Very tired and stressed.
I got disappointed again and again ):

Tuesday,
I went down to MHI for tuition & things were alright.
Got home & did work until after midnight.
Sleepless night ):

Wednesday,
School until 4pm plus.
Did work until after midnight again.
Sleepless night ):

Thursday,
School until 4pm plus.
Went to meet friends for a short while & got home late in the evening.
Did work until after midnight again and again.
Another ...sleepless night ):

3 nights of 5 hours of sleep each at a go, is really stressful !!

Today,
School until nearly 2pm when usual dismissal time is 1250pm ):
I couldn't have a break even today is Friday.
I've 1 composition, 2 situational writings and 1 comprehension due tomorrow.

FYI: I've school again tomorrow morning !! ):
8am to 10am, oh my gosh!
STRESSED !!! D:

Today evening was quiet, but some things distracted me at first.
And not long ago, I just got disappointed again.
Why I've to face this when I'm in this kind of situation? ):
You all bring me disappointment again and again.
Should I trust you all in this way? ):

Anyway,
I have to pull myself through for N levels 2 subjects next week !!
I've to do my work now, for tomorrow due !!
PRAY FOR ME!
D:

Received a small blessing from Him.

My evening was spent smoothly.
Few minutes ago, I just was being nagged by someone, to sleep early, to allow Him to heal me.
Heh heh! :D

Thank God!
I pray for a stronger friendship/relationship with these people (:

GOODNIGHT! (:

Beginning of September.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BESTFRIEND ♥ !
Happy Teachers' Day!

Finally, I'm feeling better from gastrics cramps.
Time for me to start mugging!
I'm left with a week before my first N levels paper starts!
Oh, no! D:

A decision made, that I decided to continue maths tuition with Kor.
No matter what, it's just the sake of my maths.
Maths really suck, when I stopped tuition D:

Won't update until Friday/Saturday.
School until after 4pm tomorrow & Thursday! D:
It's crazy!!

Okay, gotta run.
SEE YOU, ALL !

Oops, forgot to update about yesterday.

Yesterday was a weird quiet day.
I went late for Family Life worship with Ellen.
Went to support the Ipoh mission trip training.
Lunch with Pauline, Ellen & Clement.
Once finished my lunch, I left.
Shopped around PS.
Studied at LJS.
Shopped around Cathay.
Went down to Novena.
Walked here and there. (not listing the specific places)
Home for dinner with family(:

Every Sunday, I'm always on my own.
No big deal.
I wanted to catch a movie.
Is it so hard to get friends to join me?
One by one, all refused.
I didn't watch in the end, and was disappointed that I've to miss this nice movie ):

Day was spent resting, taking meds and eating at home.
I felt that it was so wasted.
):

Last night was the worst night of all.
I felt bad that my dad had to wake up in the middle of night & my mum could not rest.
They had to bring me to a 24-hr clinic.
It's 9th MC.

Today didn't go school obviously.
Missed the teachers' day celebrations, extra english lesson and a hang-out with my girlfriends to celebrate my bestfriend's bday.
Sorry, bestfriend ♥ !
How saddening that I had to miss so many nice events today..

It's what I get, for not taking care of myself enough ):
N levels're coming.
In midst of gastric cramps.
Oh, no! It's gonna be a doom doom for me ):

PRAY HARD !
Give me strength, give me wisdom! Give me some love, care, concern. He is great! (:

wishing that my God-bro to be what he used to be like..
he changed so much, that he never realise himself..
God, is it you that change him?
i disappointed him so much that i could be shaken that easily..
but what about myself..being disappointed that a big change is seen in him..
his heart has hardened for his God-sis..
God, is that You to give him to be this way?
Tell me..

Today is ending soon, September is arriving in few hours' time.
Less than a week's time, my REAL BIG exams are here! D:
TIME TO MUG ! ! ! D:
Gosh ! !

Gastric cramps again ):

WILL UPDATE AGAIN.
See you .

What a super long day today.

I had 6-7 hours of sleep, yet still so tired.
Had to force myself out of the bed & got ready to go down to MHI again and again.
Acting again.

ECP in late afternoon.
Cycling in the evening with friends, took turns.
Relaxing, but it was quite messy in the first place.
I don't want to get into a messy situation, when I am asked to lead the team, next time ):

Dinner @ Vivo.
Shopped around & home! :D

Thanks, Ignyte team people who went Vivo with me! :D
Dinner with me, since I didn't eat @ ECP (:
I LOVE YOU ALL.
:D
Not like someone who is ranked higher, but doesn't care that much):

Gotta rest soon, nights! (:

It was horrible when I don't get online for days ):

This friendship is so long,
yet nowadays,
it seems to break slowly,
my heart turns to fade as maybe it's my fault,
however.
I still want this friendship!

I want some love,
some care,
some concern.
No one does that, except very few whom I appreciate very much.
But there're people who are ranked higher than them, in my life.
I don't see anything.

The feelings for them are going away soon ):
Sigh, is it because I neglected them?
For someone, I don't think I neglect that person, because that person don't even bother to talk to me since few weeks back ):

ANYWAY.
I still have my clique people. (girls & guys - crazy people lol :D)
My Ignyte team people.
My jiejie forever! :D (She is the best one, whom I never get angry with)
And moree.

Okay, gotta to run,
SEE YOU ALL ! :D

Super tired, super crazy today.

Didn't update for last few days because i were STUDYING ! !
So good girl hor, hee! :D

Hmm.
Past few days, i were thinking through.
I watched some tv dramas & felt very afraid of losing my close ones.
Well, I shouldn't be afraid because God is there !! (:

Today was a super crazy day.
Helped in MHI drama straight after home, meaning that I didn't go home at all.
And, I had to carry 2 bags and a file to school - embarrassing, but i don't have a choice.
Well, during acting.
Fun and interesting, learnt many things and experienced (:

In the late evening.
More and more people started calling my name, wish I could be in heaven at that moment T.T
Helped so much, till I nearly collapsed.
FINALLY.
Till the last part of my whole entire day today,
I managed to get to macs and spend time with my clique, phew! :D

And then,
HOME ! ! ! !
I'm really exhausted, gosh!
Tomorrow is another long day again. God, pls give me strength!

BTW.
Sorry those who I screamed at just now, because I was busy and you all were blocking the way too !
SORRRYYY AH..

Okay, update again.
Goodnight :D

Hmmph..

From now until mid-Sept, I won't be online until Saturday night/Sunday.
TO STUDY !
And, Kor's keeping his promise if I do this.
You all, who read my blog, be my witnesses ! :D

OKAY!
See you all over the weekends.. ):

Midnight has passed..

Blessed 1 year & 8 months anniversary with my Kor
&
I got many things in return.

I got myself into a stupid mess..
God, forgive me!

Gal 5:22 (9 fruits of the spirit) always remain with every person, no matter what..
I never, never, never realise..
That time when my ..how do i say..
well, my god-sister..younger one..? oh, no..what's happening to my english T.T?
She asked Kor about this verse..
God was speaking to me, through this verse! Like oh, no..

GOD !
I confess my sins to You & please forgive me..
Let me get my fruits of spirit back & get back my normal tune towards others, especially those who I've hurt alot for these past few days back.
I'm sorry for hurting You & this thing is what I'm supposed to do for You, not others.
Forgive me!
Amen.

I still feel a big mess in mind.
But, most importantly..
I need to go back & get my normal self back & focus on studies.

JOYCE, PLEASE REALISE YOURSELF ! oh gosh..

Just a simply quiet weekend.

I studied the whole day of yesterday, after hitting the gym in the morning.
Supposed to hang out in town at night, but changed mind.
I didn't have a good sleep either.

1am to 3am, 4am to 7am today.
Hit the gym again, my legs nearly collapsed, lol =x
Today @ MHI was quite touching and starting to miss people.
Wei Tjin ! !
He is such a nice funny guy, leaving to China for studies for 2 years.

I made a powerpoint presentation for him with tons of photos.
[Sorry people if this touched you alot & made you feel crying.. =)]
These brought back many great happiness to me.
Things change & guessing that I'm out of this clique of people & joining the youths instead.

16 years of my life is coming closer and closer.
But, I don't look forward to it.
Especially when I have to face problems and stress ):

Pray hard for all these ~

Prelims suck ):
Sleepless nights ):

Rushing for time & focusing mode on studies ! ! !

Happy birthday, MHI Jeremy Lee ! !

Happy birthday, Gladys See ! !

I miss my Kor.. ):

Another Tuesday, a disappointed one ):
NO MATTER WHAT .
I'm still carrying my life on .

I'M GOING TO BE AWAY FROM BLOGGING FOR THE MOMENT .

Things are changing ups and downs in my life now .
I'll be back perhaps after my N levels .

I'll update, perhaps short ones .
Don't miss my blog too much :D

Do text me any time ! (:

YO, I'M BACK .

Went out for a short break for 3 hours .
Bought a cap & slippers ! Yay ! :D
I broke the record ! !
The earliest time was 4 hours, before this .
Ha ha ha !

Funny part when I went out just now .
I went to Bugis, then to DG, then back to Bugis again, then back to DG again, to go home .
Up and down, to shop around .
Ha ha ha ha ! :D

Thank God for a great short afternoon with Char ! :D
A short good quality of time to be spent together .
It was a long time that I went out with her alone again !

Okay, gotta stop for the day .
Mugging mode for tomorrow paper !
AWAITING,
For my dinner at the same time ! :D

YO.

Yeah, I'm not in school again .
No exam paper, hee ! :D

Mugging Geography for tomorrow - Thank God the paper is in afternoon, I can sleep in the morning longer . Ha ha ha ! :D
Not enough time ! ! But, at least I study 2-3 chapters, out of 5 chapters lol .
MY POA ?! No time already, it's the day after tomorrow .
I need to move myself faster ! ! !

JIAYOU TO THE OTHERS TOO ! ! :D

I need to finish up this damn chapter of Geog .
Going out for a short break later .
Anyone wanna join ?
Ha ha ha, do text me if anything(:

Tonight, studying mode ! !
SEE YOU, ALL .

edited
I was reflecting many things last night .
Sorry Kor for those words !
I realised many things, was thinking again & again .
Maybe it's a teenager life changing .
To more deeper, a mature life perhaps .

AGAIN I SAY FOR MYSELF,
Time to plan what's next ! ! Gosh ! ! :D

Today was a quiet Sunday, to me .
For no apparent reason (:

Didn't go church service, I were too lazy to move myself to go out of house yet .
Too tired after 2 days of playing .
GOSH, I NEED TO STOP SLACKING ! :D

Went down to MHI for fellowship .
Phew, i was in time, before Patrick/Rene started leading SF .
Stayed to observe the Ipoh training, after fellowship .
Slacked around DG area .

Went to Cathay & saw some wonderful phones .
I planned to get one of these phones next year or 2 years' time when I turn to 18 .
Heh ! :D
Should I plan something for the day of my birthday?

Then, home .
That was how I spent my day today .

Life is changing in me .

I pray that God continues to give me some wisdom and strength as I face the changes in my life & challenges that comes into my life .

I AM BACK !

About yesterday, ups and downs again .
I think God planned my day in this way because of many purposes .

DISAPPOINTED,
I was late for the activities organised by Wesley Church (under MHI team) .
Took wrong bus & no one informed me of the wrong no .
Had to spend few dollars on taxi fare to make a turn back to the venue, as i alighted at the wrong stop .

One silly thing I did at the wrong bus stop .
I gave $5 to an old lady who lost her wallet and begged me for money to take bus to another place . I was rushing, then I wonder again and again .
Gave $5-dollar note to her & i went off .
Did I do the wrong thing, God?

HAPPY,
I enjoyed the event with MHI people .

THANKFUL,
For those who accompanied me after the event, to have a short supper & chat with me .
FYI . Dinner at the event was SPICY ! ! ! -_-
Also, my mum had finally bought the dress for my uncle's upcoming wedding next month .
(She had been nagging at me about it for the past few weeks, lol)

Many things I had seen yesterday.
My internet was down last night, made me so frustrated at the same time .
But, with God, I managed to cool down & did some work instead (:

About today, go see the next post ! (:
(This post is so wordy already, heeee :D)

Super late now .
But, I want to blog about today ! ! ! ( I still consider today is still Friday )

I went down to DG in the afternoon .
Had lunch at PS .
Initially, I wanted to study Geog for full 2-3 hours @ MHI .
Ended up I studied less than an hour .
Spent most of the time, talking to Zhou Meng ( Found out that it's actually not hard to communicate with her )

It's so great that we had such a long chat . Maybe like about 2 hours .
About Republic Poly & stuffs .

Later, in evening .
More girls and guys came .
Had so much fun, taking pictures & video-ing ourselves in ZM's laptop .
Funny, retarded, dirty-minded pictures .
LOL !

Headed home, after that .
Me, a bubble tea then homeee ! :D

I feel everything is so nice today .
Hee !

GOODNIGHT, ALL .