Yo, all .

Updating before going out to town until night (:
Went to gym again, just now .
Exercising is great !
Looking forward to cut my fats down, ha ha ha ! :D

Okay, text me if anything .
SEE YOU, ALL .

I miss my bestfriend ♥
GET WELL SOON, BESTFRIEND ! :D

edited:
I just read through the posts that are a year back, meaning Aug'08 .
My life is ups and downs in so many different ways .
Giving some thoughts, I'm turning to 16 in about 1-2 months' time .
In another 2 years, I'll be 18 .

Life is moving so fast .
Changes are made everywhere, everyday, every second & I'm moving my life so slow .
What's this ? Time for me to buck up faster !

Time to get some maturity thinking .
Plan what's really next for me .

Life is full of changes

Back !

I'm going to be super super sian for the night already .
Just taking a break for today's night .
Looking forward to tomorrow .
Anyone want join me ?

Lunch anywhere .
Studying @ MHI (from 2-5pm).
DVD movie @ MHI (dinner provided) .

The rest of the day will be as usual .
I don't have to list it out here (:

Just text me if anything .
I'm going to find something which is more relaxing to do .
I'm not going to touch any book to study tonight (:

GOODNIGHT, ALL .

It's still early, not even in the evening yet .

Had Phy/Bio exams today .
I feel that both of them are making me explode already .
They were supposed to be easy .
But, because I didn't finish studying every single chapter, they were a lil hard .
Oh, no ! Oh, no !
Pray hard that the results will be alright *cross fingers* !

4 days break from school now .
Yipeeeee ! ! :D
Still, on mugging mode for another 3 papers (2 subjects) .

I feel God's good . Plans for the next few days until my last paper on Wed are going faithfully .
Nothing is going to crash, not even the weekend .
HOW GREAT ! :D

Okay, update again .
See you, all .

Back from studying .

Sorry it's a secret who i went with to study just now .
Ha ha ha ! ! ! :D
Anyway .
Managed to study biology more than physics for few hours .
Oh gosh ! !

Biology MCQs are not that bad .
Pray for my Biology, section B & C ! Oh, no . My writing structure sucks ! D:

Understanding physics are not that bad either .
Pray that I can remember things that I studied - Some of you may know that I'm that forgetful ! Ahh !

JIAYOU FOR THESE PAPERS TOMORROW ! :D
They are the last papers of the week .
Whee ! :D

I miss my girlfriends & my close ones in life ♥ - Gosh ! I want N levels to end faster ! :D
Then, TIME TO PLAY PLAY ! :D
But, I need to get settled down soon & start planning for what's next .

In mugging mode now .
See ya, all .

Blogging before I'm off to study .

Today English paper 1 was alright .
I managed to finish my compo & letter in time .
Next, English paper 2 .
Also, was alright .
Half-way throughout the paper, I'm already so sleepy ! ! !

Lastly, Social Studies paper !
Can't tahan anymore .
Kept my eyes wide open & scribbled papers like mad .
I wrote so much, until my hand nearly wanted to break already .
I finished writing on the spot, that time was up ! ! !
What a close shave !

All thanks to Him, who gave me strength, wisdom and guidance throughout these 3 papers tomorrow ! !
Tomorrow, another 2 more .
Then, a break on Friday all the way to Monday night ! ! ! Wheee ! :D
Next week, 2 more .
Then, I'll be free from prelims !
Time to prepare for the REAL REAL BIG exams ! Ahhhhhh ! :D

JIAYOU ! :D
Okay, I have to run now .
To study with ...
Tonight, find out more ! (:

What a rotten evening, eh .

I went down to MHI in the evening for tuition .
Talked to Pauline about the next step of life .
I need to have my passion, my goal, my dream ! Where are they? Gosh ! D:

Time for me to get some serious thinking about it .
Soon, it's no more slack for me .
Ahhhh ! D:
Gonna be an working adult soon or later ! Oh, no !

Had tuition & went for late dinner .
Then,
ONE OF MY SLIPPERS BROKE !
Had to walk with a bare foot and the other foot with slipper .
How awful is that ! -_-

Rotten luck please, LOL !
Okay, gotta to sleep soon, for tomorrow exam papers ! :D

GOOD NIGHT, ALL .

YO, PEOPLE !
I must really say life sucks .

Still, no matter what .
I'll still go on & finish my N levels & proceed to the next step of life .

I still have my other friends, girlfriends & guy friends if THEY still want to continue to ignore me ♥
Not forgetting my pretty babe .
Excited for her little one .
Also, this cute funny couple .
Excited for their new home .

Problems will never end & I seek Him for His strength and wisdom .

PRELIMS ARE STARTING TOMORROW FOR ME !
3 papers in a day - 2 EL papers & 1 SS paper !
Jiayou ! ! :D

Surprising news .
I went gym on Sunday morning to exercise, before I went church service - That explains why I were a little late for service, hee ! :D
I just went gym again just now .
Exercising !
Made me feel better, like so great :D

Soon, let's go jogging or cycling at ECP with me !
Train my leg muscles .
FATS suck ! Ha ha ha ! :D

OKAY GONNA MUG NOW .
Update again (:

After all,

I should appreciate others ♥
I LOVE YOU ALL, NO MATTER WHAT ! (:

WHAT'S HAPPENING AGAIN .

Yesterday was ups and downs .
Today was everything sucky .
I wonder whether it's because of me that one part of people in life is starting to ignore me .
My studies suck, obviously ):

Some people asked me all these before .

Why I'm not afraid of cars on roads:
Today, I noticed something related to it . I'm carrying my dad's genes of not being afraid .

Why I'm not afraid of death:
I know God's with me & if I die, I believe that it's God's will that it's time for me to be with Him .

People keep on telling me this :
" Don't blog, don't blog ! You will affect other people unnecessarily . "
To me, I'm not asking you to be affected by me .
You care, come to me .
I'm an easy-going person & open-minded person, I won't mind (:

I think too much ?
I don't think so, things are coming towards me & I'm trying to fight against them .

Someone whom I can finally trust, talked to me yesterday & I got some advices from her .
Many thanks and love to her ! (:
I still have my other friends ! ♥

SEE YOU ALL .
Tomorrow, no school ! Wheeeee ! :D

I'm back !

HAPPY TODAY,
because I had fun at a friend's birthday bash (:
Bought nail polish again :D
Slacked like mad - Yah i know that i'm supposed to study, heh ! xD

DISAPPOINTED TODAY,
tuition cancelled over a small matter, duh .
I got blisters everywhere on my feet, LOL ! xD

Had fun with my girlfriends and my guy friends today ♥

OKAY,
tomorrow is church !
Hope not to overslept, heh heh ! :D

GOOD NIGHT, ALL .

AHHHH I'M BACK !

I reached home late last night, so didn't blog . Heh !
Yesterday no lesson & dismissed earlier than expected, national day celebrations .
Nothing much .
SO RELAXING & LALALALA .

Home, then lunch with girls & guys at DG .
The girls went to meet the other boys for movieeeeeee .
Sorry, didn't join you all because not interested lah (:
I was left with Patrick Weeeeee & Juncong, the loudest guy I have ever met lol .
Went MHI after lunch .
Slacked slacked .
Diyana came & later evening, we went down to Cityhall to shop around .
Went back to MHI & the rest came .
Nothing much .

Just one thing that disappointed my day .
Sigh, i think the girls will know what i'm talking about (:
SO HAPPY UNTIL .
The last part of my day, before i went home, was destroyed .
WHAT THE .

Anyway I still have my girlfriends, my guy friends, my other friends & family ♥
I always have to remind myself for that, heee ! :D

Gotta to go !
Will be back late tonight, groans .
Ha ha, partying at night @ a friend's house . BIRTHDAY BASH, whee !
Okay, see you all !

ENJOY YOUR DAY AHEAD ! :D

Super long day today, at least a lil better .

School was alright, but a lil sleepy though .
Stayed behind for tutorial & went off later than usual .
Got home & had my lunch + dinner .
Went out again .
Last minute shopping, for clothes to wear tomorrow (:

Got a bag from cityhall, a tee from bugis, a shorts from compass point .
LOL ! I'm not rich . All these are cheap, hee (:
I love the bag ! (You will see me carrying it tomorrow, heh .)

Okay .
I gotta to do my things already .
Tomorrow is super fun day !
National Day celebrations ! (:
BUT, have to stay back a while for Bio, which sucks .

The good thing is I'm wearing outside clothes until night, means I'm not going home until night .
I gonna to town until night :D
HOW FUN ! :D

SEE YOU ALL .

Left with a week to prelims !
Like, oh no ! I'm not definitely prepared ):

I'm really annoyed today .
I weren't feeling that good to go school, but I still went .
Teacher won't accept the fact that I'm on medication at home which is super annoying & she had to yell at class for 3rd time that letters aren't going to be accepted .
WHAT THE .

You want me to die faster, isn't ?
Going to doctor is pointless to me now .
The only thing I can do is going to hospital for that uncomfortable scanning & an op if there is a need .
Touch wood, there may be effects if i really go for the op .
I don't want please .
Prelims're next week & N levels're next month ):

Got gastrics cramps in between lessons .
Had to bear until lessons end .
Went home . (Sorry - didn't go down for tutorial -_-)

Feel so mixed every where .
My studying mode is gone, all thanks to my cramps .
Usual self is gone, all thanks to the struggling of bearing the pain for the past 2 days & until now .
Oh, what a damn .

I need to get them back & rushing for time !
Really, serious about it ! ):

God, please give me some wisdom !

How am i going to continue in this way ?
I'm giving a thought not to proceed to sec 5 next year, oh damn it ! (Just a thought, not a decision)

Didn't see a doctor, but on medication at home .
Remember that I mentioned that I'm on medication for 6 weeks .
Blame on myself for not taking regularly .
Too busy with schoolwork & preparing for exams .
Sigh .

Ample of rest needed too .
But I can't help it, but trying to study again & again .
I'm just studying a bit by a bit, I know I'm rushing for time ):

No point getting well & do exams, when I didn't study that much for exams ! !

God, please heal me quickly & give me strength to finish my preparations for upcoming exams !
Take away my pain too please ! - I'm still in pain ):

I had to shift my tonight tuition to this Saturday, feeling bad about it ):
But, all thanks to my bestest Kor !
If it was other tutor, I'm dead meat for sure .

One of my classmates told me that I failed my POA test, no big deal .
I just expected it .
Again, I didn't study for it due to some reasons ):

Every part of myself is seriously affecting my life, which is totally annoying .

God, please bless me in Your hand !
And also, good health upon others (there're some friends who are getting gastrics out there, too) .
Not forgetting Pauline & Vanessa who are currently in Korea .
Bless them for safety & smooth journey back to S'pore on Thursday .

Will update till then .

Oops . No update of yesterday .
By the way, my counting down of days to these exams are totally wrong, I guess so .
Now for upcoming prelims next Wednesday for me .
Meaning, I'm left with 8 days .

Yesterday school was alright except a lil sleepy .
Didn't attend that crazy maths teacher's tutorial as not feeling well .
Once I got home, my cramps got worse .
I nearly died, please .

SORRY PEOPLE, FOR YESTERDAY,
THAT I CHATTED WITH YOU ALL HALF-WAY IN MSN .

Now I'm a lil better, at least don't need to rant like mad .
Didn't attend today's school, obviously .

Why it has to be another Tuesday of not attending school again ?
It sucks please .
Tuesday is always an important day to me, you know ):
Why?
1. Lessons of 4 subjects today (I'll miss out a lot of things ) .
2. PE - I need to exercise, but cannot because the state I'm in .
3. Kor's tuition - This is 5th time (I think so, or more than that) that I've to miss .

I will be seeing a doctor again for 7th MC later .
The 6th month of suffering this pain already .

Okay, I have to go .
I missed a night of studying 2 subjects yesterday & today another subject .
3 subjects at ONE GO today .
It's really insane !

SEE YOU ALL .

5 more days to prelims ! 33 more days to the first BIG BIG paper ! 52 more days to the last BIG BIG paper ! 53 more days to holidays of the year ! ♥

Today I was late for church service & felt uneasy throughout the service .
I weren't listening to the sermon . Lost focus somehow .
Went for prayer meeting .
A big blessing I heard that my pretty babe tutor is pregnant ! :D

After prayer meeting, had lunch .
All thanks to Lynette that I nearly got 'scolded'. Ha ha . Just joking .
Still felt uneasy .

After so much courage, I finally approached my Kor .
We had a 2-3 hours talk .
I won't elaborate too much details into this ( our privacy, hee . )
As He is with us, we had a strong will of our sibling relationship in the end .

We talked about Christianity, ourselves and stuffs .
It was a great talk & we finally understood each other !
Thank God !

I realised many things relating to Christianity & how these affect Christians especially those who converted into Christian from other religion family .
So now,

To all my girlfriends/dearies/friends :
I'M ALRIGHT WITH MY KOR .
IGNORE MY PREVIOUS POSTS .
I OUGHT TO APPRECIATE OUR CLOSE ONES :D
Thanks for being there for me though ♥
You all rock ! :D
ILY ALL !

Time to get myself organised & do what God wants me to do .
Mugging mode for exams ! 5 more days !
FIGHTING ~ !

Yeah yeah . It has been a while that I stay awake for the night .
Look at the time & you must be saying that I'm mad .

Well, I'm not that mad .
Just a night that I can't sleep .
Few hours before going to church , but I guess i'll have an early breakfast & morning stroll, perhaps .

But !
My left foot hurts due to me being clumsy .
More likely, I were blur .
Didn't see & nearly tripped over the 'don't know' thing and knocked my foot, duhh !
Sigh .

Well , no big deal whether I go for stroll .
Most importantly . I need to get to church on time today !
Yeah, feeling awkward .
But things I've to do today is a must .

Okay .
I'm doing stuffs . See you all . In 2-3 hours' time, will be morning (:

6 more days to prelims ! 34 more days to the first BIG BIG paper ! 53 more days to the last BIG BIG paper ! 54 more days to holidays of the year ! ♥

See the difference ?
The days're near. I lost track in the first place & realised that my counting days were wrong !
No big deal anyway.
Days pass, mugging mode increases.

I beat the record today !
I went out shopping & dinner for only 4 hours which is super wonderful to me !
Bought tops, shoes & nail polish, wheeeeeeee !
I only spent this week's savings - Time for me to save until my exams end (:
Came home early & no nagging :D

Also studied the whole morning and slacked a while during lunch break at home (:
I finally studied english & a bit of physics.
Yesterday was a bit of maths & physics at MHI.

Happy with what I did this time during friday & saturday nights.
Last week was wasted, it was already in the past & shall forget about it (:

Someone approached me in msn about the previous post.
I know you want to protect him, but I'm not bothering about it.
I want him to know what I'm talking about.
People read it, so what?
I'm saying facts & it's all his decision right now.
I'm not offended or blaming you, but saying the truth. Anyway, that's no harm for me to say that.

Okay.
Time for me to have some mugging mode for another few hours before I end my day(:
I wonder about tomorrow.
Complicated things, sigh. But, still have to go on & make my decisions.

Goodnight, all.
Till I update again which is ... tomorrow ! Yeah, do await for my next post ! (:

God, forgive me for those bad words I've been saying.
I want to say many things but will skip some parts.

After a night's thought,
After hanging out with those people at Macs last night,

I realised that those people are real friends although there're complicated matters in between.
So what, if there're boys around?
Friends are friends. No big deal of having boys as our friends.
And also, not forgetting others as well (HI friends) ! (:

Feeling left-out?
Actually, you blame yourself not us.
I can see many of us, trying to talk/joke/laugh/tease(not in a bad way) with each other as much as we can.
You must understand that there're many of us & you can't expect every single one of us to talk to you every time we meet each other.

I'm saying facts.
If you won't believe me, you can ask the other girls. I bet they will say the same kind of things.
Anyway, I want to say, is:
ALL OF US ARE NOT AT FAULT ! (:

I realised that I don't deserve to be cared by other people, maybe just those real friends (:
No big deal with that, because I don't want to be stupid by being used of, and being a fool to them.
I think my family will be that enough ♥

Kor, if you don't want to talk to me or you don't want to continue this,
I think we will just stop this & I'll stop bothering you.

I always think you are the best in my life, although people say things about you.
You change my life into a better way by bringing me to church & knowing Christ.
But somehow, recently,
You treat me differently (not like a brother treating a sister) & I try to hint you many times.
You don't get my point and think you're doing right thing & don't bother in changing yourself.
But I must say your attitude towards people is not right.
Treating different people in different ways, where is the real you? The real Kor I've?
I'm NOT expecting too much from you.
I just want you to realise yourself & people even can see obviously.
I don't want people to think wrongly & saying as if you don't care about your sister.
Definitely, I know you care, just that in different way.
But you give wrong impression to people (you're making others that I've a Kor like this & people will think I'm stupid to have you as my Kor) & I hate to hear things like that.
I don't want to continue if you won't understand what I'm trying to say.

(If you aren't going to respond, I will take it as we are siblings in name only)

Soon or later, i will stop going church, because I already said that I don't deserve to be cared by others.
The best way for me is to spend time with family & those real friends ♥
I think my life will be better in this way.
What I want to say, is:
DON'T BOTHER ASKING ME, ONCE I DECIDE (:
(I have not decide yet, but thinking about it)

I know some of you(who are in unknown about this) will get worried.
I'm seriously completely alright & in fighting mode with my upcoming prelims & exams.
Don't need to ask what happened (:

Focusing on my future(:
If I fail this year, I'm prepared to take whatever step that is ahead me.
I'm prepared for the good outcome and bad outcome.
Definitely I will want a positive way to go (:

Mugging mode ! :D
See you all, probably updating tonight(:

Yeah so late right now.

7 more days to prelims ! 35 more days to the first BIG BIG paper ! 54 more days to the last BIG BIG paper ! 55 more days to holidays of the year ! ♥

A horrible day.
I got criticized by my maths teacher in front of whole class today.
Like losing face, wtf.

Went down to MHI.
Another problem came, like wtf.
I had enough please.

Thanks to all who are still there for me ! ♥