the Joyce you know, eh.
Bad point, tell me.
I do something wrong, tell me lah.
I'm just 15 years old !
15 years of my life, must i suffer this much?
Like making me that i don't want to live anymore. People, come and kill me lah.
Don't like me, kill me lah.
Like me, don't make use of me. Can anot?

Ok example..
Last few Sundays, Caroline kinda scolded me in front of everyone in MHI.
For what? - For my own good.
Until now, i still can remember what she did to me.
And how badly i embarrassed myself.

See...!
Tell me, tell me.
Not angry at me, scold me, hurt me, backstab me.
For what? WTF.
Get it anot, people? Ahiyo.
Just.
15 years old leh!

I want to say something too.

Someone also talked to me last night.
Not the same person, btw.
This person knows that i'm hurt by all these, but still i don't get it(something else).
Well, after i say all these..some of you or that person will know who i'm talking about.

That person told me to:
Stay strong.
If (this person) can do it, i also can.

Another person told me:
Be patient in ALL aspects.
Believe in God in all those.
No one is perfect except God.

Okay, answer is 2 persons told me all these. But there're more, hiding themselves.
Don't want to tell me. I know who they are.
And i can't reveal here.
Too personal. But some people may know.
Both of them are my close ones, yet the older ones.

WTF..
I just realised some things in me.
I guess i'm a bad friend.
good friend to some people.
close friend to some people.
being good and close, is it hard for me as well? - i even don't know who to trust.
A bad sworn sister. (mei/jie).
sworn mei to some people.
sworn jiejie to some people.
Being the younger and older one to different people, really hard for me. Don't you think so?
I realised whatever i do.
Cause many problems.
Cause envy/jealousy to be there.
I guess i'm also a bad daughter to my parents, a bad sister to my blooded brother.
Always go out.
Refuse to listen to them sometimes.

I'M REALLY A BAD GIRL. Oh sian.

Okay, things here are kinda messed up.
I just have to stay strong, be patient in all aspects.
Look out in all ways that WTF is wrong with myself.
Okay.
Gotta to go. See you all ~


updated @ 9am !

Hi,

I've not been blogging good recently.
Hmm.
Many things have happened, and i can't reveal here because some aren't meant for people to know.
Someone asked me last night: Why focus on bad points?
Why i've been sighing away, is because of this matter.
I've been emotional, hurting and wanting to cry everyday. EMO. But i don't want that, so i always control myself.
But i don't think people know?
Ok never mind.
SELF-CENTREDNESS - my bad point. Most of you may agree.
I think it's my words whatever i say, and from my blog. Perhaps my actions too.
LACK OF PATIENCE - it has been my bad point till then.
I'll say it's a gene from my dad, he is also impatient. But, again people will not believe and insist me to change if i'm willing.
Hmm, anyway.
Again, i'm too self-centredness - talking about myself.
But i think that's totally WRONG to me.
Perhaps i'm wrong instead.
I think there're more abt me till then.
Since everytime when problems occur, i get hurt.
I get scolded in return.
Anyway, not only one person tell me this.
More than one, mind you.
Yeah yeah, self-centredness again. Whatever. Don't you know that it hurts me?
Ok i think i must say this:
I'm the cause of everything.
I cause everything to be bad and sour.
I'm a baddie.
Okay with you all?

Sigh, i don't wish to write further more.
Everything is so difficult, but not impossible.
People out there.
Don't ask me why and questions here and there, about this. Don't even mention about this matter in front of me, otherwise you will die in the hands of me =X..
But, some people knows more about this.
I'm sure they will come saying that: WHY TYPE IN YOUR BLOG?
Sigh.

Oh, now happy things.
I went to watch the movie(The Coffin) last Sunday.
The first horror movie i watched in my life.
But it don't look horror to me, although there're some horror parts.
Anyway, it's nice.
Nothing much moreee.


Update again, another time.
Gonna get ready soon, to go down to my primary school.
Hmm.
Today is PSLE's results day.
Wonder who is gonna be the highest. Gonna find out later, lol.
See you all ~


Updated @ 810am !

Many things are happening here and there.
Sigh.

Updated @ 11pm !

Hope everything get better nowadays.
I can't blog much at the moment.
TOO MANY THINGS.
Sorry people out there.
Btw, i'm alright if people want to know how i am doing.
Some people'll know how i'm doing nowadays.
No problem.
I won't update often as well.
Perhaps until this sunday, after my camp.

See you all !


Updated @ 645pm !

YO!

Updating before going off to meet that stupid pest Aloy to go together to tanah merah.
Haiz, why must i stay near his home of all? =.=ll
Well, people out there !!
HE IS NOT MY OFFICIALLY BOYFRIEND. I EVEN DON'T HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM. I HATE HIM LOL !
Get it ?
PS. Sad that my dear jiejie isn't going with us to cycling =(.. Wish that she's around, will be more fun =)
Okay, i gonna pray for today then gonna log off =)..

Dear Father in Heaven,

I pray for a blessed day today, with good weather.
I also pray for every single of us who are going to Pulau Ubin for cycling, our safely especially.
Pray that everyone will have a great day ahead.
Safety there, also during cycling, and lastly back to Singapore.
Thank You.
In Jesus's name.

Amen.


Updated @ 845am !

YO!

Just bathed, just got home.
Went out the whole day today.
Today band performance @ CCPS (primary school band), was good. Stayed behind for 1-2 hours before we seniors/teachers left.
Went to meet XH for lunch @ cityhall, had a nice one. (don't believe me? go ask XH lol..)
Went to MHI.
Awhile later, went to walk until somewhere near Clarke Quay, popped in a new shopping centre. Interesting !!
Went back to MHI.
Hmm, nothing much. Evening, had dinner @ PS with my piggy Kor and XH.
Went Cathay for a while after meeting dear jiejie and JE @ MHI nearly to 9pm.
Ended up talking talking talking.
So, got home late lol =x.. Luckily my mum didn't nag, but gave me usual look lol =x..
Need to learn to be on time =x
Okay, that'll be all.
Hmm, pray that Caroline and Patrick will be back in sg safely tonight !! - I miss Caroline lol =x
Pray also for good weather tomorrow.
Cycling @ Pulau Ubin ! Wheeeeee ! Pray for safety for everyone, as well =)
See you all ~
Nights nights !!


Updated @ 1130pm !

Just finished my supper.
Went school late for lessons =x..
Lesson was alright.
Teacher kinda long-winded and there were some funny parts, but kinda lame =.=ll
After lesson, headed to my grandma's place @ Yishun.
5th week that my late grandpa has gone to heaven.
Cousins, aunts and uncles were there O.o
I was the only one wearing sch uniform, kinda weird lol.
Nothing much.
Tomorrow will be out the whole day, but hopefully i can come back in evening to rest for Saturday cycling =)
See you all ~
Nights nights !!


Updated @ 1120pm

In 2-3 hours' time, i'm off to school for lesson.
3-hour lesson, hope it doesn't bore me.
Nothing much.
Hope i'm out of everything and i need some slience..

See you all !
Update again tonight, perhaps.


Updated @ 1140am!

Finally back home!
Went out with my mum the whole afternoon.
Shopping @ Novena & DG.
Had japanese food for dinner, heh heh.
It has been some time that i ate jap food again =)..
Bought a ''sporty'' bag for myself @ DG.
It gonna be useful for outings. Great that my mum agreed to buy the bag finally !!
Wanted to buy sports shoes, cap but didn't in the end.
They are TOO expensive !!!
Okay that's all.
Lessons tmr in afternoon >.<..

See you all !
Have a restful night..


Updated @ 910pm !